im kind of a strange mix between excited and scared at the possibility of returning. on one hand itll give me some stuff to do over the summer outside of work, and ill get to catch up after a year of absence, but on the other it feels like it could open up old wounds that id prefer to stay closed.
you miss all the shots you don't take, so i guess ill go for it once my hellish finals week is over!
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why do i feel like im so invalid with this whole gender thing??? ive known most of my life that it'd probably turn out this way, and im pretty much committed to the idea of hrt and crap, so why does it feel like i don't deserve it? a lot of my friends are trans, non-binary, ect., but im generally the only one that feels like they haven't earned the title of being a demigirl. i would talk to someone about these issues, but im afraid it'll feel like im unnecessarily shoving a gender conversation in their face; even if they're lgbt+. i just want to be happy, not scared and confused and invalid...
you miss all the shots you don't take, so i guess ill go for it once my hellish finals week is over!
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why do i feel like im so invalid with this whole gender thing??? ive known most of my life that it'd probably turn out this way, and im pretty much committed to the idea of hrt and crap, so why does it feel like i don't deserve it? a lot of my friends are trans, non-binary, ect., but im generally the only one that feels like they haven't earned the title of being a demigirl. i would talk to someone about these issues, but im afraid it'll feel like im unnecessarily shoving a gender conversation in their face; even if they're lgbt+. i just want to be happy, not scared and confused and invalid...
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