darkSpyro

i'm done

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I ****ing hate group projects because no one wants to ever be in a ****ing group with me. I’m always the last person picked. It’s depressing... that’s what I get for being an awkward, lonely dip****

Has something changed between us or something? Because all of sudden I feel like you want nothing to do with me anymore.

what am i even supposed to be?

...Wow. I say some really mean stuff about my school on registration days.

special snowflake syndrome

Damnit! That was my one shot today...

Ugh... she probably would’ve said no anyway

i really hated the FEH channel tonight

I freaking wonder why I got so depressed the other day. It wasn't like me to suddenly get depressed for no reason.

stop being such a tryhard little *****

@darkspyro

the string wants to collapse, but the constant stress wont allow it

lol you really need to calm down

like seriously

God this is so ****ing stressful...

I’ve messed up nearly every single one of my cues. Idiot

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I’m not going to bother asking her. I’ve ****ed it up already and I keep creepily stalking her and then lacking courage to do it. She probably thinks I’m a total ****ing dickhead at this point. I’m a loser. A complete waste of time.

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No stop it. You had your chance. Get over yourself you ****ing ****

Huh...I guess that wasn't so bad. I'd been dreading it all day...

Pass the rope please

.....Why am I like this?

Ya boy is doing great in life, remember that whatever someone's going through can be beaten with enough support and help. Everyone here can be beautiful people and deserve happiness, keep on keeping on.

I-I just, don't want to go back

**** THIS PLACE

(Note: I am not referring to here, I am referring to my school)

Kk. I have almost had to go to the dentist and potentially have surgery because my one of my wisdom teeth started coming in. I almost didn't get into classes I needed because my school's registration system. Now I have a huge laptop I'm not used to with none of my stuff on it because my computer got screwed up by an update and has to be completely wiped apparently and will be stuck with it for the rest of the semester. I don't know what's going on here or why this bad luck is suddenly happening, but can it stay away for at least another three weeks now? PLEASE? Like, it's the end of the semester and 100000 things are due. I have no time for this.

You truly are lovely. It’s always a treat when you’re on. Despite us not really being together, it’s like we still share a special bond between us. I will always treasure that, even if and when I do find myself a true romantic partner.

that really sucks, did i do something wrong?

I'm so scared of being here alone, why haven't I grown past this. It was a 'traumatic experience' but I shouldnt be this weak, I should be stronger and I should be done with this fear. I should be better.

I should probably start sleeping sooner and stop skipping breakfast

Oh well, one week can't hurt

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Honestly, I had been terrified of that for a long time, but now that it's over, I realize that I was getting panicked over essentially nothing. It really was quite easy. I wish I just knew that before, so I wouldn't have been so worried about it.

Everyone needs a person in their life who teaches them about themselves.

> Tries looking up thing cause I like it
> First post is literally “I can’t believe people like this”

Well ****, that just ruined my evening.

boy does this tea taste good

Damn I can be an asshole some times. oof

Y'all gotta stop with that it's getting annoying.

Despite the fact that I accidentally spilled boiling hot coffee all over myself a few minutes ago, today's been a pretty good day so far.

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Whatever I’m done

I need to get more sleep

Something awesome happened today, I think I'm entitled to skip the gym

Still need to be careful though

You did not just say that. Not about this. Do you have any, ANY IDEA?!?!?!?

How dare you....

I’m a stupid, useless burden. What the **** is wrong with me. I’m so retarded, I hate it... I hate myself.

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Ugh, I must come off like such a creep to you... I’m sorry I’m absolutely retarded when it comes to socializing.

I think a lot of my points on serious topics are valid but I don't think i word them very well, I wish I could

A friend noticed my fat loss today and it made my whole day

With you here, I feel so uncomfortable. In my own home, it's so hard to relax because it's just so tense. Your presence is just so strong and when you get that kind of angry, its only worse. It's nerve wracking and almost scary. This is just horrific. Just horrific.

shaking im so mad.

Today has been wonderful, and I'm not even doubting the happiness like I normally do. Everything is good.

Why does it sometimes feel like my light that I'm told about doesn't belong?

It doesn't make me want to change or else I'd end up hating myself for not being who I am... But I feel like it just might not belong anywhere, like I might be estranged because of this purity I'm told I have. Does it really bring hope? Or is it just a bother to everyone? I'm told it's admirable, lovable, inspirational and... I do believe in them the words because I trust and love my friends. I have faith they mean what they say.

I guess though I feel like it might be a bother to a lot more other people, misunderstood, or makes me unable to belong among people...

Heh, it's weird that I have these thoughts and feelings about myself when my thoughts and feelings on others is that... I love how unique and different people are, I guess just somehow it's hard to feel happy about myself for long, yet somehow... I'm comfortable enough with myself that I'm adamant about keeping who I am... I guess I'm just conflicted and contrasted toward myself of self-loathing and loving myself, at the most... I accept who I am enough not to change... On the other hand I feel badly enough toward myself that I feel I don't belong in this world. And I'm always trying to do one or the other... To stay here... Or to go away forever.

You already made up your mind. Don't get attached.

I think I need to leave the Star Wars fandom.

Through my years on the internet I've learned to wade through the stupidity and toxicity but....I've never encountered such an angry group of people before.

I just saw a man say "Don't get political"....then proceed to write a wall of text about how liberals are all leeches that want to steal the conservatives money....in a thread about the revival of "The Vintage Collection". What.

Everyone has a right to an opinion, obviously. But when you go into a forum about children's toys and start insulting and attacking people's political views, just why? What does that give You?

Any advice?