darkSpyro

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Whenever I change my avatar to Sette Frummagem I feel like starting so much **** on here and I have no idea why.

trolly expression?

school...

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Quote: Dragons-go-hrr

Whenever I change my avatar to Sette Frummagem I feel like starting so much **** on here and I have no idea why.

trolly expression?

That and maybe because she's the daughter of a mafia boss.

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Quote: Trix Master 100

Quote: Dragons-go-hrr

Whenever I change my avatar to Sette Frummagem I feel like starting so much **** on here and I have no idea why.

trolly expression?

That and maybe because she's the daughter of a mafia boss.

Probably.

If my family were to discover my most deepest secrets, ****!, literally my life is ruined. And a detail that is getting worse, they are waking up curious to know what I do.

How I want have my own home.

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I do not want to think about them, but always comes back to my mind.

Sometimes my mind is stupid.

I failed I was 17 Days Clean, and I did it again I was too overwhelmed tonight and I found one last blade I had...

Did you really just call me pathetic?
Do you know how much that hurts? I feel like crying now.

Wow. Maybe I am pathetic.

Hehe, wow, its been a while since I've vented, mostly because I haven't been screwed doing it, but man, I got alot of stuff bottled up, but not just one person >.<

What can I say, Im glad~
Im glad I dont mean **** to you anymore, im glad you're already getting over me, hell, I've been avoiding talking to you and your bestfriend just to help that, im glad I didn't mean much to you, but im even more glad that I didnt keep you depressed, you're already better now.. right? Well, it seems like that anyway, im still me though, you cant change me, its gets worse when ever I remember you're beaming smile, or you're cute face, or you're childish personality, I just get so depressed, knowing that I let go of something like that...
I cant get better just by some simple words you know, You weren't the only one who cared about me back then, i cant be fixed just like that So that apparently makes me a depressing prick? Seems legit.
But.. What can I say, Im glad~

Now you.
I've been helping you for about a year and a half now, I cant do much more for you to be honest, when will you be able to see that I dont love you? That you need to be able to stand on your own 2 feet, seriously, its just pissing me off, find someone else dammnit!
I know, I seem harsh, but you're seriously asking for it, with all the extreme things you do around me, ugh, sometimes I just want to forget about you.

And, then there's you.
You.. Sigh Why? Why do you care about me so much? Im just me.
But... thank you, you are a great person, you always care about me, always looking after me and always caring about me..
Even though im like this, a complete wreck, I can manage to help you as well, even in the slightest..
Every time you ask me to come with you, or to just go to a place, or anything that has to do with just me and you.. I just cant help but get excited, like you're going to ask me something important or something, but nah, that wont ever happen, will it? I gotta be the one to ask.
I want to ask you again, I really do, though I think I know the answer, its the same as always, isn't it? I know you're afraid that our relationship is going to break apart if something happens between us, but it wont, personally I wont allow it, I count on you more then anyone else, you mean so much to me, you're just... GAAAAAAAAAAAAH, So be it, Ill just keep on waiting, I'll wait till the end of time if thats what it takes.. Its just because you don't ever give me a clear answer, oh well...
You understand me more then anyone else will, why do you think I've been waiting for a proper answer for so long? And I'm not going to stop asking you until you give me the answer..


Look, I know, you're my father, but you are such a goddamn prick! You're never here for me, you know that, whens the last time you actually came around and saw something I did, huh?
Prep it must of been, that was the last time, you've never seen me sing, you've never seen me preform... What the hell am I to you? The useless son, who continuously disappoints you? Because thats what it seems like, I cant do everything you want me to do.

And mum... Ugh, you're about as worse as dad to be honest, its like you don't even care, whenever I have something big on, you're always 'busy' and I have to go with someone else, but when im home, you're just sleeping, like you never even left in the first place, I'm just a burden to you, aren't I?

And you, man... Im worried about you, I can count on you, I know that, you're my brother.
But im worried about you, ever since this girl, bad stuff has been happening to you, I dont wanna see you get any worse.


