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I just had flashbacks to a kid saying he was part asian because one of his ancestors was royalty. Just realized it was ghangis khan man.

I think that applies to a fair percentage of Asians in general actually.

He was a productive man.

Twitch hottake? Partner pushes are freaking lame. Like being partnered is good and all but it just seems super desperate for views. Like I feel like at this point the streamer is streaming for the sake of getting a job rather than having fun. like they all say the same thing like how "It's for the community". Like no it's for you to get more money. It's just so fake

i haven't had this many friends in a long time. it's not a lot of people, but i'm very thankful to feel like i'm rebuilding a community for myself. it's been a lot of work, but i think worth it for my emotional needs.

This trend in tiktok where people are faking having disorders and trying to normalize it is so gross. like sure it's cool to encourage people to learn more about disorders and how to help make others have easier lives but when it's people wishing they had a disorder for the sake of being quirky makes me feel disgusting.

I don't really like to talk about it but I have tics (not exactly tourettes) since around middle school and growing up between then and high school was really frustrating. Being told to be quiet by both students and teachers showed how uneducated a lot of people were and it was even worsen when I was told by family that I was pretending or that I needed to stop.

Thoughts about all those kids making fun of me by mimicking me or telling me to shut up will pop up in my head every so often. However luckily I have met people who actually defended me in high school from others which was very sweet of them to do.

Tbh it just feels like I don't really agree with how disorders are being treated nowadays with younger people. Instead of educating people about them we just say "it's fine and normal" and pass it off as a quirk for people to laugh at or desire. There have even been. And because of this people in the future will get confused on how much their disorder is effecting them. and as a result I see more and more people self diagnosing themselves :/

It really just seems like people just want attention or validation for having a disorder :///

Edit: I kinda realized I meant "minimalizing" instead if "normalizing" lol

Holy crap yes, you, above me. I couldn't agree more.

I have autism and it effected me so much in school, especially in my earlier years when I was too young to properly explain what autism even was. People treated me like absolute crap over it. I still have trauma over the way I was targeted by my principal and he would pull me and my mom into his office when she would come to pick me up from school and lecture her about how I "caused a scene" with other kids and I need to learn how to behave because I'm not a very good person and I won't get anywhere in life if I keep acting like this. I just wanted to break down crying because I had no idea how any of this was my fault. How was I the bad guy when other kids were straight up calling me either a liar or the dreaded r-word for some of the older ones? I didn't feel like the bad person at first, so being told I was just put this constant fear in my mind that somehow I was screwing up and convincing myself I was a good person. I felt like I was at fault. I kinda grew up believing I was at fault for my own disability and the quirks it caused me to display. Its not even that the mistreatment lessened as I got older, but rather that I just started becoming numb to it. Grew up hating people.

I'm a social nightmare. I can't interact. I feel terrified every time I post online that somehow I'm doing something wrong, just like the way I did in real life. Same reason I freak out if I upset someone. It feels the same way it was as a kid when I was lectured for being a bad person when someone decided to be mean to me over something petty and/or my disability and whether or not it existed. I'm not even using it as an excuse, but rather its just how I am and I can't delete all this baggage overnight.

As someone who has a lot of issues, I don't understand why ANYONE would WANT those. No, you don't want autism. You also don't want the depression, anxiety, panic attacks, etc, I have. Not only do you not get pity for having them, but they can make life a nightmare sometimes. You don't want this. I don't want this. Not a single human on this green Earth should want this.

I don’t have a Halloween costume yet. I don’t have an idea for a Halloween costume yet. It is the 15th of October and I don’t feel spooky at all.

I have a Halloween costume now, all is right in the world.

i have a very big crush on Doobydobap

Gf was very upset today due to a death in the family... I wasn't sure if she wanted my company or not, but I swung by anyhow. We chatted and then played Animal Crossing... I'm not good at it yet, but every time I goofed up the controls or ran into things it would make her laugh, so honestly I kept doing it and purposely did not try to learn from my mistakes. I will proudly own my title of "most klutzy AC player" if it means it cheers her up, even a little. c:

Anyone else get annoyed when people make up people to hate on

nothing more annoying then people trying to be different saying"popular show/movie bad and overrated"

also speaking of movies people who make up plot holes in movies to make it look worse are so silly. i guess hitler invading russia was a plot hole because it was too cold to invade. colombus branding American natives as indians is a pothole because they weren't in India. my dad going to the store to buy milk is a pothole because its been 7 years since he left to get it and its only a 10 minute drive.

