Aaaa I want to talk about this one thing so bad, but I'm too embarrassed to bring it up myself. However, if someone were to specifically ask, even as a joke, I'm at the point to where I would say "Yes." without batting an eye. I hate this feeling. It's like I'm keeping something a secret. Well, I have been. Ever since I could remember, really. I just want to tell someone. Anybody. Maybe discuss about it. But I'd get too embarrassed or...people would think I'm weird ahaha. Ha. Ha...
I also wish to speak to my mom about this (she is the one I am closest to irl; I have no irl friends and my siblings are literally 10, 11, and 12 years older than I am) but I'm scared she'll think I'm regressing progress wise based off of some personal issues. How would I be able to explain to her, "No, I've thought this way since I was a kid. Remember that one time when I was supposed to be asleep because of Bible camp or something?
Yeah, I was staying up because I was thinking about ___." Yeah, no. I think a five year old (?) thinking that way is kinda spooky... I specifically remember other instances, too, but admitting to Mom about my thoughts is a bit... She can read people incredibly well, so she probably already knows. Heck, if I was in her shoes, I'd know. But. Ack. Ah. Jwhdbw.
agh see i hate this and im rambling but I really need to get this out there. Again. I guess. I get these thoughts every other month lOL,,,
I also wish to speak to my mom about this (she is the one I am closest to irl; I have no irl friends and my siblings are literally 10, 11, and 12 years older than I am) but I'm scared she'll think I'm regressing progress wise based off of some personal issues. How would I be able to explain to her, "No, I've thought this way since I was a kid. Remember that one time when I was supposed to be asleep because of Bible camp or something?
Yeah, I was staying up because I was thinking about ___." Yeah, no. I think a five year old (?) thinking that way is kinda spooky... I specifically remember other instances, too, but admitting to Mom about my thoughts is a bit... She can read people incredibly well, so she probably already knows. Heck, if I was in her shoes, I'd know. But. Ack. Ah. Jwhdbw.
agh see i hate this and im rambling but I really need to get this out there. Again. I guess. I get these thoughts every other month lOL,,,