darkSpyro

I can't believe six years have gone by.I really can't function today.

On a lighter note at least you aren't in the **** hole of a hospital any more friend.

It brings joy to me. I wish I had more people to share it with. I mean, there's you guys, but this is like school friendship. We talk only in "school" and then after that nothing else. I yearning for someone that I can get on Skype and they'll be there and we'll talk about talk about the stupidest ****, talk about reference we only get, and play games to fool around. So far I only have one friend like that, but he's busy most of the time and he takes gaming more seriously. I've been seeing how I just like to **** around in games when playing with friends. Talk like a complete looser in online games, try to get off them map in Co-Op games, and all that stuff that doesn't involve the main mission most of the time. Seems like not many share this enthusiasm. Or maybe I should be louder.

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Ugh, I feel sick

Edit: I need a hug >.<

I hate people.

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I knew this would happen, but I can't help it.

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/IRL don't worry.

I always loose the people closest to me...I always loose the chance at a relationship...I'm always loosing...Can't I keep something? Can't something stay? This is breaking me...Slowly and surely...Mentally and emotionally...

But no...I'm the guy on the sidelines...The best friend next to the very best friend...Someone you can just throw away so easily...The guy that always ends up at the back of everyone's hearts...I'm not expecting everyone to put me in the middle, the deepest parts of their hearts...Just one person...Just anyone...Just want to be cared about deeply...

Even one of my old "friends" I met again though it was sometime ago...Just carelessly hurt me, maybe they changed into a jerk since the whole time we weren't talking...But...It still hurts...Feels like I can be easily replaced...Or taken and thrown out like trash...

*video game related thing*

i can't take this migraine anymore. i'm scared of what i might do. i wanna sleep but not a normal sleep, i want eternal sleep. i'm just not myself today, i sorta kinda want to just..well maybe no yea you know those days when you just give up and just want to..well no i can't do that just yet but i would like to say that yea i give up. i just can't..guys my head feels like it's gonna explode. why is this? my thoughts are so dark right now...i think it's just time to leave.

I have read many a book in my day, by my oh my, that was one of the best.

Time travel can be so fascinating.

>///< how do you fluster me so?
Curse you and your smooth talking

****, the anatomy final is tomorrow.

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Once again I sit here feeling like **** just because of something I like. Am I a freak?

I feel awful and like a jerk for still feeling like this.

**** YES! DC War of Light Dice Masters announced! Hell yeah! I'm gonna be all over that when it comes out in August.

What a heated argument. Both side had good points but because of that it made them hypocrites. I hope it's not like that tomorrow. I was looking forward to a nice talk but instead I walk in on that.

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I see you're trying to suffocate me. I won't stop you. Better do it now since I don't mean the world to anyone. It'll be easy to get over it.

Time to kick some butt.

Quote: Cynderfan507

It surprises me that people actually cared that much. I'm shocked.

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I call all my female internet friends "bby".
Depending on how much I care about them, I use variations of it too.
I'm so weird like wtf.
I didn't even realize I did this until just now.

I do that too

Leave me the **** alone... I'm not kidding. I WILL call the police if you keep this up.

It's nice that my Doctor's office calls to check up on me, but can you please just understand I'm kinda shy when you're calling? No I'm not tired, you didn't just wake me up, quit asking that. When I say I'm ok, I mean I feel fine, I'm not sick, I'm not feeling bad, I'm good. I'm not the type of person to be all outgoing and full of gumdrops and rainbows and say everything is super-duper wonderful, quit wanting that response. Just get that I'm shy and going to give simple rather passive answers.

I feel like a jerk, but I don't think I did anything bad! I was just blunt, but I don't think I was rude! Why am I so self-depricating today?

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Quote: Cynderfan507

It surprises me that people actually cared that much. I'm shocked.

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I call all my female internet friends "bby".
Depending on how much I care about them, I use variations of it too.
I'm so weird like wtf.
I didn't even realize I did this until just now.

i do it too bby dont worry

I'm not happy. Why do you always act differently with me? Like you hate to see me and immediately lose any happiness when I come to say hi? It makes me feel so horrible.

I wish I could carve out my heart and survive...Then I would throw it away....Or you know what...Someone else could have it, I don't want it anymore.

Very personal, but needed to vent.

Can this sickness just please pass now
Ugh
*dies in a hole*

*THROWS CHAIR*

I JUST WANT TO ****ING PUNCH YOU NOW.

That is not how you ask people to do work.

My first battle was an easy victory.

Quote: spyro and sonic

My first battle was an easy victory.

IF THIS IS ABOUT POKEMON BATTLE ME NOW!

Quote: Mesuxelf

Quote: spyro and sonic

My first battle was an easy victory.

IF THIS IS ABOUT POKEMON BATTLE ME NOW!

It is, and I would, but my good team is locked in the Battle Box at the moment.

people that battle with all legendaries piss me off
especially darkrai
**** him

Quote: Cynderfan507

I call all my female internet friends "bby".
Depending on how much I care about them, I use variations of it too.
I'm so weird like wtf.
I didn't even realize I did this until just now.

I just call cool people Mang or Mango. I used to call them Biscuits then Baro kept calling "mang o"

Quote: HotDogAndZap

people that battle with all legendaries piss me off
especially darkrai
**** him

Fight back with legendaries.

My heart is shattered...It's weak...It's broken...But you know what...That can't be understood...just get tired of me, give up on trying to make me happy...I was told I was cared about...Do you really care though? I was there the whole time for you and now....It doesn't matter...Because I knew this would happen...

Quote: HotDogAndZap

people that battle with all legendaries piss me off
especially darkrai
**** him

Same. I don't get mad with 1 Legendary in a opposing team. But if it's a whole allyway gang of them I'm pissed.

Quote: HotDogAndZap

people that battle with all legendaries piss me off
especially darkrai
**** him

Use Mega Rayquaza.

Articuno

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It kinda sucks to find out almost a year after we stopped talking, it was because you were angry with me over a misunderstanding you made about my speech/typing patterns. Meanwhile, I was completely at peace with you, and just assumed you had your own reasons for not talking to me. Even if we never spoke again, I would not have minded - you were a really good friend while you stuck around, and I respected you quite highly.

I suppose that hasn't really changed much, but...now it just feels bittersweet, knowing you think what you do about me.

You're probably not gonna see this, and going off of what I've been told, it would have no effect on you, especially at this point in time. And that's fine. Again, I have nothing against you, and never did, and I still don't. I just wish you said something (you claim you did, but I checked and found nothing - all I found was me trying to help you out of a bad mood after you coming to me, while it's 2 'o clock in the morning for me in most cases, and even doing it on my own birthday at one point).

In any case, since I never got to say it before because I didn't actually know you were actively avoiding me and merely thought you didn't have the time for me or something - I wish you all the best in life, regardless of what you feel about me.

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And stuff like the above has got me questioning the trust and respect I place in everyone around me in my life. I was already starting to come across as cynical and apathetic. I've just found yet another big reason to continue going down that path. Not because it's the safest. Not because it's the most invigorating (heh, FAR from it). But because it is the only one where I still feel like I have some degree of control over myself anymore. It's the only one where I feel like I can grow and develop as a human being, hopefully becoming a more skilled and wiser person.

Dang it! >.<
I really need a Destiny Knot.