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People overestimate how easy it is for women to get emotional help sometimes, I’ve had so many men tell me “well, you can be open and get help, people sympathise with girl” when my experience is realistically getting taken advantage of for being open and/or trying to be a good person, or people in general told to shut up because when I was in the most pain because i was whiiining (which made me emotionally repress and become apathetic and dulled too). Life is easier to accept now but im pretty depressed and i miss who i used to be

^this basically times 1000000 idk what planet those people live on other then "guy world" and if we re supposed to include the internet in that fat chance getting anything OTHER than "stop whining" girls being in distress to many = whiny melodramatic emo ***** which toooooooooooooooootally helps by the way

gasoline smells good

i whole heartedly agree christmas sucks and i wish it would not be such a big deal

hey that s dope sounds better than the real holiday to me lol

i don't know what the christmas before halloween joke is, probably because i'm lame, but if you change your mind and want to use a halloween pfp, i will totally be happy to back you up by using my gumi halloween pic again.

i loved that gumi avatar do it guys do the halloween avatar s

honestly self deprecating humor is so lazy and a bad attitude to have in life. like being humble and poking at yourself is fine but the act of always putting yourself down and putting off praise or approval is toxic to you. most of the time it just feels like people trying to hide their lack of self esteem and insecurities with tacky humor

I hate Christmas too. I don't like the aesthetic, I don't have anyone to exchange gifts with, decorating is way too much work, and HOLY CRAP do I absolutely DESPISE Christmas music. Its annoying as all. I also get pretty tired of the way Christmas consumes all other holidays around it. The holidays essentially go in this order Christmas, Halloween, Christmas, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, Christmas.

Besides, all I have are memories of terrible Christmas get togethers with the family where I was the only child but I was forced to go anyways and I got bullied by a bunch of adults for being the odd one out, existing wrong, not liking the food, whatever. It didn't matter. Everything. I was the problem. Me existing was bad. Then my birthday would get combined with Christmas because they're so close together anyways, which means not ONCE as a kid did I get to properly celebrate my birthday. Not bloody ONCE. And I hate cake, so I don't care about losing that, but all I wanted was just to gather together a few people, eat some ice cream, get a gift or two, and have someone tell me Happy Birthday without Christmas being part of it.

Nothing against people who enjoy Christmas. Do you. I don't care. But I do wish it was less consuming and I don't really want it in my life. Doesn't have that I'm apparently a terrible person for not liking Christmas. At least so says the people in my life.

Speaking of Christmas aesthetic, me and my gf were just talking yesterday and agreed that red and green is horrible. We both like blue and white as Christmas colors, it gives it a more "angelic" feeling. Less Santa, more Jesus.

Red and green don't even really go together that well, in my opinion. Love red on its own, very impartial to green, but together they look terrible. I could for sure go for some blue and white, though.

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I hate Christmas too. I don't like the aesthetic, I don't have anyone to exchange gifts with, decorating is way too much work, and HOLY CRAP do I absolutely DESPISE Christmas music. Its annoying as all. I also get pretty tired of the way Christmas consumes all other holidays around it. The holidays essentially go in this order Christmas, Halloween, Christmas, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, Christmas.

Besides, all I have are memories of terrible Christmas get togethers with the family where I was the only child but I was forced to go anyways and I got bullied by a bunch of adults for being the odd one out, existing wrong, not liking the food, whatever. It didn't matter. Everything. I was the problem. Me existing was bad. Then my birthday would get combined with Christmas because they're so close together anyways, which means not ONCE as a kid did I get to properly celebrate my birthday. Not bloody ONCE. And I hate cake, so I don't care about losing that, but all I wanted was just to gather together a few people, eat some ice cream, get a gift or two, and have someone tell me Happy Birthday without Christmas being part of it.

Nothing against people who enjoy Christmas. Do you. I don't care. But I do wish it was less consuming and I don't really want it in my life. Doesn't have that I'm apparently a terrible person for not liking Christmas. At least so says the people in my life.

............thank you for posting that it s like you transplanted my christmas thoughts from my head exactly (other than the birthday part) could not have worded it better myself

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Speaking of Christmas aesthetic, me and my gf were just talking yesterday and agreed that red and green is horrible. We both like blue and white as Christmas colors, it gives it a more "angelic" feeling. Less Santa, more Jesus.

the only time red and green go good together is apples or mario and luigi

I think Minions are cute and I like them a lot.

pet peeve when people say they don't know who *YouTuber/streamer is" whenever they get nominated for an award or pop up in YouTube rewind. There are so many people with over a million followers but obviously only the people you watch matter

