darkSpyro

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wow lmao this job has made me gain my weight back

its almost as if this job is bad for my health or something

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people telling a customer service/fast food worker to "shut up and do your job" have obviously never had to work in retail/fast food.

irl not dS so **** off

I've said it once and I'll say it again
DON'T BE DICKS TO YOUR CASHIERS

Don't make a cashier ****ing self-conscious and upset because a joke he said made you uncomfortable and that "You're a cashier you shouldn't say things like that"
Yes, saying "wow this is a lot of dr pepper and RC Cola, people must be brushing their teeth with this stuff huh?" is an awful and uncomfortable joke, **** off. If you're having a bad day, don't take it out on us.

No, I didn't say that, the co-worker I was bagging for said that and he was worried about it for the whole shift. If you don't want human interaction and the cashier to try and hold a conversation so this whole transaction isn't uncomfortable for both parties, go to ****ing walmart or some place with self-checkouts. Not a local grocery store where half of the front end staff are teenagers.

I'm feeling particularly depressed tonight and it's all thanks to me rejecting any form of advice or compliment about my growth as a social being. I hate myself so much... Why do I gotta be like this? Why can't I just be happy like a normal ****ing person for once in my MISERABLE ****ING LIFE!

i'm really quite concerned unlike the others

wow... so eloquent with words in one conversation and in the other i completely ruin everything. i can't not **** up can i? i really am as worthless as i say.

I don't think that I have ever been more prepared for something like this.

I have a anger-fuelled over-sexual confidence that crumbles away when you get close to me.
I quess this is the best way to put it

whats wrong with me?..

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where did you go?

I suppose i'm just not good enough for you? I mean, if you're giving all the praise to her and leaving me to gather dust..

Would you even miss me? If i left you, right now, would it even matter? Would you shrug it off, or actually care?


.....When did it ever stop being "Like Father, Like Son?"

I have one person to blame for this.

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What makes me undesirable?

There are people out here getting attention and praise for doing NOTHING, and yet people like me who wish to tell unique and creative stories are shunned in favor of somebody else with no qualities.

Is it because of who i am? Is it because of how i look? Is it because of how i think?

I have a genuine feeling that someday, somehow, somebody.. something will bring me closer to fate. And when that happens, i'll be able to see my true potential.

But yet we live in a world where people are getting attention and praise from millions for doing NOTHING.

I think i need to seek a greater help on this. A simple internet presence isn't going to get me any closer to fate. I have to find the thing that will give me the chance i deserve.

@sess its fine youre just stating your opinion

I'm not literally comparing it to rape or shoplifting I'm using them as hyperbolic examples to what it's like in the real world

It doesn't matter if it's mundane, I guarantee if I went to forum games and posted a roleplay everyone would be pissy, it just annoys me that the mods pick and choose which rules to follow, I just don't see the point of being a mod if you aren't going to do the job you were given yknow, like I hate that I'm coming off as rude it's just kind of obnoxious to have to guess if you're gonna be punished or given leeway before you post, and sometimes it even depends who the user doing or saying the thing is, it's hard to guess the made up rules when the real rules are disregarded, at least make a topic that has the made up rules and then they're actually set in place so it's fair and followed like "you can **** post but if you do X you'll get on trouble"

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time to rotate away again

I'm so glad I'm seeing a mental health counselor... I feel depressed and anxious all the time over stupid, trivial nonsense. Everything makes me jealous or lonely nowadays and it causes me to beat myself up. I'm slowly going insane and I want to just feel normal for once.

EDIT: ****ING NEVERMIND ABOUT THAT FIRST PART THEN I GUESS! Jesus Christ, you couldn't have told me sooner?! This was my one chance to feel like a normal person again... Why must you do this to me?

Quote: JCW555

Lunarz, you do realize that these sort of topics were rampant before mods existed, right? Very few people (like, 2) have complained about them, so I'm wondering where this is coming from? I don't delete them because a vast majority of people don't mind them and don't report them.

No one's asking to have the mods delete them lol, just do their jobs as mods and follow the rules. When a topic is in the wrong section, move it.

Quote: Mesuxelf

Quote: JCW555

Lunarz, you do realize that these sort of topics were rampant before mods existed, right? Very few people (like, 2) have complained about them, so I'm wondering where this is coming from? I don't delete them because a vast majority of people don't mind them and don't report them.

No one's asking to have the mods delete them lol, just do their jobs as mods and follow the rules. When a topic is in the wrong section, move it.

