darkSpyro

I really, REALLY hope this doesn't get screwed up.

Now's my chance. This has to go well.

Quote: TheToyNerd

You know what... **** it. I’m going to stop feeling sorry for myself and expecting other people to make me feel better as a result of my personal insecurities and mental issues. All this self hate garbage is not only hurting me, but it’s hurting people who care about me and want to see me be happy.

Cutting out ALL the negative bull**** and focusing on me and making me happy. Starting by deleting all these awful Personal Thoughts posts from the past 5 pages.

*Cheers*

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I understand what you're trying to do, and that you're trying to help by being more assertive, but the way you're presenting that assertiveness makes you sound like an asshole.

I had a lot of fun with you guys. I hope we can do something like that more often.

This turned south quicker than Sherman on steroids.

Time to put on my man pants.

please dont make me yell.

****ing hell, close the goddamn door too. :^)

i started birth control a month ago and ive never been so pissed off in my whole life. like the most simplest things make me so pissed off all i want to do is scream and cry hahah what is wrong with me make it stooop

Quote: Thunderdragon14

i started birth control a month ago and ive never been so pissed off in my whole life. like the most simplest things make me so pissed off all i want to do is scream and cry hahah what is wrong with me make it stooop

its just your body getting used to the birth control, it should stop here soon. after your body gets used to it, you'll normal again. ^^

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i started birth control a month ago and ive never been so pissed off in my whole life. like the most simplest things make me so pissed off all i want to do is scream and cry hahah what is wrong with me make it stooop

its just your body getting used to the birth control, it should stop here soon. after your body gets used to it, you'll normal again.

Yeah it's totally normal for it to take about 3-4 months to get back to normal. I know that sounds like a long time but just remember that it's those 3-4 months of misery or 18 years of misery

That makes four people now that have called me by my new name out loud. Feels good.

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Quote: Thunderdragon14

i started birth control a month ago and ive never been so pissed off in my whole life. like the most simplest things make me so pissed off all i want to do is scream and cry hahah what is wrong with me make it stooop

its just your body getting used to the birth control, it should stop here soon. after your body gets used to it, you'll normal again.

Yeah it's totally normal for it to take about 3-4 months to get back to normal. I know that sounds like a long time but just remember that it's those 3-4 months of misery or 18 years of misery

and always remember at least its not a ****ING IUD

wait i've been considering getting an iud. that bad??

Quote: Darby

wait i've been considering getting an iud. that bad??

IUDs can get dislodged, cause infections and can be painful.

The reason I was considering it was less hormonal effects, but I've been hearing many downsides lately. Worst being my best friend is the product of a dysfunctional IUD lmao

I must've bombed that test so hard

I'm a ****ing idiot

Quote: parisruelz12

Quote: Darby

wait i've been considering getting an iud. that bad??

IUDs can get dislodged, cause infections and can be painful.

everyone i know who had one had horrible pain, now i dont think i know a single person who uses them lol

Quote: Darby

The reason I was considering it was less hormonal effects, but I've been hearing many downsides lately. Worst being my best friend is the product of a dysfunctional IUD lmao

thats why you double down, condoms AND birth control
then theres like
a percentage of a percentage of a chance

a lot of women in europe use them — IUDs have a very bad rap here in the US due to the Dalkon Shield

Quote: Darby

wait i've been considering getting an iud. that bad??

Is that a bomb?

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Quote: Darby

wait i've been considering getting an iud. that bad??

Is that a bomb?

Thank God I'm not the only one.

And it was this discussion that prompted me to Google what one was.

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i started birth control a month ago and ive never been so pissed off in my whole life. like the most simplest things make me so pissed off all i want to do is scream and cry hahah what is wrong with me make it stooop

its just your body getting used to the birth control, it should stop here soon. after your body gets used to it, you'll normal again.

Yeah it's totally normal for it to take about 3-4 months to get back to normal. I know that sounds like a long time but just remember that it's those 3-4 months of misery or 18 years of misery

im just worried that it isnt gonna get better and like...what if it makes me fat???? i was doing so good and then i get on birth control and all my bad habits are 1000x worse. i mainly started taking it for my acne but my skin hasn't gotten any better

news flash people- i'm not gonna refrain from talking about a trending memey subject because it's "huwtin the feewings" of certain person.

