It's that time of the year again when I have to hold back my tears all day until I can finally be alone in my room without worrying about people barging in for no reason.
My uncle sent my cousin, lets call her chicken (coughlivycough) ANYHOW he made her go to a friends of Uncles. So then, she was playing rough with a dog, (I dunno why) And she got bit. She had stitches, and everything... And this happened by the same time of the month WITH THE SAME PERSON! Uncle, you made Chicken hurt TWO times in one year. I say custody should just go all to Aunt, not to both.
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Heading out, my liege? A commission, I presume? Then I shall accompany you. Just...ah, allow me to indulge in one more chapter...
Now I'm losing sleep over this. I'm really getting tired of this bull****. Seriously. Like why was I even born. My only purpose seems to be to suffer in some way. You should have gotten rid of me while you had the chance. I suppose You still can, but you won't...
You're about the only thing that's keeping me alive and relatively sane.
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This place is a ****hole, I can't wait to leave.
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♥ May 23, 2011 ♥
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I don't think you realize that I actually CAN'T HELP IT. It may be an 'inconvenience' to you but to me it's something that stresses me out and just letting me have that makes such a huge difference to me. You make fun of me and joke about me being 'mentally ill' but anytime I ask for something that could quite possibly help that you tell me to just 'get over it'. Top ******* notch advice there. Why did I not think of that.
Its that time again, time for me to start fading away from everything... I dont even have to guts to tell people... Ill just vanish away and let them forget. Its not like I matter anyway
--- I just realised that I might not know what the hell is going on
I love how you though you had it made by cheating on me, but then when it all falls apart you come crawling back to me. I like to think I'm a generous person, but if you think for one goddamn second that I'll take you back, then you clearly don't know me. You're a completely different person than the girl I dated, and I'm glad I'm mostly rid of you. If you really do still love me, then show me by never contacting me again.
The great thing about turning 21 right before the new semester is that I'll be able to keep alcohol in my dorm and that makes me feel relieved 'cause I'm gonna need it.
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It never fails. The days that I feel the worst are the days you people never want to leave me alone.
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♥ May 23, 2011 ♥
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Yeah... Of course now that I'm awake is when you finally decide to shut the hell up ^___^
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It's funny how when somebody says something, I always know who will end up replying. But if I tried saying the same thing, there would only be silence. It just furthers my point, really. But of course, what do I know.
I've always accepted people for who they are, I don't judge cause I'm not them, so in saying that I don't want to be judged for who I am. I'm not religious, I'm not tall, I'm NOT stupid, I'm far far away from being perfect and I will be a good friend to those I have become friends with. I don't care if someone tells me they're a ****ing tangerine I'll accept it as long as they don't keep throwing it my face that they are. Do not shove down my throat your opinion on my beliefs cause I won't choke I'll just spit it out and ****ing walk away.
Everyone keeps saying to just do certain things that will help, but the fact that I have to do these things at all is what is so frustrating. The fact that I have to work for things that are natural to practically everyone else pisses me off. And even if the intention is to help, suggesting that I do these things just makes me angrier. And knowing me, doing these things will result in nothing anyway. Because, as usual, I'm the one to always get ****ed over. People just don't get it. I don't even get it.
Dad. Could you at least cook something that people well actually eat? Not all of us like Orange Chicken. The only that does is mom. Unless there's a lot more resources to cook (I checked to see if there was something I could do, but there's barely any actual options), just see if you can cook something more people would eat.
Also could you perhaps look up what dogs are allowed to eat? Because you're feeding them and whenever you feed them something, it back fires and I have to pick it up because maybe you're sexist and maybe because "**** you! They are your pets" mentality. Not to mention those dogs are the family dogs, or at least most of them. Everyone should pitch in and help me take care of them. Unless they have a legitimate reason not too, like illness or back issues. I wouldn't complain much about it, if it wasn't so constant and ****ing pathetic of you to wake me up just pick up **** that you are responsible for.
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If you cannot handle me at my pumpkin spiciest, you do not deserve me at my pumpkin sweetest
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Honestly at this point, all I can do is laugh at the Republican Candidates statements. Not that the Democrat Candidates are any better, mind you.
"I will appoint Supreme Court justices that will interpret the Constitution as originally constructed," - Marco Rubio
So....originally? So you'd have to get rid of all the amendments, including women's and african american's right to vote...oh yes, and the abolition of slavery?
Oooohhh, but you're meaning that you want to appoint Supreme Court Justices that can reverse the Same-Sex Marriage law, correct?
So you're just picking and choosing which parts of it to change, right?
Kinda like how you interpret the Bible?
Bad politics stop getting into my life that's grown up stuff I crawl on all fours to get up the stairs am obviously not adult
Also **** you youtube. Thank you for creating youtube red so now all the japanese and vocaloid songs are unable to be played on youtube anymore. Great ****ing work.
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Gay 4 GARcher
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Look guys, I've just dropped everything on my day for your call, if you're going to not show up at least warn in advance. Next you'll show up while I'm playing Bayonetta 2,and don't expect me to give a crap then.
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(What I need is never what I want)
I wish people would stop lying to me all the time, especially you guys. You act like I'm gonna be this big success and that my video is proof that Spielberg would want me or something... I'm not even good enough for my own school to want me. While my classmate's video is actually being used as a promotional thing, y'all are sitting there saying mine is good enough for that. No it isn't, even I don't think it's good enough. You only say it is because you're biased and trying to be supportive, but you aren't helping by lying. You want to know the truth? I'll probably end up living with you until the day you die, and then one of my sisters will have to put me in a mental hospital or something until the day I die. There is no future for me, and you guys are sitting there talking about how I'm gonna be in Hollywood and all that. That's a load of bull.
And then all of these other people feeding me lies about how I'm good enough for things or that I actually "look nice." You're only saying that to make me stop being a baby and make me feel better. I appreciate the effort, but deep down I know the truth. I try my best but it's never good enough, and people paying me fake compliments hurts more than any insult.
**** life.
Just give me a cyanide pill for Christmas.
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♥ May 23, 2011 ♥
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i don't know whether or not i should come out to them tonight, or wait... what if they don't accept me? what if they try to convince me that what i feel isn't real?
No No No I'm fine stop...oh not this senario please don't drag me there..sigh..ok I understand your concern but stop it I can handle myself I don't care if I'm dizzy, headache, or even feel like passing out, or want to shoot myself in the head please it's not worth it to to take care of someone pathetic like me it's not your job to be concern it's my job if i can't help you and watch out for you then I have no purpose let's face it I only so much time before my life crumbles and I'm a faliure and were separated....And I'll honestly miss you...but I think you'll be disappointed in me by..cause when I hope your on your path to success you'll probably know me for being a failure..I'll never understand how a person could be concern for a loser and low life like me and I wish I could be more helpful not matter how much I try I'm still a worthless pathetic scum of a human....I hate this week I hate life why can't I die nothing would change if I die now one should care either...**** me and my existence sometimes...
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POPSMARTS!
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Great, all I needed to hear on top of depression is that I most likely have epilepsy. I really don't want to have that CT scan tomorrow and the doctor barely asked me any questions before coming to that conclusion. She even thinks I may have a tumor! Jeez, I thought I was bad at assuming the worst. I need another opinion.