You had the opportunity to be extra elitist and say "before Blazing Blade", and you didn't take it. You bring great dishonor upon your family.
I'm a noob in real life and that was the oldest game I could think of.
Blazing Blade (FE7, "Fire Emblem" internationally) is the first game outside Japan. Being with the franchise before that point is elitist bragging rights.
You could also argue, with Awakening being the most mainstream, that any game before it is elitist rights.
But only an elitist would say that.
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"sTORM, my parents just told me something that RUINED MY LIFE. DID YOU KNOW that Smarties have different flavors?!" ~ShadowMewX
Yeah, this is happening I guess. It's exactly what I feared and is making it increasingly hard to try and stay motivated. But really, how can I? Between this and the increasing lack of responses, I really don't feel anything. A shame really...
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I used to be THE Bowser, now I'm just an awkward girl
Do you think I'm stupid enough to not realise that all you've done is change the word from "suicide" to "seppuku" ?
You know very well that I don't like that stuff being joked around me, I've even mentioned countless times WHY I don't like it at all, yet you literally continue to do the same thing, all you did was change the wording, what the hell man?
...Which one of my dogs is so ****ing stupid? Pretty sure all the dogs should know that those pads at the back door is where you go for emergencies/accidents. Hell they should know that because they have done this before. Who the hell is being this ****ing stupid? Is this out of some form of spite?!
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If you cannot handle me at my pumpkin spiciest, you do not deserve me at my pumpkin sweetest
icon from Empoh
I wish people would stop talking about those things like that... It makes me feel distant, like I don't belong because of it.
It makes me feel like not being around anyone anymore. Not in the bad way where I dislike people, but in the way that I just don't fit in when things like that start up.
--- Like fallen snow, I lay on the ground and wait for my turn to fade away, no matter how unique I seem. It's my gift to you... A true sacrifice...
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why do i feel like im getting nowhere. i just got accepted into an art course but i have the nagging feeling in my mind that it isn't going to get me anywhere in the future. what does the world want for art? all artists struggle to earn a living, i can barely even get someone interested in a commission online, how am i expected to earn anything from my art in real life?
i desperately want to be a tattoo artist like me aunt and ... ugh ... stepdad, but i feel like ive ruined my chances with the shop i was apprenticing at last year. i broke down crying and never went back. hopefully the boss understands. she told me to do the art course so im doing this for her. i really hope she'll let me back at the end of the year.
but i don't even have any money for buying any machines. i looked for half of last year for a job and the only thing i could manage in this damned town was a christmas casual job that lasted three shifts. now im in an art course with limited time for a job, as well as less time doing personal art... eh, but personal things don't matter in this world. you have to be productive and spend all your time and energy doing things for work. personal things are unimportant and not valued, why waste you time on that when you could be working??!!
i can't even get work. there are limited jobs here with thousands of people looking. i got an interview for a job with 300 other people, where 3000+ people initially applied to the job and there was only 100 spots available. and guess who was left for a month stewing over whether she got it or not. they never even bothered to call me. my MUM had to call them to see if i got the job.
im nineteen in a week. i haven't got a job. probably no future. what use am i. what use am i. im just a burden and disappointment to my family. my stepdad hates me and abused me for half my life. i went to apprentice under him and he literally traumatised me because he thinks im "too soft". sorry im ****ed in the head. sorry YOU were probably the cause for my depression and anxiety!! i just want a future and you probably screwed it up and told everyone at the shop what a waste of space i am!! how unemployable i am!! thanks a lot!!!
im also super lonely. ive been yearning for a relationship lately but i can't speak to anyone. the last year has been so horrible to me, basically being isolated at home, so my social anxiety has gone through the roof. i can't speak to anyone. i don't know what to say. they all think im an idiot.
i wish i had someone there to talk to and lean on. i wish i wasn't so stupid and awkward. i wish i wasn't so unapproachable.
people can talk to me if they want. i don't bite. i can't start a conversation. but no one knows that ... man im so lonely and lost hahahahaha.....
I feel absolutely drained today and I hate it. I barely got done the things I really wanted to and I’m still tired as hell. Lazy... ****ing lazy piece of ****
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My head hurts...
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I get it you don't want to spend time with me or talk to me
Just say it outright. No "oh im just tired" just tell me up front that you dont want to talk to me
--- I just realised that I might not know what the hell is going on
I've had such highs and lows these past two weeks.
I can't stop crying. My anxiety is flowing off the charts. It's insane.
The future is so terrifying.
