darkSpyro

do triggers have to have the origin behind them explained to be valid? or can people start accepting that ANYTHING can be a trigger. cats can be a trigger, the color blue can be a trigger. pizza can be a trigger. it isn't just the serious things. certain songs or smells can be triggers. anything that was present when something bad happened or anything that reminds you of the people who really hurt you can be a trigger.

Quote: sans

do triggers have to have the origin behind them explained to be valid? or can people start accepting that ANYTHING can be a trigger. cats can be a trigger, the color blue can be a trigger. pizza can be a trigger. it isn't just the serious things. certain songs or smells can be triggers. anything that was present when something bad happened or anything that reminds you of the people who really hurt you can be a trigger.

Don't reply whatever...

EXACTLY THIS.

nah it's fine, i don't mind that one getting replied to. it's important.

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i'm so. tired. i have so many things wrong with my body. i'm in so much pain. i just want to be productive again. but now that spring is coming, i'm only going to grow more depressed. i get so depressed in the heat. i hate this. i just. want to draw, want to role play, i want to work on my stories and aus. i just want to create again.

it's really easy to not use a word around someone. that's all people usually ask, just around them. if you can't do that, you shouldn't be friends with them.

yes there can be slip ups, but if you actively try and it's a genuine slip up that's fine. i'm someone with a lot of triggers due to years of abuse by multiple people and i ask people to avoid certain things around me. if they don't, they're gone.

well see, my original post was saying that triggers should be taken more seriously, even without the context of what caused it. even if they're "silly". if someone says something triggers them, you don't need to know why.

if someone is triggered by apples, then maybe don't bring up apples in front of them. you don't have to avoid ever eating an apple ever the rest of your life. just avoid talking about them or eating them around that person. maybe this is just me, but i don't find it hard to adjust for others.

one of my friends, their triggers are robots, dolls and puppets. those aren't "normal" triggers, are they? and see, i love puppets, i think things like muppets are funny and love kermit the frog. but i simply don't talk about them around this person. i still like puppets. but i don't bring them up around this person. i have other friends to talk about them with if i wanted to talk about them.

to the person(s) i'm dming with:

my head is causing me a lot of pain. good news though, i get to see the doctor about it tomorrow morning. but. the conversation(s) are getting too long for my brain to really focus on without much pain, so i need to go silent for a bit. i'm going to try to play a game that isn't too straining on my head, since napping now might mess up my sleep schedule (the appointment is at 9 in the morning)

i'll reply when i can, i want to give these serious and actual responses not just "ok cool thanks bye"

hahahha ohhhh you wanted an essay, not a short response

Space bar not working on Youtube...

irl stuff

me remembering that one time i made a girl cry

woke up feeling nice for the first time in a while

new meds making me dizzy

please please please let me turn this in

i can't fail a class because i accidentally misinterpreted the instructions

please please

i am just a stupid little man and i'm pretty sure i did it correctly the second time around

i'm really scared the doctor might be wrong. the medicine isn't working as intended yet. i still have really bad headaches.

I don't hate you... I just don't agree with your ways, let alone how you treat me...

Maybe it's me being angry af and exhausted, but there comes a line where a person no matter what the hell they say today; I still want to ****ing strangle them. Like actual improvement is shown in actions, never words. I don't care if ya told me that I am cute in the here now, if you committed so much bull**** in my life and ****ed up my friend's lives. You deserve to get your ass drop kicked imo.

Discussions like this are one of the main reasons I hardly ever comment on anything these days. You have to bend over backwards to clarify what you actually meant to all the cynics that refuse to give the benefit of the doubt and immediately jump to bad faith assumptions, and the trolls that decided to be pedantic little ****s for their own amusement.

literally anyone when i spend hours creating something im passionate about and pour everything i have into and post it places for them to enjoy

Me and my fanfic everywhere...literally (yeah I will translate it later) I’m soon to post my 4th chapter and already expect to see no comments or reviews at all. I even rewritten part of it to fix any aspects I did not liked, was not working, felt too hard to write(dual personality) so I went with possession instead. I feel like a madwoman writing notes under the post acting like I was talking to someone but there’s no one. Good and bad I welcome it all, I want to improve but how can I if I always get nothing?

huh? what? who am i?

once again stuck inside when i'd rather be outside

Quote: fyra

Me and my fanfic everywhere...literally (yeah I will translate it later) I’m soon to post my 4th chapter and already expect to see no comments or reviews at all. I even rewritten part of it to fix any aspects I did not liked, was not working, felt too hard to write(dual personality) so I went with possession instead. I feel like a madwoman writing notes under the post acting like I was talking to someone but there’s no one. Good and bad I welcome it all, I want to improve but how can I if I always get nothing?

