darkSpyro

hey dad here's a quick question

why the **** are you such a creep?

Man, why do people have to assume everything. It literally makes everything worse. It honest to god does not hurt to ask questions first instead of jumping to conclusions. Like, you have resources. You know people. Just ask them for info. If its a touchy subject, be gentle about it, but making assumptions about it will just fan the fire. God dammit it is NOT hard.

I am always sick on/around my birthday. This year, I threw up on the 31st, aka today. Hooray for waking up at 5:35 in the morning!

"i want to roleplay""
(goes on to magistream)

"i hope theres something good"
(clicks on rp section.)

(its just dragon, warrior cats and wolves. )


****.

Dumb, non-issue I felt like venting

i should really write this down it'd make a good video

> Tries finding art channels to subscribe to and get motivated by
>Goes into existential art crisis about never being good enough

****, I hate my lack of motivation sometimes

Here's a question nobody can answer. Why is it I don't care about my own problems nearly as much as I care about somebody else's?

I'm sure I need to be on an anti-depressant. I was going to a psychologist last year, and he diagnosed me with depression and anxiety (ya think, doc?), and I told him I didn't want to be medicated, but I was being honest enough with myself that I needed it. Before I could find a psychiatrist or even a pcp, a few life events hit that kind of distracted me from everything, or that I was able to compartmentalize/keep at bay those feelings while I was adjusting to the new normal. Now that I'm there, it's all back again.

I'm not suicidal, and I'm not a danger to myself, my wife or my children. Figured I should just get that out there.

I just feel like everything's off. Nothing is really wrong, but nothing feels right. I can't go five minutes without something around me reminding me of a something from my life or my past that I'm embarrassed by or ashamed of. I have no interest in things I used to like anymore. I'm tired of feeling tired even when I'm getting rest. I'm tired of hiding.

Your mannerisms are unattractive and increasingly annoying

that was the cheesiest thing i've ever heard and thus is has no value to my future

its so unbelievably hard to talk to anyone, it stresses me out to no end and i do anything possible to avoid having to up to the point of not even replying and even wishing that people didnt want to talk to me at all

if i ever actually get tested for autism i know its complete dog**** if they say i dont have it

yes .

"ecstatic reeeeeee-ing"

Don't mind me, I'm just subtweeting like hell.

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I hate when I try to talk about something I like or share something that I find funny and my friends/brother just ignore me and say I'm "forcing" stuff down their throats. I have nobody to share stuff with and it just makes me so irrationally upset.

I believe in you, I think you (And your partners) can do it and be a success.

Nothing better than being bullied to the point of having anxiety at school. Twice. I'd really love to know how the **** people get off by doing this.

So it's a crime I have a nice birthday once in my life?

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So it's a crime I have a nice birthday once in my life?

Ok, I have to respond.

No, it's not a crime to have a nice birthday. It's just a dick move to brush off birthday wishes and expect a shower of gifts from complete and utter strangers who don't even like you all that much. Take what you can get, dude

You can't have your cake and eat it too.

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Quote: KeybasHedKey

So it's a crime I have a nice birthday once in my life?

Ok, I have to respond.

No, it's not a crime to have a nice birthday. It's just a dick move to brush off birthday wishes and expect a shower of gifts from complete and utter strangers who don't even like you all that much. Take what you can get, dude

You can't have your cake and eat it too.

I deserve gifts, after all the **** I have passed.

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Quote: KeybasHedKey

So it's a crime I have a nice birthday once in my life?

Ok, I have to respond.

No, it's not a crime to have a nice birthday. It's just a dick move to brush off birthday wishes and expect a shower of gifts from complete and utter strangers who don't even like you all that much. Take what you can get, dude

You can't have your cake and eat it too.

I deserve gifts, after all the **** I have passed.

Yeah, you've been passing loads of **** and it stinks please wipe thank

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Quote: KeybasHedKey

So it's a crime I have a nice birthday once in my life?

Ok, I have to respond.

No, it's not a crime to have a nice birthday. It's just a dick move to brush off birthday wishes and expect a shower of gifts from complete and utter strangers who don't even like you all that much. Take what you can get, dude

You can't have your cake and eat it too.

I deserve gifts, after all the **** I have passed.

No, no you don't. You're acting like a selfish spoiled little child right now. Appreciate the fact that others did wish you a happy birthday. If you wanted a gift buy something for yourself.

That's not a point of a birthday. And i'm not a spoiled brat, most of you just edgy wannabes, yeah not being hypocritical.

Stop mocking me.

So i'm wrong about having a nice gift for my birthday every single year is the same ****, and just look at all those PEOPLE GETTING GIFTS FOR THERE BIRTHDAYS!

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So i'm wrong about having a nice gift for my birthday every single year is the same ****, and just look at all those PEOPLE GETTING GIFTS FOR THERE BIRTHDAYS!