Then there's me.
Im angry at myself for weighing people down to be honest, its all I ever do, I just say depressing stuff (LIEK RIGHT NOW) and complain about my problems
I hate myself for not being able to be purely honest, if I told the truth, then lots of people would get hurt...
Though it isnt anything new, I've been lying my whole life, to everyone really.
But why? Why do I even lie anymore, does it even matter? Does anyone even believe what I say anymore?
I dont even know anymore, im ****ed up, ill leave it at that.


I was just a child, I didn't know much about you.

help me i swear I'm about to set fire to something
****ING HELL STOP CRYING. IT WONT HELP ANYTHING

Maybe being called stupid hurts too.

thanks social anxiety for making me depressed
thanks a whole bunch

probably never will though >:3

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Sometimes I feel like I just annoy everyone and it'd be better if I just left.

probably never will though >:3

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I hope to form a band as soon as next year and either take vocals or lead guitar. I have listened to this heavy beautiful music for a while but why not make my own music or replicate existent songs? (Durr covers)

Where is it!? Oh no no no I can't have lost it! NOO! Please it must be somewhere, in the closet? No! Maby in another closet? NO! OMFG where is my Cape!?

I LOST IT AAH!

Sometimes all I want to do is curl into a little ball and just cry...

...But is it perhaps because all I feel is my own guilt and none of others' compassion?

I used to be even calmer than I am now, used to be able to advise anyone wisely. But I feel my memory slipping and my ability to keep a conversation fading away...

Some 7th grader thinks he can ****ing mess with me, he got another thing coming. I'll bash his face in.

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Awww, your so sweet <3 Go jump off a cliff with jagged rocks at the bottom

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**** you, and you, and you, and you, your cool, and you. **** y'all.

It is very difficult to actually do what you want to do in your life and make decisions that will bring the maximum amount of satisfaction to you when you are dealing with the people you care about the most. I find it quite intriguing but yet very frustrating that the egoist in me wants to do everything that I see the most fitting but on the other hand the voice of reason wants me to do compromises that won't bring me the immediate feel of happiness but the best possible long-term happiness. But that's the thing in life in general, I guess.

Oooo! Story idea! Yes! This just might be my best idea yet!

Hashtags can just die.
I mean really, how many people are gonna post something like "Omg that Sears commercial was sooo funny! #TheDenskies" And the fact that some people actually use them #for #every #word...
It's not needed. >.>

Alice in Wonderland is going to be on tv on Christmas day!! :D

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Hashtags can just die.
I mean really, how many people are gonna post something like "Omg that Sears commercial was sooo funny! #TheDenskies" And the fact that some people actually use them #for #every #word...
It's not needed. >.>

+AvatariDragon I know right?! Hashtags just suck IMO! +Hastagssuck +Yeah

I'm laughing so hard right now I'm such a ****ing idiot.

HAHAHAHA NO ONE ****ING NOTICED

Well I've been told this is where you come to write things you need to get off your chest, so here goes nothing...
The past for days have been really great I got to hang with my friend at her house, go for long as walk in the bush then watch movies then go for walk in the middle of the night then watch more movies, go for swims have long talks and stay up all night. Well those were good times. Now today I am back to reality and I wish I wasn't.
I am not happy at you right now. I feel angry and hurt and used by you because you are only every there when you want something from me or you are bored because your other b****y friends are ignoring you again. Which at the moment they aren't. You always seem to go back to the people who care about you the least and ignore the people who do the most. So I am feed up. Feed up with the crap, but that doesn't mean I hate you because I never could. I am just tired of it, tired of the drama.
Secondly to the b**** from hell what the **** have I done to make you hate me. Well I don't really care anymore I hate you. You hate me. Done. But I wish you would stop manipulating my friends! I would murder you if it wasn't illegal.
Thirdly thanks to the people who have always been there for me even when I ditched you and tried to fix what you could see wasn't going to be fixed. Thanks. You may be annoying sometimes and you may piss me off occasionally but you are still great friends of mine and I hope you stay that way.
Fourthly you are my mum and I love you but why did you have to say that to me. Art is the one thing that made me happy and I thought I would never have too change to please others, the one thing I could rely on if all else fails but now. Now you have killed that for me. I feel sad just thinking about it. Why do I have to do it your way. I am tired of always bending to fit the rules and please other people just to feel like I've done something good. When really I have just been like every other ****ing teen in the world who has conformed to other peoples wishes and I am sick of it! So thank you for destroying my hopes in that I can sell paintings to earn money so I can get out and travel. You always say I have a choice that you wont push me into anything, but you always do. You always push me into stuff I don't want to do and I am tired of it. It is my ****ing life not yours. I don't want to end up the same way you did.
And Finally me. I am so sad and depressed when I am in the real world but as soon as I leave I am fine. The only problem is I cant live in a fantasy forever. I have constant battles in my head all the time about people I care about. I wish you were here. That someone who could help me. Guide me through this **** but you aren't. So for now I have to just keep going until I can finally leaves this place and find out who I am and where I am suppose to go. Days and nights of tears and joy are ahead but as long as each step leads me to you I will injure them a thousand times over just to find and spend a life time with you. So for now I will confide in music and try to do some art that doesn't make me hate myself.

