darkSpyro

C'mon. Spit it out. Let's make this a motivation topic! Someone post zomething they'd like to improve on and maybe some one will give you advice.

I feel like i could be more motivative.

Anxiety, as always. Freak out less over little, or stop talking loudly despite being completely calm, and not forgetting things over distractions for sure. Also includes thinking a little better of myself because anxiety usually leads to 'god dammit I could've fixed this situation myself' moments.
I guess excercise as well because my twig arms don't help and I can't actually lift things the rest of my family can being just as fit,but just started swimming classes so I guess that's on its way.

Not ramble on about my personal life when it's not in personal thoughts and has sobering on the topic, as I have done several times recently.

Not be so scared I'll offend anyone when commenting on their GB, because I always am, which is the reason I don't start a lot of conversations. (Sorry Drawdler :(((((((((((((()

Anxiety: I can't control it and it crops up even when I'm in the best of moods.
Initiative: I may need more than one kick in the ass to do something I don't look forward to doing but must do anyways.

learning!!!! how!!!! to!!!! verbally!!!! talk!!! to!!! people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! without!!! messing!!! it!!! up!!!!!!!!!

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Not ramble on about my personal life when it's not in personal thoughts and has sobering on the topic, as I have done several times recently.

Not be so scared I'll offend anyone when commenting on their GB, because I always am, which is the reason I don't start a lot of conversations. (Sorry Drawdler ((((((((((((()

You can talk to me. I dont gey offended easily most of the time. I'm here for ya.

I'm inclined to say "everything, I suck" but I'll be realistic here:

I really want to work my way out of my weird depression state without any meds but I don't know how possible that is.

I want to get rid of my terrible test anxiety. I've had to leave after every quiz to go to the bathroom and cry, and that's JUST quizzes. You don't wanna know what tests do to me, my reactions are more extreme by FAR.

I really want to have a better body, if that makes sense. I want to work out so I can lose some weight, even though everyone tells me my weight is fine, I don't feel the same. I also kinda want to go on HRT but if I'm gonna live in the same city as my family and be a teacher, I don't know how stealthily I could do that.

Well, on the meds thing, have you looked into alternative medicine or something? I'm trying out homeopathy for my anxiety issues; except for money issues(since if it doesn't work you'll have to start over with a new formula) the fact my head doesn't spin the first hour and I don't get incredibly sleepy or apathetic is great. Might not work for everyone but maybe it's worth a doctor appointment?

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Well, on the meds thing, have you looked into alternative medicine or something? I'm trying out homeopathy for my anxiety issues; except for money issues(since if it doesn't work you'll have to start over with a new formula) the fact my head doesn't spin the first hour and I don't get incredibly sleepy or apathetic is great. Might not work for everyone but maybe it's worth a doctor appointment?

I'd love to see a psychiatrist or even a counselor, but my parents don't believe mental illnesses are "real diseases", even though they've been told MULTIPLE TIMES that it's extremely likely that I have depression.

You bet your ass though that once I graduate college and I'm out of here, I'm seeing someone for both that and HRT. If there was some stealthy home remedy for either of those, I'd do so. but I haven't had any luck.

My self-esteem in general needs improving. I need to stop thinking that everything going wrong is my fault and stop doubting that people care about/like me. It's not good for friendships or relationships to always doubt if their feelings are genuine and think that you annoy them. Self-Esteem also includes my body image and how i view myself, which currently isn't good.

Probably should work on independence as well. It's pretty sad, but i'm basically that "lost puppy" child that follows other people around because they don't want to be alone. This also hurts because when people leave me/decide to spend time with other people, I get very depressed and then the doubting appears. I also ask too many questions in school and always count of the teacher to tell me if i'm doing something wrong or right. In Foods i ask the teacher if the vegetables I am cutting are small enough, to which she kind of just shrugs it off and asks what I think and that makes me panic a bit because I have no idea and rely on direction from her.

Oh wow there's a lot of things.

•Anxiety in general. I overthink literally everything and always come to the wrong conclusion and get myself worked up about things I don't need to worry about, I'm constantly worrying about something or other, I always have a slight fear that all my friends secretly hate me and that I really annoy them and it gets to me I need to stop.

•My self esteem. I mean it kind of fluctuates there are (rare) moments when I think yeah I'm pretty great but most of the time I hate myself and get really down about it and the the thing is, the things I'm most insecure about are things that other people either don't even notice or they really like about me so I have no reason to really hate it but I think I have a bad habit of comparing myself to other people which needs to stop, or I at least need to let it motivate me rather than discourage me.

•My body. This is going to take a while. Like it's not necessarily really bad but I just really don't like it for the most part I'm way too skinny and my legs are just weird and yeah obviously this is (fairly) easily fixable but once again I compare myself too much and I don't know if I'd be truly happy with myself until I look precisely how I want to (which is very unrealistic)

•How much I procrastinate. I always end up being really annoyed with myself because I can just never motivate myself to work and I so badly want to do a good job but I can't and I leave everything to the last minute and stress myself out but it's all my fault.

•And I just generally want to be a nicer person I feel I'm sometimes overly blunt and stubborn and don't treat people as well as I should and I know I can be really overly selfish I'm reminded of it a lot and I want to change that.

That was a lot sorry xD

Not be lazy and only do my homework a day before it's due, I need to work on that a bit.

Someone will take that the waaay wrong way, TTD. Sure, most people take their issues way out of proportion but there are things that genuinely could be going out of control mixed in.

Uhhhh there's a lot but mainly my anxiety. I'm having trouble talking to anyone because I feel like they'll take everything I say the wrong way.

procrastination

My speech. I've said it a thousand times, and I'll say it again. I hate how I talk. It's not my voice or my accent I hate, it's the way I speak. I'm proud if I can get 2-3 sentences out without stuttering or messing up in any way. I'm not that bad at reading stories out loud though, just at speaking. That's why I prefer to type to communicate, because I can think about what I want to say first, instead of stuttering.