darkSpyro

As some of of you guys may know, a few months ago I learned that my older sibling was terminally ill from a rare form of throat cancer. I was incredibly depressed when I heard about it, and it only became much worse when I learned how badly it effected him, and I tried to stay very strong about the subject matter. It wasn't until I saw his terrible condition in the ICU unit when I finally cried. It devastated me and made me feel so terrible. I couldn't stop questioning why it was happening to him, how he got it, etc.

Well, I posted a little update early august that he had passed away. I was so damn depressed, at that point all I would do is wake up, and just wait to go to work on the couch. Endless hours of it. I didn't hardly touch a game or book, or watch a series. I tried reading manga, which cheered me up a little but I still felt miserable. Since then, I've gotten a ton of love and support from all of my friends here and it's just made me think how great some of you are. I really truly appreciate it and I didn't know what to say or wasn't sure if an individual PM would work.

As of today, I'm finally starting to feel myself again and actually am doing normal things. While there isn't a day I don't think of my dear older brother, I'm starting to gain some energy back and associate myself with others outside of my apartment (and work).

I'm also sorry if during my time I upset anyone or vented to anyone rudely or whatever. It's been a terrible, terrible year.

im glad youre feeling more yourself!!
the pain will always still be there, but i promise youll learn to deal with it effectively

thank you for continuing to move forward and stay positive, im sure your older brother would be proud of your strength!!

I know you're not talking about me but remember that you'll always be accepted here

I'm so sorry for your loss...

This will cheer you up. I mean, who doesn't like Markiplier and Exotic Butter?

Thanks guys