I'm aware I'm late to this game, so I'll merely say my piece and be off. I've been quiet for most of these anyway, would've been quiet for this one too but one particular statement I have issue with.
Quote: Sesshomaru75Another person literally threatened to stab me over a video game just because they were having a bad day.
For someone who consistently preaches about context, you're quite amazing at taking things out of context yourself. But I suppose it's okay when it fits your narrative, eh?
Perhaps you'd like to share with the class the context behind me 'literally threatening to stab' you. Would you tell the truth, or your perception of the truth?
I recount it exactly as it happened to everyone who has ever asked. I do not hide my faults, I do not hide from owning up to what I did. I knew the second I said those words that I was wrong. I have made it a point to make that crystal clear to everyone. It was a slip on my grip of my impulsive anger issues that I know I have and am fully aware of. Which is why I tried to correct myself immediately.
My actions after those words were said was an attempt on my part to diffuse a tense situation. It was evident it would not have been wise to keep two people heated at each other in the same space. Anyone would agree with that. I had every intention, once tempers had settled, to come back and apologize in full as soon as I felt ready to do so.
That would've been within the next ten minutes, if that, had you given me my moment of collection.
But you didn't. You stabbed me in the back. Blatantly ****ing stabbed.
I felt horrible remorse after
a snap of anger because I subjected people who I saw as friends to that. I felt that remorse because I knew that wasn't me, I knew that wasn't fair to them.
What did you feel when you made that PT post, labeling me as abusive, because I constantly set you on edge due to feeling like you had to 'watch your words' around me? You must not have been very on edge if you didn't hesitate to call me abusive, because I didn't take kindly to be jabbed at as a cheap ****ing doormat joke when I already felt trampled on that day.
When someone you repeatedly said was a 'good friend' to their face, was suddenly 'no longer worth even being seen as a friend' due to 'acting like a child' over having their feelings and boundaries grossly disrespected.
You preach about communication.
I told you I didn't like being jabbed at over my ability in any game; you did it anyway.
I told you I didn't like a favorite character of mine being called the f-slur; you did it anyway.
I told you EXPLICITLY that I also did not want to see R-18 fanart of said character in a r-pe/non-con situation with another character. I knew the piece because I'd seen it before, and I really didn't care for it.
You looked up that exact piece and sent it to me without warning, tagged with an additional 'this is so hot'. You then couldn't understand why I was aggravated at you.
Does that sound like respecting one's boundaries to you?
Or better yet, shall I tell the class how you called me the hard r-slur and completely demeaned me, and tried to make me feel sub-human because of one specific sexual preference of mine, mentioned in a conversation. I didn't ask for your opinion on the matter.
And that came on the heels of me being made aware to the fact that you saw me as some object of your sexual fantasies, like so many others.
Is that me being abusive and toxic, or you?
I find it interesting that you clutch my threat as if it's some life raft to save you. A threat that was never intended as a threat, it was a lash of anger, amplified by past disrespect from you. In that moment, you were disrespecting me consciously, because you
chose to act the way you did. I tried to respond civilly the first time, I took the jab and bowed my head. You jabbed me again, so I snapped back, and just happened to draw blood.
But it got your ****ing attention, didn't it? You knew I was pissed from that moment on, and what did you choose to do with that knowledge, that your words had done that?
Do what any sensible person does! Betray your friend in public and then try to gaslight them into taking all the blame for the conflict, and then try to ostracize them to the point they'll want to disappear if they don't.
Hm.
I may have made a 'threat' in anger. That I do not deny. But you did the actual deed, and for what?