darkSpyro

I hope you know that no matter what happens between us, I'm here for you 100%
Whenever you need me, I promise. I love you so much and our breakup didn't change that.

I know most people who break up try to stay friends and it never works out, but we're different. We always have been.
I still believe you're my soulmate, just maybe not in the way that I previously though. You were meant to be in my life and you have brought so many beautiful things into it. I never want to lose this, I never want to lose you.

You just mean more to me than I could ever explain. You'/re the only person out there who accepts me for who I am. The good, the bad, and the really bad. That's not a feel most people get to experience, knowing they can be truly and fully themselves with someone who will still stay by their side after they see it all. You've given me that. Thank you. Thank you so much, for everything. Thank you for the late night phone calls, thank you for being a shoulder to cry on, thank you for laughs, thank you for the inside jokes. Thank you for knowing me more than anyone, thank you for all the love you given me, thank your for your kindness. Thank you for guiding me, thank you protecting me, thank you for the "Good morning beautiful"s and the "Goodnight my bee"'s. All of it has helped make me into who I am today. You helped me find myself.

HOLY **** THIS JUST HAPPENED

So I was walking my dog for a while along my usual route when about 3/4 of the walk was done, some guy was a fairly near distance to me and was walking fast. Like shady levels of fast. So I ended up walking much faster to try and get away from the guy. Guess what, he went even faster. I kept thinking I was going to get stabbed or something as he had a hoodie, was quickly approaching me and it was 10:50 at night. I crossed the road to check if he was following me, and he did. He was pretty damn close, so I thought "Rip me, I'm getting stabbed" but then I looked back and some plot twist occurred. He was someone in my year. I slowed down a bit but he then went near me, went past me and then just ran like hell. It made me so paranoid for the rest of my walk, and god damn it creeped me out, having a guy in my year stalk me on the way home with my dog. Looks like from now on I'm always walking my dog during the day.

So not to intrude on your pity party, but when do you plan on quitting the oh-woe-is-me attitude because you got fired from your last job and put down your pride so you can take the temporary job and be able to SUPPORT YOUR FAMILY and get some health insurance? You know it's been almost a year or two, right? Is your stupid pride really more important to you than us?
No, just because you worked at the same job for 20 years doesn't mean that you're incapable of taking a temporary job and that it's a slight on your pride because "ohhhh they shouldn't NEED to see me working!!! 20 years at a factory is ENOUGH to show that i'm PERFECT!!!!!". No, you should not be insulted that the other company wants to see your work ethic before hiring you permanently. You're not entitled to a permanent job immediately. There is nothing wrong with taking the temporary job and showing them that you're serious and you want that permanent job.
Cry a river, build a bridge, and get over it already, and take your ****ty attitude and drown it. You are perfectly capable of working. Don't resent your disabled wife because she physically can't work. Just because you're in denial about it and refuse to believe it doesn't mean it's not true; I mean, clearly the government and several doctors seem to disagree with you, hmmm...
Just do SOMETHING. She NEEDS health insurance, she's hardly on any medication now and she's getting worse. I'll never forgive you if she dies because of your pride.
Guess I should get a job soon... See if there's any places that offer health insurance for your family if you work part-time because, you know, I'm still just a high school student.

Had the best conversation tonight with people until someone suggested X and I should date.
You could just feel the mood change and neither of us knew what to say.
I honestly hate when people bring stuff like that up in a group, because there's no good way to respond to that.

Even if I was attracted to X, around a group of people isn't the best place to talk about that. Nothing good could've possibly come out of her bringing that up.

I didn't know, I'm sorry that I did that. Please don't get angry at me, it just makes me hate life even more than I already do. I'm sick of stressing out. I try to understand why you lose your temper, and I wish you could understand too. I'm sorry, I don't want to cause trouble. I hate life, I hate it, I really, really do.

i woke up at 4 am to take a shower and after that i went straight back to bed. i was dreaming about warrior cats because im a little **** and then all of a sudden i hear this voice. if i had to imagine what a demon sounded like, it'd sound like that. the voice was really deep and it was just terrifying. it was so loud it vibrated my ear. it said something like "you will call my name" or "you will call me by my name" i dont really remember. i tried to move but i couldn't. i was in sleep paralysis. my trick for getting out of sleep paralysis doesn't work anymore so i tried with everything in me to yank my arm so i could wake up. im never sleeping ever again. my sleep paralysis episodes never go as far as that.

I'm glad you chose to talk to me about that subject, but I wish you could confide in me a little more...
I consider you one of my best friends, but I don't know if you feel the same...

My mom just sent me some more old photos of my dad from ages ago, when I was little. I am tearing up. Every time I see another pic of him I do. But this time, I was crying about just how special he really is to me. I treasure him so much, and it hurts that there's nothing in my power to reach out to him. I miss him so much. The pain I'm feeling is literally killing me. I wish it was over, because the rest of my life is a long time until I see you again. You're amazing dad, and I'm so sorry that I never truly showed it. I feel really bad for not spending enough time with you. Please forgive me.