Literally who

^those people who underestimate and belittle those who have PTSD because it s not "real" PTSD are ignorant and clearly don t know anything about mental illness you re absolutely right and justified for being irritated with it. PTSD absolutely can be formed in someone through a series of events are continued exposure to whatever the traumatic experienceS might be and physical violence is not a de facto requirement for PTSD. honestly on the whole people like to belittle others for having a mental illness as much as (at least in this country) they like to pretend we have moved passed looking at the mentally disabled like a stain on society most haven t and it s double points if they can also throw in "you don t even have a REAL mental illness/or you re exaggerating it" which is again ignorant and does show how little there is a general understanding on how these disorders operate in people and Drawdler yes absolutely people are the same with OCD and a part of that is (though it sounds like i m contradicting the point above) because in this case people SO frequently make OCD into a joke or are like "haha look how OCD i am can t pick a color shirt to where today that s my OCD HAHA" when that s not the disorder in the slightest to how extreme and debilitating it can be but because of how normalized the term has become it just belittled it as a disorder as a whole rather than making people more familiar with it so they can understand it and show some god damned understanding to people who have the disorder and yeah most people do not take it seriously at all "like it s just an annoying habit just get rid of it ignore it" mental illness is still heavily misunderstood frowned about used as a means to bully others or belittle them and we are long ways away from truly normalizing it whether it be PTSD OCD full blown autism or aspergers and even people with legitimate phobias people need to be way more educated and taught how to be more understanding of people with mental disorders and that NO they are not to be taken lightly or to be made fun of because they have them

Isn't PTSD more common as death by a thousand cuts than not?

Then again, trying to fit mental illness in a neat box to stereotype is just the usual, which I hate

what do you mean by the death by a thousand cuts part?

oh wait i think i understand the term now you mean by multiple traumatic events repeated abuse and then yeah absolutely but i agree with the thing about trying to put mental illness in a ox also being an issue too

Yeah, basically that. Even for people who associate it with a single event, it's usually not just that that built the whole reaction.

yeah exactly from my knowledge of it personal irl experience with people who have had it you re absolutely right it s just people have no clue what they re talking about when it comes to mental illness they do a quick search on the internet and just come to conclusions and spread it around and it gets distorted and that s where we get the people drawdler was talking about

one time my ex-girlfriend (who was 21 at the time, and I just turned 18), went up to a real human adult who was walking her dog, and said, “can I smooth your doggo?” the woman looked so confused and said “what?” my ex repeats the phrase and I’m just over there cringing and literally putting my face in my hands and it still haunts me 3 years later. wish I’d broken up with her right there and then lmao

there was a lot wrong with her

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one time my ex-girlfriend (who was 21 at the time, and I just turned 18), went up to a real human adult who was walking her dog, and said, “can I smooth your doggo?” the woman looked so confused and said “what?” my ex repeats the phrase and I’m just over there cringing and literally putting my face in my hands and it still haunts me 3 years later. wish I’d broken up with her right there and then lmao

there was a lot wrong with her

this is like when I say "poggers" as a joke but nobody gets it

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one time my ex-girlfriend (who was 21 at the time, and I just turned 18), went up to a real human adult who was walking her dog, and said, “can I smooth your doggo?” the woman looked so confused and said “what?” my ex repeats the phrase and I’m just over there cringing and literally putting my face in my hands and it still haunts me 3 years later. wish I’d broken up with her right there and then lmao

there was a lot wrong with her

She sounds hilarious. One time my gf walked into GameStop with a straight face and asked the lady "ma'am I have a very important question. Do you guys sell video games here?" I love her

both jaggedstar and strawberry awesome stuff right there i totally be sure to say stuff like that in public because i can t help embarrassing the people around me and myself…. on purpose…. it s the best

^ ^ if you two knew her you would change ur tone v quickly. she is not hilarious. however, strawberry, your girl sounds genuinely hilarious so marry her for me ok xoxo

well just based on the oooooone moment you gave that was kind of funny if there was more to it or her that made her a worse than you are probably right

much more : ') just trust me when i say that moment was extremely cringe

okay so then do you mean the way she did it or her doing it because who she is is cringe? or anyone doing that is cringe because then i sincerely apologize for myself for being cringe because….. yeah i would probably do that just to make stuff weird on purpose lol

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okay so then do you mean the way she did it or her doing it because who she is is cringe? or anyone doing that is cringe because then i sincerely apologize for myself for being cringe because….. yeah i would probably do that just to make stuff weird on purpose lol

the way she did it and because of who she is. pls pls don't EVER apologise for being yourself. i'm pretty sure you're a much better person than this *****. i'm so sorry if i made u feel any type of way or question yourself, was not my intention at all, i'm just coming to terms (3 years after the breakup) how absolutely WRONG she was for me and how **** of a person she is lol