I hate my past self. I was obnoxious, overly flirty/sexual and I was just weird. Maybe that all came from the fact I recently found out I had autism and had been misdiagnosed so wasn't getting the proper treatment, I'm not sure. But I wish I could change who i was in the past. It's not who I am now but it still haunts me that I used to be that way.
All of my negative thoughts about myself are expressed in emotions, not words. So, it's been hard for me to recognize that I do, indeed, think very cruel things about myself.