Stay mad, get over yourself first then you get gifts

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So i'm wrong about having a nice gift for my birthday every single year is the same ****, and just look at all those PEOPLE GETTING GIFTS FOR THERE BIRTHDAYS!

Try becoming a person who's actually worth people giving a **** about. Childish tantrums like this only hurt you more.

You're honestly incredibly lucky people even so much as wished you a happy birthday

Just a thought....

But why don't we just ignore Keybash and let her rant about whatever? It's usually IRL issues that get secluded to PT, RT, or Confessions so that it isn't usually hurting anyone or the forum at large. I get wanting to provide some form of help or call out idiotic behavior, but what is it actually solving? We all know that nothing anyone says will cause Keybash to change how she acts to affect the situation IRL or cause a change on the forum. Instead all it does is stir up some fighting and drama that fills up a page of one of the aforementioned topics and even though it starts on a semi-peaceful note, often ends in borderline bullying.

Found out my family that was in Houston got their homes washed over and they lost pretty much everything. I feel sorry for them, but glad theyre safe. I'm curious about what they plan to do in the future\


Oooorr according my Dad, the perfectly fine and they were in a part of Houston that didn't get effected as much.....

I made a horrible decision I can't go back now oh god what the **** have I done what was I thinking I ****ed everything up I really wish I could go back on this now

I need to stop thinking my life is like a movie or something. Not everything is a "plot line" in my life. I need to stop trying to delve into this stuff.

Typical.

I really just hate how uninteresting and inarticulate I am. I want to be more social, but my stupid brain can't talk well at all to people. Maybe I have autism or maybe I'm just stupid, but I'm just so sick of never having anything to say and being uncomfortable around people I don't know well

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This wasn't that bad. Could have been worth it in the long run.

honestly youre kind of a really big dick to me and it seems that you always try to avoid talking to me but the only times you do is to just disagree with what i said (even if it makes no sense) or to attack me (even if it makes no sense) maybe this is why i kinda moan inside when you join calls

It makes me so angry to see so many jokes about hurricane irma. The damage it caused to the Caribbean was so extensive and many people have been made homeless and lost family. People have no respect.

I keep getting these repeating thoughts. Other than the fact you're always the one who triggers them, there seems to be no connection. They don't even make sense. I wish I had some explanation. Anything really.

Sometimes I fear I'm spiraling into mundanity. Digitally, that is. In person, I'm perfectly capable of socialization. It makes me feel incomplete.

Then I remember I'm just bad at maintaining contact with everybody in general. Sometimes I give the impression I don't like someone even though I actually do. And atop that, I just lack prioritization in getting back to whichever party is in question.

THEN I also remember that I'm not the problem every time. Half-assed attempts to get my attention (single word messages, a meme, etc.) only serve to aggravate me and make ME feel like I'm giving repelling cues even though I understand that's not the case.

The intricacies that make me who I am are proving hard to overcome.

Ystävällisin terveisin,
Me, myself, and most certainly I

i feel broken
shattered even
i wonder what i'm doing with myself..
i don't enjoy much of anything
i am terrible at conversation and personal connections
and i feel that i'm out of place no matter what i do
but it's not anyone's fault but mine...

i have an ego, i cannot deny that.. i try not to flaunt it, but trying to hide it only makes it worse. i think myself smarter than i am, even if i give myself too little credit in other areas.. either way, i hate myself for what i do and how i act and associate. my ego tells me the only reason i'm out of place is because i'm too smart.. in reality, the only thing i'm smart with is school, and not anything else. i make up so many thing, so many details, just to try to fit in and be appreciated, but i'm still the person that'll ruin anything just with proximity. i come online as an escape where i can be myself, but it still feels like i'm lying to everyone.. even myself..
i don't really know what it is..

hi i'm isis the storm dragon and today we're gonna play social anxiety episode i've lost count

with added inability to move on from deceased cat and family issues oh and my brain being an unholy terror and giving me flashbacks and other thoughts i don't want

oh well there's always school i guess

for now i'm just. gonna hide in my shell don't worry about me i'll be fine i'm not in the mood to talk dfkgkfhn

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dad do you like... have a checklist of things about me you don't like and want to change? because you've always got something to criticize

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why is metroid: samus returns releasing on my dad's birthday

There are those who are destined for greatness.
There are those who have greatness thrust upon them.
Then there are those who rightfully deserve greatness, but never receive it.
So they must take it by force.

god pewdiepie and his die hard fans are so dumb lol i've seen so many people saying **** like "it's just a word!! why are black people being so sensitive!! it was a heated gaming moment!!" it makes me wanna kms and im not even black

I need to do something about this crappy internet

it made me really happy to talk to you again today. I said I miss them really quickly, but maybe I miss you faster. You made me smile a lot despite me being sick, and that really made the coughing from laughter and talking worth while. Thank you

-shrugs- I don't even know anymore.