darkSpyro

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i like videos about internet history... but some reddit/4chan rips are written in a tone that messes me up. its fascinating to experience the writings of angry teen boys, but also an experience that can hurt if taken too seriously. i love learning about others, but i need to be sure to do it in a way that preserves and promotes my sense of kindness and respect for others.

its just been on my mind recently i guess

I'm ready to put this semester behind and move on

Next semester and the next two years I will do great, I know I will. It'll make this semester look meaningless, and I'll be able to go the college I've wanted to go to.

Quote: ShylaShadow

The evil is defeated

We can't say that about Onision just yet.

whining again, but i am ok and safe

... Ya know as soon as either me or mom dies, everyone else is ****ed. That's how helpless people have become.

Quote: Drawdler

I'll say it loud and clear because it came up in another conversation.

Reach me directly if you have a problem with me. I'm guarunteed to see it on my guestbook.

Not directed at a specific user.

I'm not going to change to please people and my aim is not to change peoples' mind nor get along with everyone. I want to be aware of my flaws, that's my aim, at this point.

I don't expect this to get through to anyone who does have an issue with me. This ****ing website. My ****ing self for sticking around here. Ah well. Vices.

If you aren’t willing to change, why in the world do you need to be aware of your flaws?

i apologisr to everyone that they had to see an unsightly side of me. I will endeavour to not show this again.

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Oopsie bad night for me

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I’m really ****ing worried about your well being. I hope I can talk to you about this tomorrow.

Will I end up the same way? Angry and bitter with the best friend know as THE bottle. Perhaps it is time to re evaluate things or whatnot.

Whats gonna be left in the world if you're not in it?
What's gonna be left of the world if you're not in it?

Everything will be just fine

One more exam

Doing a giveaway on another website and ppl either aren’t reading the rules or they’re not looking at the creature list.


why tho

Ah... I guess I am still interested in you. Finding out you’re dating someone new made my heart sink as much as it did the last time this happened.

I know I wouldn’t be able to make you happy though. I hope he can. I always knew it would end up like this anyway. You’re too lovely to not get in a relationship with someone else.

I am not bothered by this.

Eternally grateful for everyone.

Yes

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Tell me that you can forgive
Bring me peace that I may live

Show me now
How to find my home
All I am
Surrender

Oh sweet rest
Find me at my home
Stay with me
Forever

i will give you another chance today because its christmas

i hope i wont regret it again. please dont screw me over again. i hope you know that it is your behavior that drove me off. if you can change for the better, i think we can make up. i want to be able to make up. but im scared because when you had power over me, you used it to make my life especially difficult.

but its christmas. i can try for one day.

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that went surprisingly well. thank the stars above. im not sure if this will be a trend, but i am grateful this worked.

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Damn the oven said **** you to me by burning my middle finger

well today kinda sucked

Quote: Bolt

christmas is crap and i hate family, thanks for ruining the week, never want to do this again : ' )

same bro :') much love <3

titties

oh mannnnnn i havent used this topic in a while but i really need it rn. the end of the year has pushed a ton of thoughts onto me at once and i just need to throw it out there to feel right. i dont believe in finstas and i like yall so $$$

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man i havent been in a relationship in almost exactly a year and i actually love that so much. i went through so many ****ty relationships in 2018 and it left me in a really wierd place once the last one ended on january first. ive certainly tried to get into things to varying degrees of almost success but the fact that they never ended up working out left me to my own devices for a long while. add that to all of my new found freetime with school over and i just kinda learned to appreciate myself and good friends and family and experiences. i thought last years halloween was going to be the best in my life so far and for months i wanted to recapture that feeling of last fall, it was so good it got me depressed thinking about how i couldnt have that feeling again as long as i didnt have what i had back then. but as i learned more about myself and relationships and especially the people i went after i realized i can be so much more than i was back then. i worked at hhn over the fall season to give myself a buffer year from the event. the memory of last years fall season was so intense i needed it. it was the best decision i ever made, because i realize now in retrospect how honestly terrible last season was. my hhn cast was the most fun family i ever became a part of, for two months i did nothing but stay up until 4am playing smash bros or just dance,joking around, watching dumb videos and movies, vibing to music, and doing our show as best as we could. it was such a positive atmosphere and everyone was so alike and loving and fun and it went to show that i hadn't even begun to realize what a good relationship is, friend, family, romantic, literally anything. im so much happier than i was a year ago in everyway and i can't go back. 2019 was insane and great for me.

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I still wish you never did those things. I still want to be like you, the you i knew, not the monster who let his desires take over his castle. it sucks knowing the only one i could trust to give me the knowledge and experience i need is a man i can never talk to again.

"i know i can never go back to homeworld, but, it's hard not to have some feelings for where you came from.."

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i had a dream my best friend died last night. i dont think i honestly would have considered her a best friend before this, we've grown a little more distant over the years, but yeah. she really is a big light in my life. talking to her just makes me happier. but just, the thought of her being gone......forever. idek man, idk what id do. im gonna move away sooner or later, and honestly i just know that saying goodbye to her is gonna be the hardest part. idk where im getting at with this. im just glad she's okay and doing well in life.
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hahha elite yolo yEEET boys ezzzzz dub

2020 will be a new year.

ugh my sib had a surgery yesterday and theres some sort of complication. doesnt look life threatening but im still worried.

mad that its either go to work, or get fired for visiting her

I need to go to bed earlier

Today is clearly not my day, anxiety is at an all time high ****

I wish we could be together again

Quote: Bolt

Quote: Jaggedstar

Quote: Bolt

christmas is crap and i hate family, thanks for ruining the week, never want to do this again : ' )

same bro :') much love <3

god jagged im sorry you're going though it too ajskskd;aljllaa

it's all g my d i'm just so glad it's finally over!! i'm sorry you go through it :'( here's to next year being better. celebrate the winter solstice with me. most of my family don't even believe in jesus so i don't know why we conform to this stupid tradition but ok

(no offence intended if u are religious)

Stop being a ***** please

Now I know who to trust : )

Ok, THIS IS THE LAST ****ING TIME I'M DOING THIS, I WILL GO TO BED AT A REASONABLE TIME TOMORROW NIGHT

i've had ENOUGH

one
step
at
a
time

what is my next step going to be

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ok now im mad because i have to reorganize my whole class schedule

Wheeee I haven't been on here in a while. And quite honestly, I am still confused on what is a personal thought and what is a random thought. If you think about it for too long, cannot a random thought be personal?

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Being a freshman in high school has been a blast so far. Though, sometimes the responsibilities get me stressed out. I wonder if I'll ever manage to find a balance.