darkSpyro

Okay but that legit pissed me the **** off. If you say something like that and I start yelling and ranting because I'm so pissed because I care that you would've gotten ripped off and that my mom and grandparents would've been so disappointed if they didn't get those pictures then that's your cue to shut up and stop right there, not just let me continue to rant over ****ing nothing. I'm glad that my trust in you guys makes me gullible around you and that you find my anger funny, but no, letting me pretty much make a spectacle of myself in a lunchroom over nothing isn't funny at all really. That's a real dick move. I don't think you meant to, but you went too far, and I honestly don't trust anything you tell me anymore. Good job, lol.

i saw far too much of myself in him, and im honestly afraid that's who ill become

seeing you space out while sTARING STRAIGHT AT MY FACE honestly killed me holy cow
and the fact that you didn't even realise until i reacted------ erwdszrgday5etaszeraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
your reaction when you realised was literally precious too hahaha <3

y'know at this rate i may as well just admit i'm crushing p hard, there's no use even trying to deny it anymore
feelings are still confusing but eh, i may as well just accept at least this much for now, i can figure the rest out later

i want to talk to you more but when i try i just don't know what to say feh

tfw ur so compatible that ur dinosaur taste is the same

I don't understand why you raise my hopes for anything when your track record is that everything you plan consistently falls through. Why promise me a vehicle one day when you need one yourself? I already know when I asked for confirmation and reassurance today about it and you didn't answer, that it won't happen. You know how desperately I need my own vehicle, because I've been screwed out of one at every chance and I need a way to escape.

At least my father doesn't even bother to do anything for me other than scream at me about how I'm a disappointment and a waste. I know I'm worth nothing in his eyes, he doesn't attempt to make it look like I'm anything more than that. And he keeps me trapped at home, with no way to leave, so I can't socialize and I have no one. I probably should just ask him if he wants me to kill myself, so that I'm no longer costing him money just for living (which he complains about all the time), no longer being a useless burden on everyone and he can move in with his girlfriend that wishes I was dead anyway.

I already have the means to do it. I'm just foolishly holding out for a reason not to.

i literally cant win with you two
you ask me to leave you alone, you get mad at me for not paying attention to you??
you want me to make dinner after my first day with a job, and you complain how lazily it was made??
make up your minds

I need some help/advice. How do you get over your past? How do I get over the fact that I can't remember what happened between my friends and I before we went our separate ways? I know I rant about this often, but I need to get it out. I had friends on this site that I talked to every day during my middle school years. I was bullied in school, I wasn't smart, and I didn't have my mom home all the time (my dad wasn't in the picture). But here, and on another website (whirled), I found friends who accepted me for who I was, and we spent hours talking every single day. It was the first time I ever felt like I belonged somewhere. Around 8th grade things start to get blurry. I made poor decisions in my real life and I guess that affected me here. I don't want to say what I did. I don't remember the next two summers, and the school years seem to have went by so fast, but I remember that those two summers were spent away from my friends online, and they feel empty. I got on new medication, started going to therapy more often, cleared my head, and got a girlfriend who I'm still with today and my life is great. I have her, and a guy I met around the same time who is my best friend in the world. I'm in college, I have a job, my mom got better as well, my dad came back, my anxiety is well controlled and so is my depression (except for when I decide to be stupid and skip my meds), so life has never been better. But I can't let go of the past, and I don't know why. I should be able to, but I can't. And it hurts whenever I think about it. I came back last year trying to get back in contact with them, but gave up. Now I'm back, and I am back in contact with a few of my old friends who have stuck around. But some of them are still gone, and I'm just passing time on this website, waiting for them to come back.