Quote: ZapNorris

news flash people- i'm not gonna refrain from talking about a trending memey subject because it's "huwtin the feewings" of certain person.

Congratulations?

time to say goodbye to school

Quote: willspyro

time to say goodbye to school

i have 3 more weeks TT_TT (cries myself to sleep)

Watches video about PCOS, becomes even more confused about my own experiences with it.

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time to say goodbye to school

i have 3 more weeks TT_TT (cries myself to sleep)

Same.....

But I'll have graduated when I do finish so yay!

Seeing that, made me real happy and giddy and makes me want to be there, thank you so much, I'm smiling albeit it's bittersweet.

Depression is coming up again, it's kicking me down, I can almost hear them. I can hear my friends it sounded like they had lots of fun a few nights ago, I wanted to... But decided not to join along...

Here I am again, falling away, how long will I not speak again? Especially after I was just starting to speak up and be more open? A month? Weeks? How long will I be silent?

I want someone to tell me that they want me there, I want to ask "Should I be here?" But no... That sounds selfish, sounds like I'm complaining, that means bringing up a serious subject. All I can do is be a coward once more and stay away and not say anything about this, but the fact that I'm even saying something here means I want someone to... Ask or to tell me to be around, to come on and join along. I just can't bring myself to ask directly... Only wallow in this hatred I have... For myself.

Maybe it's time, but no I'll continue to be a coward of pain and probably won't do it. Will being alone enforce that it's time, will staying silent and staying distanced give me the chance?

It hurts.... It hurts that I'm starting to fall apart and my pieces ending up in hurts... Please help... Please tell me... Someone wants me around still... Please...

It's getting cold, dark, depressing, alone once more... Please...

Happy Birthday, Grandma

Quote: willspyro

time to say goodbye to school

I only have like 19 more days

And 4 more years

Quote: Bolt

>\\\\<

(and good luck to everyone doing their finals(?) over the next few weeks! i'm sure you can all smash it!!)

I do not condone the sexual activity with important test papers

Quote: Bolt

perhaps you are not familiar with the term "smash it out", as in passing with flying colours

No, I know what you meant, I was making a joke

I have been stuck in this house for 2 weeks and you can't even sit here for 2 days? You want out of this lifestyle yet you can't even spend a week away from it.

Screw you.

Hoping for the best, just hoping nothing happens
(Why can't I)
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
(Feel anything)
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me
(From anyone)
I know you well enough to know you'll never love me
(Other than you?)

It's really sad seeing a user you used to look up to fall so far that they're now a judgemental, cynical shadow of their former self.

Quote: AestheticDragon

It's really sad seeing a user you used to look up to fall so far that they're now a judgemental, cynical shadow of their former self.

I think I know who you are referring to. when I read their deviantART journal, I had to take a moment to reflect. It was truly sad and disheartening to see the current emotional state they're in and I feel like I should've done more. I wish them the best and hope things get better for them.

uh ohh

hahahahahah birth control making me coocoo pt 2
as soon as i woke up i started crying and for the whole hour of me getting ready for school i was wailing and crying. then at breakfast i bawled and everyones like, "are you ok?" NO IM NOT OK as im stuffing bagels and cheetos in my mouth. then in homeroom i dropped my contact on the bathroom floor and i literally looked like a drug addict with my eyes all red and a whole ****in sea pouring from my eyes. my friend gave me chips so i ate those and cried when they were gone. i literally could not stop crying and i have no idea why i was so upset hahahaha

Last week I was diagnosed with Conjunctivitis in my right eye the antibiotic eye drops seem to be working on the infection. All was well until I woke up this morning....


I was so damned scared this morning, I still can't see that well right now, hopefully it will get better soon.

^ Thank you Sess, I really appreciate it.

As days go by
(I'll)
I swear I'll try
(Wait)
Until I die
(For)
Anything for you
(You)

God, you just...my God...You're so cold. Like, how could you say that to him? You realize that this is our home, his home and you say THAT? My GOD. Again, I'm at a loss of words about how awful you are when angry. Just so remorseless and cruel.


He had tears in his eyes....