darkSpyro

like always i shall allow myself to be distracted by fantasy.
when will i stop detaching myself from reality?

I know this is gonna seem really disrespectful in this thread

But I feel really happy rn, like, I feel like I could take on the world

Quote: King-Pen Krazy

I know this is gonna seem really disrespectful in this thread

But I feel really happy rn, like, I feel like I could take on the world

why is being happy disrespectful to the thread?
people are sad sometimes here, sure, but this thread is for your thoughts and emotions, both negative and positive! i dont see anything wrong with being that happy :o

Quote: Vespi

Quote: King-Pen Krazy

I know this is gonna seem really disrespectful in this thread

But I feel really happy rn, like, I feel like I could take on the world

why is being happy disrespectful to the thread?
people are sad sometimes here, sure, but this thread is for your thoughts and emotions, both negative and positive! i dont see anything wrong with being that happy

I know, it's just that

Like there's a ton of sad posts, and then here I am, talking about how happy I am

It sounds kinda disrespectful

making memes are fun

I was an idiot to believe in you. There's nothing good from this, not anymore.

why is it so hard to communicate my feelings with other human beings

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UM ****ING EXCUSE ME WHAT JUST HAPPENED TO ME

lol i think i just quit my job

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i treat him like a threat because he IS a threat

Quote: Vespi

i treat him like a threat because he IS a threat

A. Men.

(We're probably not talking about the same person but the sentiment is there)

Me: Do you ever want to talk about your emotions, Logic?
Logic: no.
Stress: I do
Me: I know
Stress: I'm sad
Me: I know, Stress.

To anyone who was worried or noticed;
Things are getting better. I had someone important and close to me confront me on my downward spiral and took drastic measures. I have spent most of this week at their house recovering emotionally and getting myself ready for the uphill battle towards getting better. I am sorry if I concerned any of you. If you wish to talk to me more about it feel free to message me.

On a happier, lighter note: I am very excited for tomorrow. I get to go to the theatre and watch a hopefully awesome stageshow. I've seen one of this groups similar performances so I am really excited because I enjoyed the last one. Hopefully my friends won't find it annoying to hear my hype about it afterwards ;; haha

me: lol i hope i dont see any spoilers
(open up twitter to sign out)
(first thing i see is a an enemy from a level i didn't want spoiled)

is this blood ever gonna ****ing stop dear god

can i please just have someone calm me when I'm like this? I don't need everyone getting mad at me and tell me to get help somewhere else. I just need someone to actually talk to. Not just every once in a while when they're bored and have no one else to talk to

Ahahaha, life is great.

Why the **** did I send that message, and more importantly, why did I follow it up with THAT

why do any of you care about me? i don’t deserve it, i dont understand

i feel good
happy
calm
it feels nice

i juggle work, 2 other classes, a live in boyfriend, a cat and my family, you seriously telling me that i need to spend more time in your class (which i do for an hour a day, maybe more if i dont complete ten topics!) and that results in 5 hours a week. i really dont want to spend saturday and sunday mornings doing this **** because honestly those are the only times where i *****really*********get to relax.

seriously, if i get a b in this ****ing class i will be happy with that. njfnsjfnsdlfnsd

oh yeah and im not working into Christmas break. whatever i end with is what i end with. i have been looking forward to being stress free, sorry. (:

never mind i'm stressed and anxious again

i never thought a walmart trip could be so melancholy but here we are

let me love somebody

how can you hold that against me when I wasn't even being aggressive? like i seriously was just saying that. stop attacking me

so I guess I just won't show any single emotion anymore. Thanks discord

im fully aware of how annoying i am and im taking steps to stop it but theyre failing

edit: cool, can this week get any ****ing worse

I can do this!!

Man, I love waking up and then immediately feeling like the biggest ****head on the planet...

This is why I don’t talk IRL, either

if you make one more ****head comment today im gonna kick your ass to kingdom come

Lol I evidently don't know how to flirt

me on youtube right now

i sure am glad to know youre embarrassed to be seen with me

hostility is surrender.

lesbians turning into a tree made me cry

nothing ever works

the only promise in life is death

you may only escape by dying

i may only give to others by taking myself away

AAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I HAVE NO IDEA IF YOU FEEL THE SAME WAY I DO

I really am awful at this kind of thing

I really will try today. No looking back.

Even if this will make me look like a jerk, I have to do it. I can't take this anymore...

mgdfmgkdnfs

im having so many emotions right now that idk how to feeeeeeel

*SCREAMS FOR ETERNITY*

Wait, is life like, good now? At least better. Just the past few days have been good, no, great! So when am I gonna get bitten back?

WOOOOOOP THERE IT IS

how cool would it be if i just died. nobody would have to deal with me and it'd be so cool

some days i just wake up and i feel angry about myself

Despite everything, I still wish you a fulfilling and happy life.

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There’s gotta be something I can do...

lol why am i such an idiot. i always have to do idiotic things when there is no reason to do idiotic things.

self-****ing-awareness.jpg

oh god im gonna eat **** and fail

It's getting harder and harder to believe in myself.

One day I'll lose, and I lose everything will turn away from me, like I didn't exist, I'll fade away. I'm trying so hard to stop it, I'm crying so hard to please stop it. But each day, I look and see, as if that me in the photograph that's faded, and will... Disappear from... Everything.

Maybe if something were to happen I could be someone again, at least something... Or maybe if I go before it happens, then I won't have to deal with the misery.

This has been a roller coaster of a week so far. I've gotten dumped by the love of my life, then later the same day, I get accepted into one of the colleges I wanted to go to. The next day I was in an awful mood thanks to not getting sleep, but later in the day, my ex tells me she still cares about me and she wants to remain friends. Then just now I turned in my first job application to a place I'm almost guaranteed a job.
It's definitely been a hell of a week to say the least.