i’m so tired of politics. Everytime I try to keep up to date with whats going on, I just feel sick to my stomach and my faith in people drops. I can’t just ignore it either, I refuse to live my life ignorant and allow people to do whatever the hell they want because they have power, but that just brings on the normal struggle of if I matter or not. In this system I don’t. I can vote and vote and vote and raise awareness but nothing will change. I’m voting for either Hell or The Inferno, any other choice, while maybe giving my “moral peace of mind” is essentually worthless. Evil, corrupt people will always exist and often they will never be confronted about what they have done, never to pay for what they’ve done to the people. Will this all change when the older generation dies? Or will we just become the older generation that the newer gen is trying to take down. It’s just astonding that people like this exist, who can be either so poisoned by organized religion, so full of hate, or just plain evil.
what's the opposite of vibing? because that's how i feel rn. i did not sleep well last night. that plus my slowly mounting anxiety has made for an exhausting day struggling to do the bare minimum.
today wasn't the best but at least I have Spyro games to make me feel better.
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it's weird reading through some of my really old posts on this topic and not remembering at all what I was talking about in the post.
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When that happens, when people put down things like that or shame people for enjoying the things they enjoy, it makes me hate myself when I enjoy the same things, just want to curl up and keep to myself and be by myself. No interactions whatsoever or anything/
--- Like fallen snow, I lay on the ground and wait for my turn to fade away, no matter how unique I seem. It's my gift to you... A true sacrifice...
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I’ve been officially waiting for books I ordered in my local mall book store since August...this year is a joke and the book I’m reading never had a sequel as the author is yet to write more books.
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Life may be harsh in such a dark year, happy new year we said an eternity ago it seem now, but it's far from over, we will survive.
I am smitten <3 he makes me feel so special and he is so kind, and nice and I hope he stays interested in me. Is it okay for me to be so happy? I hope so
--- I just realised that I might not know what the hell is going on
im really starting to think the reason i like idealistic happy stuff like lilo and stitch or kirby is because i know no matter how hard i try, ill never have that
im really not cut out for having family or more than a few friends. i think im okay with that now
im stuck as an eternal outcast, and that’s okay
im sure ill be happy eventually
I am an idiot... It took me a while to realize and understand that but I really am an idiot in every aspect of being a functional human being. I just hope that there will be a day when I get to be a person of regular intellectual level...
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I might give you more opinions... for a small fee of course.
in hindsight I kinda regret disappearing from this site for weeks/months at a time so often in the past. makes me feel like I missed out on a lot over the years even though I probably didn't.
I weirdly feel jealous of Crash fans right now, also want to leave the Earth as I no longer want to hear or deal with the restrictions, rules and constrains that come with the pandemic, if it was possible I would gladly find a Death Note and write covid in it to get rid of it.
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Life may be harsh in such a dark year, happy new year we said an eternity ago it seem now, but it's far from over, we will survive.
everyone always says “just keep going, it gets better!” but it doesn’t, does it? every time i think i have my happily ever after, the world proves that it’s not done with me yet. every day i have a breakdown. not even sleep fixes it, it’s nothing but horribly awful nightmares. am i really that broken? am i really that far beyond repair? if so, why do i keep being such a coward and why dont i just end it all already?
i know the answer to that last one but... who does a girl have to blow to get some good luck? or at least a decent sleep without all the nightmares or night terrors...
i cant help but feel like im at a crossroads. on one hand, i really truly feel like i was put on this abysmal planet to do SOME good in SOME way, and i just havent figured it out yet. on the other, i can’t help but feel like all life is ever going to do is keep beating me into submission without relenting. all this **** going on in my life would at least be manageable if i was, yknow, sane in any way, shape, or form.
i think i just need to take some time and keep trying to figure myself out. apparently 5 years of not having a solid gender, sexuality, life goal, or even a ****ing personality requires a bit more focus than previously anticipated. rage and vengeance can only fuel you for so long before it starts to consume yourself, i see that now. i just... need to repair myself
haha what if i had a functioning brain instead of getting 6 mental disorders
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