Hahaha.
Ha.
Ha...
*lays face down on floor*

Wow, humans dont simply value life. How stupid of them. Cant they leave me alone? JUST LEAVE ME ALONE! I want to curl myself up and cry, cry as loud as I want, to kill, to kill and squeeze the useless voids out of what does not mind over they're senses. Im so angerd, Im so sad, Im hungry to slap my hands into someones head. Im waay to pissed...Im suprised they dont see me, or maby they ignore me.....I DID ALL THE WORK! I SUFFERED TOO MUCH! And now this is what happens? Like I said many times...People need a life, something to mind about....Im so sad..........GO AWAY DONT NEED TO GET ME TWISTED! I can run in the kitchen, grab a knife and slice and cut you to death...I WANT TO DO THAT! BADLY!!!

I now feel like I'm annoying you, is this my cue to leave for a while?
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Ugh, it's happening again.


God save me.

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Wait, y-you're thinking of leaving EARLY? Before Christmas!?

THANK YOU.

That's it, the next time you come online, I'm just gonna come out and say it. ill probably chicken out but whatever

Today sucked... I'll never go to work sick again... I don't feel good. I have a temperature of 102, my throat hurts, I'm coughing, and my head hurts. *cries* And to top it all off...PMS... omg why? *cough* owww!

Ahh, it's always fun to talk to you. Although, we did have a few awkward moments. Like when Mr.Ray started to name off characters and assign them to us. I got Aravis, and you were Shasta(Cor). So, of course, I said "I don't want to marry you" We laughed so much after that
And then Isaiah came along. It was funny and confusing at the same time. We were walking ad talking, and then Isaiah came up to us and randomly said "Come on Tyler stop talking to girls". We were both a little confused… But hey, it was fun to talk to you.

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Today sucked... I'll never go to work sick again... I don't feel good. I have a temperature of 102, my throat hurts, I'm coughing, and my head hurts. *cries* And to top it all off...PMS... omg why? *cough* owww!

*hug* go to bed with cough sweets, don't go on electronic things unless you really have to. Feel better soon

I wasted six years of my life... Half my life! My best friend left me for self-absorbed, mean bullies who think they're hot stuff because they constantly talk about inappropriate stuff. I miss her. She talks to people she HATES, but not me. She completely abandoned my two other friends and I. It hurts.. she's like a ehole new person. She changed to fit into a group. I pray that my friends don't do that. This one girl from that group tried to brainwash my friend into joining them. She didn't, and I pray that she never joins.

:c :c :c :c :c :c ;_______________;

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Today sucked... I'll never go to work sick again... I don't feel good. I have a temperature of 102, my throat hurts, I'm coughing, and my head hurts. *cries* And to top it all off...PMS... omg why? *cough* owww!

Aw man!
I remember the time I had to use antibiotics because my throat was that bad.

Holy **** App Store, calm your tits, I don't wanna update 11 Apps right now! >.>

Wow, that was nice of you...

Man, I want a job so bad. Christmas is starting to suck because I want to buy my family gifts but I have no money to! Hopefully next year I'll be able to.

I'm in legit tears right now.

I could've possibly lost my cat and my parents had a huge fight.

dakrSpyro sucks and Dee Dee is a bully. Jk.

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I've built a bridge and got over it after crying myself a river.

**** this cough is being a killer.

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