I will read it when translation is finished if you want

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I don't get what the hell that was for, but aight. Sorry for thinking people can put in the S tier game and not bothering to do so. Sorry for thinking that a execution was seeming exhaustingly bad or just bad in general. I just think people can actually do better and should do it. Which isn't a crime. If ya feel like a need a break for a rejuvenation on the idea, I literally take no issues with that. Creativity is hard sometimes.

How I animate:

1. Draw a frame
   
2. Get bored
   
3. Play Minecraft for two days
   
4. Draw another frame
   

Odd, I rarely get dreams when I take a nap... then again, I rarely get dreams at all these days.

I imagine death so much it feels more like a memory
When's it gonna get me?
In my sleep, seven feet ahead of me?
If I see it comin', do I run or do I let it be?
Is it like a beat without a melody?
See, I never thought I'd live past twenty
Where I come from some get half as many
Ask anybody why we livin' fast and we laugh, reach for a flask
We have to make this moment last, that's plenty

Ruminating.

Well, how do you get blood from a character for a summoning ritual but she’s part of the main cast of your story so you don’t want to kill her unless doing so would enhance the plot? For info, why her blood could be needed is because she is the daughter of the spirit the cult want to summon.

Quote: fyra

Well, how do you get blood from a character for a summoning ritual but she’s part of the main cast of your story so you don’t want to kill her unless doing so would enhance the plot? For info, why her blood could be needed is because she is the daughter of the spirit the cult want to summon.

Do they need all of her blood?

I don’t know how much blood would be truly needed
It is symbolic for obvious reasons as the body of the spirit getting summoned is cristallized somewhere in a cave so maybe a few drops of it would be enough and you don’t need to draw a full circle and runes with that.(that maybe too crazy) It simply mean getting their «**goddess**» blood to invoke her spirit as I would assume a ritual would need something from her even indirectly.

hmmmm. i really need to get this checked out.

i've been saying this for a while, but it's a long process and i don't have a lot of energy.

i'll get there...

the mood for today is wanting to give up your dreams and jump into oncoming traffic

now i remember why this is taking so long

there's not really anything i can do about it but gather info and wait

edit: i will say, though, today was pretty good. i was able to get a lot of stuff done. hopefully it stays that way for the next couple of days

I hope my friends don't think I'm crazy when I end up being open about part of the problem.

this week has been awesome so far. hopefully that continues.

3rd wave of covid
Roleplay groups are all dead or dying
Suffering of chronical boredom
2 more years of pandemic
Is there still hope left anymore?

Quote: fyra

3rd wave of covid
Roleplay groups are all dead or dying
Suffering of chronical boredom
2 more years of pandemic
Is there still hope left anymore?

I really don't think we're in for 2 more years. I believe this summer, we'll turn the tide for good, and back to near normalcy by winter.

Better shape up

When waiting for a roleplay group take forever, what do you do start a new chapter
Evil laugh, welcome to Tenebris indeed
May our goddess rise in the eternal night
As a baby flesh an host will became
So she can as the Dark Queen rule again

Quote: spyro and sonic

this week has been awesome so far. hopefully that continues.

today wasn't very good. I should have never said anything.

Sigh, getting told by my mom to not put dragons in my story, especially not talking ones if I decide to make it an original setting
What’s so wrong about dragons as main characters?
It sound more interesting than always having humans
What’s with the idea of using dragons seen as a only for kids it’s fine but for adults never do that?
Now I fear she will hate Realms of the Elderlings because of the bonds animals....and talking dragons later on even if it’s intended for adults.

therapist (transphobic/derogatory)

wouldn't be surprised if i come back here tomorrow with an angry message. gonna try to end therapy with this person, but sort of dreading it bc that means i'll no longer have a therapist.