darkSpyro

Hey everyone, it's me, spyro fan 8/AestheticDragon/Gharlant/Eighwek.

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In addition to that, I also had legal action threatened against me multiple times and that really scared me because I have people irl that are dependent on me at the moment and if I ruin my life they will be negatively affected too. My actions were selfish and although I could bear the punishment it wouldn't be fair for the people that still trust me to have to go through that. It also wouldn't make me any better than the people in my life who came before me who I said I'd never turn out like. I guess I'm more like them than I thought.

Hey everyone, it's me, spyro fan 8/AestheticDragon/Gharlant/Eighwek.

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I've been thinking a lot about the things that happened and all the trouble I've caused, not just here but everywhere online and in my personal life, and I've made peace with the fact that no matter how much I say I've changed and apologize, I can never go back and change the things I've done. It was selfish of me to expect things to go back to normal and I've actually been feeling a lot better since I learned to accept that things are done and not try to hold onto the past anymore. I've lost countless friends since my last episode and I'm actually still being punished for something I did last June. I thought I could just ignore it and it would go away but I have to face the consequences that I've earned for myself and that's been the hardest part of all of this. I didn't want to admit I have a problem but I do. I know I attempted to manipulate many of you, even those who were my friends, and there's simply no excuse for that. You guys are not therapists and you shouldn't have to deal with my emotional abuse.

I'm not here to try and rekindle any long-lost relationships I've destroyed. I'm not opposed to it but I've lost my right to try and fix things. I'm just moving on. I'm here because I still love Spyro and more importantly I love the people I've met that I somehow haven't pushed away yet. I want to stay here and talk to those people. I know many of those who I've hurt have left the website, so they don't have to deal with me anymore obviously, but for those of you who are still here I'm honestly very deeply sorry for what I've done. I messed up, but even more than that I purposely antagonized most of you and did what I could to make your time here as miserable as possible. Many people were able to move on from those times easily but others weren't and I ruined a lot of good memories for you. I'm sorry.

I don't want to keep dwelling on this, I will remember the past but I won't keep bringing it up. I just wanted to apologize for any excuses I've made in the past, yeah I was sick but I shouldn't have put that on you guys. I had access to mental health care and I chose to not use it, so my continued downward spiral was a result of my own actions. Even as I try to look at this as objectively as possible, I can't find anybody to blame except myself. And I should've admitted that a lot sooner. It really hurts knowing that I caused this, but at least I deserve that pain, unlike the many people who I hurt who did absolutely nothing wrong and were subjected to my frustrating cycle of toxic behavior.

I also wanted to mention what I've been up to in the time that I've been gone. I haven't done anything bad like before, but I've still been facing the consequences of things that happened as early as last June. Many of you know my wife and best friend had enough of me and left, but even those people who I maintained friendships with have slowly drifted away from me, even as I took the steps to get proper help for my behavior. They said even though I'm not doing anything wrong at the moment, their image of me has changed and they have no guarantee that I won't turn on them again. So they eventually just left.. it took me too long to realize that my actions from nearly a year ago have lasting consequences. I can no longer use the excuse "I've changed, I'm not like that anymore" because that doesn't change the fact that I did what I did and I have to take responsibility for it or else nothing will change.

In addition to that, I also had legal action threatened against me multiple times and that really scared me because I have people irl that are dependent on me at the moment and if I ruin my life they will be negatively affected too. My actions were selfish and although I could bear the punishment it wouldn't be fair for the people that still trust me to have to go through that. It also wouldn't make me any better than the people in my life who came before me who I said I'd never turn out like. I guess I'm more like them than I thought.

Anyway, I encourage anybody who has anything to say to me regarding this to please PM me. If you're someone I know I've hurt you don't have to worry about me reaching out to you, I understand that taking responsibility for my actions includes admitting it was my fault and moving on and getting the help I've always said I needed. I'll still be around but I'm going to continue getting help and part of that may include spending less time online, but maybe that's for the best. I still have problems but I'm acknowledging that and removing myself from situations that I might make worse. I'm optimistic about the progress I've made so far but I'm not naive enough to think I'm even remotely close to being done. Maybe it'll be a lifelong process, I'm not sure, but I do plan to stick with it and continue trying to cope with this problem of mine.

mini update because why not
anyways ive been diving into game creation and trying to find a new job and wanted to focus on those, hence why i left the discord
anyways im working on acceptance of the self and self confidence as well. it’s been a little taxing, but i think im better for it. i came out to a lot of people and lost an unfortunate amount of people for it. it doesnt matter though because there’s plenty of people who actually care about me that have my back, and are helping me be more confident and unapologetically myself. i still have a lot of work to do but, well, that’s the point.

anyways, ill see you guys in like 4 months when i decide i wanna post again

hey chompy i remember you!! specifically from 2018 when i was on here before how have you been

Oh hey Chompy! Welcome back!

wassup guys!! :')

DUDES I WAS GONE FOR SO LONG DARK ACTUALLY MADE A NEW POLL

its been 3 months who missed me

Welcome back dork!