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I hate this weather. Absolutely hate it. It's effected my mental state so badly. I usually live and breathe the outdoors. You'd never catch me inside. Now it's all I can really do.
I'll go for walks or runs, and I come back with my body aching. It sucks.
I miss hanging out with all my friends. So many of them go away for college. It's like each of them took a piece of my heart. They're a part of me. It kills me.
I can't wait for summer. Long hikes, bonfires, and just doing stupid crazy stuff like sneaking into the drive-ins. That's what I live for.
It'll be soon enough.
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This boy. Damn, he drives me mad.
I never thought I'd actually ever fall in love. My whole life, I could of cared less about romance. It's different now. He's always on my mind. He makes me so unbelievably happy. I can't stop smiling and laughing.
Of all the goddamn things that could’ve happened. The goddamn mother****ing flu.
If we could trade places I’d take your place in a heartbeat tbh. Better me than you. I’m tired of bad things happening to the people I care about.
.....
--- ”I am not everything you thought that I would be
But every story I have told is part of me.”
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I know it doesn't really matter, but what you said was a massive compliment in my eyes and it made me really happy. Made me feel better about my voice a little.
--- I just realised that I might not know what the hell is going on
God, now I understand why she asked me if you were starting to get too creepy for me. I thought it was odd that she would ask such a question... so honestly and so concerned. I was only expressing my worry about how many times a day you contact me, but I was only concerned because I was afraid that you don't have any friends where you live (which is still true, but I understand why). Then she looked at me, took me by the shoulder, and asked "Is he too creepy? Do you want me to stop him?"
God, I should have known. All the random ass gifts like you were some sugar daddy. UGH. You're not a stalker, thank god, but it's getting to the point where I don't even want to read your name on my phone/discord anymore.
First, I've known you had a crush on me...ever since, what, junior year of highschool? And to anyone who's reading this, this guy is not in the same grade as me. He had graduated high school when I was in the 8th grade. I could tell you had a crush on me, because our same mutual friend kind of hinted at it, but not in a cheeky way...it was in a warning way. That you tend to be obsessed with people and it's hard for you to let go. Then one day, I got a mysterious anon on Tumblr that confessed that they had a crush on me for a while.
Finally did you confess, during the most manipulative moment too. Really?? Telling me how you were really depressed, how lonely you felt, how you didn't think you were going to feel happy at all that night????? You can go **** yourself. When I rejected, understandably, you wanted to understand and learn why you were rejected. I said, truthfully, that I just didn't click with you and I hoped we could be friends.
Then you kept messaging and messaging me with tiny little trivial questions, and all I wanted was for you to leave me alone at that point. All I wanted was to drop the subject, and move on.
Since then, you still messaged me the same amount as you always did. You even asked me if you wanted to hang out soon, like, a couple days after it happened. My brain was like NOPE!! NOPE BYE, and I literally didn't respond for six WHOLE hours because I didn't know what to say. I gave the usual "I'm busy, I don't know when I'll be free for a whole day", which is totally true, but in reality I didn't know when I was going to be ready again to hang out with you for a whole day.
I just didn't want to talk to you for a while, give me some air to breathe and settle my emotions. Let you settle yours. Then you had the audacity to ask me two days ago "Can you give you Valentine's day chocolates? I know you don't have interest in me...and that's fine, but I want to make sure you know that you're loved."
God, what the actual ****. Look, the sentiment is very sweet, but that's also insulting as ****. Not only that, you are PUSHING. Now I just don't even want to talk to you anymore. You're skating on paper thin ice. I responded "Honestly, I'd rather you didn't send me anything. You don't have to worry about me knowing that I'm loved - some friends have expressed that they are going to treat me that day. Thank you for the gesture."
Then you respond with a "K, hope you have fun!" GET OUT OF HERE WITH THAT PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE K god i am so tired.
What the **** am I doing... I’m such a ****up. I hate myself so goddamn much. I’m a stupid waste of everyone’s time. I had one job to do, and I keep repeatedly ****ing it up. What the **** is wrong with me? Why am I such a goddamn lazy ***** all the time. I’m a ****ing disappointment is what I am.
Stupid stupid stupid **** of a human being *punches face*
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I can't say I've changed, can't say I won't make those same mistakes again. Maybe I will. Only time will tell, for now, I'll let my actions speak for themselves.
Be myself? I don't really know who I am anyway. I'm quite creative and a good actor, but aside from that, I don't know anything.
I seriously can't imagine nor expect a way out. Honestly, I don't see this ending in anything other than that. All I'm doing now is waiting, but for what? Will it be too late?
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