darkSpyro

Yes I do leave her on the shopping dress it makes the game even more hilarious

And maybe because she was the only reason I was able to beat Ozma in FFIX without completing the side-quest that weakens it...

After a long time of thinking this through, I think it's about time for me to confess something... Right now it's taking me so much courage and in a way confidence in who I am, that even then I must put it into a spoiler...

I love, I get so happy being called the opposite gender. This, this is taking so much to say, it's making me shake...

So to start this out, I'll say that it started ten years ago. So let's go back to then. It's pretty much somewhat before I joined this site but not too far from it. During this time it started out as a normal phase, I started imagining, thinking, pretending, having "what-if?" thoughts about me being the opposite gender. Okay, maybe that was normal for my age? Maybe that was just a phase? Maybe it would've passed? Now that's not the thoughts I had but those would seem like reasonable explanations to a more mature mindset that was. I didn't go as far though to try to be physical about the things I imagined though, such as wearing what would've been the norm to the opposite gender they were just imaginations and pretend.

Fast forward to a year later, well after a joined this site, this is around the same time I started playing MMOs and RPGs. Now at first the ideas I had was "Hey, I could try to recreate what is the opposite of my gender characters on these things" so it started out like this and only in a month or two I got this whacky idea. What if I did something funny? What if I made it out like I was the opposite gender? So I started down this path, making other people in these online games thinking I was. At times I would reveal what I truly and physically was and... At times I wouldn't. In a way it satisfied the imaginations I had of "what if I was the other gender?" and kept this adorable persona that I made.

...So, it stuck, I kept at it for a few years, probably three, four years? I was used to it, but for whatever reason I stopped playing MMOs and RPGs for awhile. I was on a two year hiatus, at that time it didn't matter much, yes I had friends on these MMOs but I didn't feel close enough to them that me sticking about would effect them anyway and vice-versa. After those two years I started getting back into these things, at first I kept to the gender I physically was I the MMOs, though at the same time this would be while I was roleplaying on here, and on here I made and kept to characters that were opposite genders from me. After some debate in my mind I thought "What the hell, I'll try doing what I did two years ago!" and I did. At first though I was just playing RPGs and online RPGs alone, then I start to get to know people with that persona and... When I was given a pronoun opposite of my physical gender, my heart jumped, it skipped a beat... I was... So happy, so content with hearing it. It made me comfortable, made me relaxed. I loved it. I wanted to keep going, and from then on I did... It became apart of me... It became me... As I kept seeing more and more and just got so incredibly comfortable, so incredibly happy. I felt as if I was the gender of my opposite.

Yet, I never had a want or need as to go so far as to want this change physically, I wanted to keep who I was physically but still wanted this... Wanted to be called by this. And for four years this stuck, I met people who would know my physical gender, my name, where I lived (no addresses given, so no risk of that, though I feel somewhat that I could trust some of these people with it).... But I never let this side of me be known, never said anything about me being happy about this, nothing.

In 2015, or 2016 I decided to play around, I made my profile say the gender of what I was opposite physically, for a good laugh. Along with showing the oldest date of year for my birth, hee haw the people that were close enough to know my personal info made the jokes about it. Though I didn't change either things, wondering for months of if I should change it back, the age thing though kept only as a joke... The gender thing? I had heavy contemplation on it. In the middle of 2016 I started showing the part of me that... I used on MMOs at that time. I tried acting adorable, I was all giddy about it, it made me smile, I showed, I brought that side of me to be together with who I was normally to make a whole me. And then as 2016 was getting into the Autumn season this is when the confusion settled in about who I was and why I was doing this. The year went on, coming to a soon close I just got more and more confused, I talked to friends about this and as I did I went through the process of self-realization (Thank you so much, one of those people that gave their opinion on this subject or I would've never reached the consensus I have now~) And after the year ended and we went into 2017, the self-realization continued forward until I was sure of myself. I had to tell someone... But I've been so nervous, so afraid of what people might think that it took a few weeks to gather up the courage I have now, the confidence to not think about the bad things and think about what makes me happy.

Now the finality of the story, and a short version of this whole thing just in case if you don't want to read the story of my realization... I'm happy, content with being called the opposite gender,, this is what makes me happiest... But it is not required to call me by what is opposite of what I physically am. Yes I have deep embedded feelings and thoughts that I am the opposite gender but neither is it a change I want physically, neither have I abandoned my physicality. In fact something like, let's say putting romance in the picture? Well, I'm still straight, I still like who I physically am. No one needs to throwaway what I am physically nor are they required to call me the opposite of what I physically am, especially if they feel it'd be more comfortable for them to or if they want to get closer to me and that's what makes them comfortable, calling and thinking of me as that when it comes to my attractions and sexuality and anyone who wants to get close to me like that, or maybe just wanting to get close to me in general. But anyone who wants to know what makes me happier, I'm happier being called the opposite gender. I just haven't abandoned what and who I physically am, whether you choose to do what makes me happy, or what makes you most comfortable... I'm fine with either, it's your choice. Just wanted to let people know what I'd be happier with but in no way will I get sad or depressed if you decide to call me by what makes you comfortable, I am completely fine with that.