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its been 3 months who missed me

i miss you all the tiem dude <3

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wassup guys!! :')

DUDES I WAS GONE FOR SO LONG DARK ACTUALLY MADE A NEW POLL

bro wait til you find out what else you missed

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its been 3 months who missed me

heya, jagged!

Hello, it's been a long while since I've been into darkSpyro, and uhh, there's a lot of things that I heard around here since I got busy or distracted with other stuff that I probably don't wanna delve in too much, especially that /one/ event just very recently that one of my friends talked about that made me recheck the website a bit closely.

For those who don't know me, I'm the one who started and popularized the info documents and stuff on the original Skylanders game, Skylanders: Spyro's Adventure, which other people at the time have since taken reign for the later games. My goodness, updating the thing periodically, especially there's news popping up was a pain for me.

Onto Spyro stuff, I did play Spyro Reignited a year or two ago on the PS4, it was overall pretty good, except for the third game, uhh, playing it on the console, it had a lot more roughness than the first two games, which unfortunately are still lingering and not fixed. Some of the tasks would be impossible to get skill points or done normally because of the increased slowdowns. I would talk about it more but right now I just popped up more or less.

I think the time has come for me to bow out. I know what you’re thinking, “aw jeez vespi is leaving again can’t wait to see her all day tomorrow” but I want this one to stick.

After the Sess stuff, I feel... good. I’m content. I’m determined and I wanna use that for myself. Aside from any new games in the series, I don’t have a lot of point in staying here. If you really want to talk to me, most of you have my Discord which I’m infinitely more active on anyways. The site needs some help rebuilding on a personal and widespread level, and the mods, people like TheFlyingSeal and Lunar, they’re passionate about creating a community that’s not corrupted, one that’s worth it. I don’t know If I’ll be gone forever (I’d certainly like to), but I am very interested in seeing how this place evolves. For now though, I want to use the time I used to spend here doing what I do best; writing and designing games. I hope someday that something I make is worthy of an All Purpose topic from you guys.

It’s weird thinking back. I’ve been here a long time. I made friends I’ll never forget (shoutout to Seal, Riku, Aquaris, Lunar, also Iceclaw and Rex and Anna and Semp, even tho I haven’t talked to you guys in forever <3) and a ton of memories both good and bad. I changed a lot. Hell, I first came to this site as an asshole dude, and I’m leaving an edgy young woman. I look forward to the future of you guys, and seeing what you guys do, what you guys create. You can do whatever you put your mind to. Write a novel! Make a game! Eat a cactus! Do what you want, get the skills you need, and crush it, I know you can.

This site was with me with huge changes in my life, and I’ll never be able to repay the support some of you gave me. If you ever need help, or even just to talk, you know where to find me. Thanks for everything. <3

P.S. Lunar, keep the good word of Quagsire alive in my stead. I believe in you, Quag Pope.

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I think the time has come for me to bow out. I know what you’re thinking, “aw jeez vespi is leaving again can’t wait to see her all day tomorrow” but I want this one to stick.

After the Sess stuff, I feel... good. I’m content. I’m determined and I wanna use that for myself. Aside from any new games in the series, I don’t have a lot of point in staying here. If you really want to talk to me, most of you have my Discord which I’m infinitely more active on anyways. The site needs some help rebuilding on a personal and widespread level, and the mods, people like TheFlyingSeal and Lunar, they’re passionate about creating a community that’s not corrupted, one that’s worth it. I don’t know If I’ll be gone forever (I’d certainly like to), but I am very interested in seeing how this place evolves. For now though, I want to use the time I used to spend here doing what I do best; writing and designing games. I hope someday that something I make is worthy of an All Purpose topic from you guys.

It’s weird thinking back. I’ve been here a long time. I made friends I’ll never forget (shoutout to Seal, Riku, Aquaris, Lunar, also Iceclaw and Rex and Anna and Semp, even tho I haven’t talked to you guys in forever <3) and a ton of memories both good and bad. I changed a lot. Hell, I first came to this site as an asshole dude, and I’m leaving an edgy young woman. I look forward to the future of you guys, and seeing what you guys do, what you guys create. You can do whatever you put your mind to. Write a novel! Make a game! Eat a cactus! Do what you want, get the skills you need, and crush it, I know you can.

This site was with me with huge changes in my life, and I’ll never be able to repay the support some of you gave me. If you ever need help, or even just to talk, you know where to find me. Thanks for everything. <3

P.S. Lunar, keep the good word of Quagsire alive in my stead. I believe in you, Quag Pope.

aw man :'( can i join the dS discord?? huge dotd freak invited me months ago when i was away and they haven't gotten back to me yet but i'd love to stay in touch if thats cool with you my dude

wassup guys!! :')

DUDES I WAS GONE FOR SO LONG DARK ACTUALLY MADE A NEW POLL