J O K E T O P I C

Quote: StriderSwag

Quote: Mesuxelf

Quote: JCW555

Lunarz, you do realize that these sort of topics were rampant before mods existed, right? Very few people (like, 2) have complained about them, so I'm wondering where this is coming from? I don't delete them because a vast majority of people don't mind them and don't report them.

No one's asking to have the mods delete them lol, just do their jobs as mods and follow the rules. When a topic is in the wrong section, move it.

J O K E T O P I C

YOU BEAT ME TOO IT.

I HAD THE LINK READY AND EVERYTHING STRIDER.

U G H

I don't know why I'm so sensitive to this point, but I just always feels my opinions are the wrong ones, like they're morally wrong. Or they're bad to have. I always feel others points are so much better than mine and mine are just too child-like... Too fantasy-like. As if there can't be innocence in this world or it will be torn apart, that it's a bad thing to have, to try not to do wrong by either side and that it's something unrealistic, that it can't be done. And I feel as if there's no way I can relate to anyone because I'm alone like this.

I wish I wasn't self-loathing of myself, so this sort of thing doesn't happen... Because I know it doesn't totally go one way or the other, but I just always feel... That even other opinions are better than mine. And I hate doing or talking about this because it feels like I'm just whining like a big baby.

Is that all I am? Is that all I can amount to be? A child? Where I get so sensitive or hurt about every little thing? Is all I can do is hate everything about me? Stupid issues... Big, stupid, issues.

And again, I'm running away, like I always do, I'm running... Even if it's seen as going off to calm myself... I know I'm just running... I've experienced so much running I know this will fester and just continue to be a problem... But I just... It's so hard not to run away... Why can't I just stop running for once? To face my depression and self-hate with strength.... Why can't I stop fueling this loneliness and hate for myself.

Edit: It's amazing what self-realization can do, and just saying out loud what you personally think how much helps. It's just made me notice to have resolve against and fight against these thoughts I'm having. That these are my convictions, ones that I strongly believe in and feel I should do no matter what. Even if it ends up just being me this way it's what's unique to myself and that I shouldn't feel bad about it, that if I find it is something right to do then I should. That doing thing this way, it isn't wrong and that... It can happen, there can be a third path, it doesn't just have to be one side or the other. That even though the line is thin you can walk somewhere in between.

Though I feel a little disgusted with myself having such a fast mood swing and brief moment of over-sensitivity and weakness, ulgh.

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Quote: StriderSwag

Quote: Mesuxelf

Quote: JCW555

Lunarz, you do realize that these sort of topics were rampant before mods existed, right? Very few people (like, 2) have complained about them, so I'm wondering where this is coming from? I don't delete them because a vast majority of people don't mind them and don't report them.

No one's asking to have the mods delete them lol, just do their jobs as mods and follow the rules. When a topic is in the wrong section, move it.

J O K E T O P I C

FUN IS ALLOWED BUT NOT IN S&N

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Rambles of a duck

How the actual **** did it manage to save the irreversible change, but not the 2 things I did before that? Cool, Now I have to start all over from the beginning. It should only take about 2 hours.

EDIT: Why does the setting show up randomly but not actually work other times? Why can't I click on stuff sometimes, and then it works just fine? Why did I ever pick this ****ing class? Why cant this goddamn piece of **** program actually ****ing work? **** this thing. I'm following the instructions, it should ****ing work. I don't feel like redoing all this stuff and fighting the damn program to actually work as intended. I can't deal with it. Why could it just not have crashed and not **** everything up?


the only thing I spent time on today that i needed to, and it doesn't even matter because i need to start over

**** everything

I'm bad at art. I wanna improve, but I am too lazy to set aside time for it...

Why can't I just be good at something for once in my life. Everything I do sucks

i have depression

That idea just got shot down faster than a turkey in hunting season.

One of these days, i'll be great. I'll show you all that i can do better than her.

I feel like I'm going to be thought or talked about as pathetic now. At least I put up what I wanted to say about that subject, but I just get this feeling that when I'm not there, people are going to laugh at this.

I feel like a third wheel in all of my friend groups and it's starting to wear on me

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Get angry for one second, no one can stand your presence for a while.

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Shoutout to being 110% done

✌️ ✌️ ✌️ ✌️

I swear I will.

you really melted that stress away
maybe i really can do this!! after all, im not alone, we have each other and we can succeed!! <3