darkSpyro

Is it a coincidence that you decide to start doing this ****ing **** as soon as I leave you? I really doubt it, you stupid worthless *****.

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It's BULL****! I swear to ****ing Alvira is a curse!

First I had to go through a year of torture and hate, stress and alot-I swear ALOT-of crying. I couldn't take it anymore already. Though I got the courage enough to continue with my exams.

Worst, mistake, ever...

I didn't pass.
I feel like this entire schoolyear was for notthing but tears and blood-YES I stabbed myself I'm depressed!
All I'm seeing now are students that have passed and are getting presents from others to celebrate thier success. And me? I only get some "Chear up, you have next year" speaches, weak hugs and "Oh come on don't cry" ****. I am jealous at everyone getting clapped for, getting their stupid papers and their fuccking attension.

While I sit here getting notthing! Not even a small present to chear myself up. A small present to just get my mind of this hell...

I wish someone would do that.....

I will.

What the **** is this vibrating feeling on he left side of my chest, it's been doing that for an hour, I'm trying to sleep...

Quote: Badwolfmichael

What the **** is this vibrating feeling on he left side of my chest, it's been doing that for an hour, I'm trying to sleep...

Its me calling you

Telling you to love me

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What the **** is this vibrating feeling on he left side of my chest, it's been doing that for an hour, I'm trying to sleep...

Its me calling you

Telling you to love me

Sorry, 5 boyfriends is enough for me

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What the **** is this vibrating feeling on he left side of my chest, it's been doing that for an hour, I'm trying to sleep...

Its me calling you

Telling you to love me

Sorry, 5 boyfriends is enough for me

Love meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

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I'm done with relationships for a while

Hmm...should I tell her i'm gay? I kinda want to, but eh.

Curses.... Now I like this character....

Well, that could've went better, but it seems you enjoyed your time here. It was great to meet you again, brother.

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You know sometimes I hate you... The things you say and the **** you don't think about astounds me. You're an idiot sometimes.

Why is saying hi to people so hard?

Damn my new glasses are giving me a headache.

i really liked talking to you, i hope we can talk more aaaaaaaa
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why do i bother saying anything

Man I don't even have a crush on someone and yet i get so flustered when anything related to a romantic relationship with me and some random guy friend is mentioned/happens.

I'm in a deep deep abyss with no hope of return. this is it folks.

I need more sand to make more glass panels :/

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This game is the spawn of Hitler's single scotrum and its community is worst than what I've heard about the Xbox community (of 12 year olds)... why do I actually even play it anymore?

I like when people play Harvest Moon and then call something that's supposed to happen a glitch, and then put that game on a "worst game list" b/c they didn't ****ing look up the fact that it was an actual thing.

This morning is severely lacking 'good'.

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*Casually hopes for at least 1 adopt to be taken in*

Oh jesus, I never even considered that it might've been a euphemism... That ****s everything up so much god damn. GOD DAMN.

But thinking back now there's no way it couldn't have been like that, with who she was...

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I feel left out..

I ****ing hate being somehow related to you dad. Especially when I am smarter than you on animals.

Well I lucked out. Most of the business came in the evening after I left. kinda feel bad for Taia though, especially since she isn't too familiar with the stand.

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I met a girl over the internet, I feel weird, good weird. Iunno, she makes me happy, I like her a lot, I've never felt about anyone the way I feel about her we're perfect for eachother...But I live in Canada and she lives in Cali, I mean, I'm planning on driving down to Cali next year or the year after so it's not too long of a wait if I were going to meet her...I know long distance doesn't really work and I could never do it, I want to move to BC for school but I'm wondering if I should go to Cali instead, maybe they have a good acting school, that way I could be with her.

I'm just not sure of much, but I'm sure of how I feel about her.

**** it, I just decided, I'm going to aim for Cali next year, go to school there, get a job at some video game store or something while I try to get acting off the ground and then I could be with her.

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It appears that clearly nobody understamds me when it comes down to the future. You cant predict the future whatsoever. You never shall be able too. I simply dont care what will come. It doesnt interest me what happends next, especially not after building up so much hope on passing exams, and that hope being crushed... its no fun coming in all full with adrenalime and the next thing is "sorry I cant shake your hand because you did not pass." than getting to hear you got a 2,7 for math and just...
Everyone now blabs about my future as if it is a big deal but I dont care at all... I dont care because I have no future.... I dont want to have a future... not the one it currently is....


I just want to die.

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Me and my girl are on break right now

Sure, God may not like piercings or the fact that I have them and so many of them, but He loves me regardles of how many I have or the fact that I have any. Same goes in that I plan on many, many tattoos. He doesn't like us scarring ourselves, for He made us pure and perfect in body, and it takes away what he naturally gave us, same as for dying our hair color or wearing color contacts. But just because the Holy Spirit isn't leading me to do it, doesn't mean that it leaves me bacause I do it. It doesnt make me a Satanist or mean Im in a cult for enjoying dressing the way I do. I get pierced because I love the way it looks, it makes me happy. I plan on many tattoos because I think some of them are really beautiful and can have real sentimental value to them. Dressing in band shirts that depict odd scenes or images , piercings, metal and heavy rock, means nothing to who I am in my heart and spiritually. if you'll get past the heavy sound to the music, a lot of them have really beautiful voices(when they arent screaming into the mic, that is) and preach about really importand and good things, way better than all these "teen idols" that sing about sex, doing drugs, getting drunk, and having no respect for older authority, that dress in obscene clothing that completely disrespects themselves . whether or not this style makes me look gross or even disfigured is totally up to personal opion and I cant tell you that you're wrong for thinking that, but keep in mind that words like that hurt, big time. I just wanted to say that because it is far too often in our society that we judge people by the way they look without even trying to get to know them before we decide that we think we know what they're like. For the way I dress, the music I listen to, I'm often seen as "emo', which Im not in the least. Im very religous and Im strong in my faith. Sorry for this wall of text a lot of people probably won't read it because of the length but I felt like I needed to say this. Thanks to those who did read it all and maybe took something from it.

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Creepers, zombies, spiders and Endermen.... I hate to think what's next! o:>

Cave spiders, spider jockies, skeletons, oh my.

*glares*

I forgot about the skeletons

For a game that's made entirely out of blocks it's pretty creepy.

Don't forget the Guardians. Never forget about any weird fish sea-creature with spikes and an eye beam that always finds you.

I passed out early this morning at least two hours before the stream and I'm awake now. I was going to stay on dS and such until 4am in the morning like old times, but I just...passed out. It's probably for the best because I'm pretty sure I wasn't making a lot of sense then. I need to get more sleep daily, but there are too many things I have to do in the day so its? I'll sleep when I can, there's no real schedule in my sleeping habits I guess...

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why this.

Quote: AngelicBeast

Apparently, a dad can grab his daughter (who suffers from depression and anxiety) by the neck and throw her down because she wanted to know the reason behind why he wanted her to turn off her laptop.

I used to have a laptop where I had join.me downloaded on it, which when my dad found out, he assumed it was something that could let someone hack onto my laptop. I don’t own that laptop anymore, and because my dad is a literal idiot with his head too far up his ass, I haven’t downloaded it on my new laptop.

He wanted me to turn it off so he could pay bills online, but since I don’t own that laptop nor do I have join.me on my laptop, he had no reason to tell me to turn it off. Which is why I asked why I needed to turn it off, which after a few rounds of “Because I said so” “but why?” he ran at me, grabbed me by my neck, and threw me on the ground.

No amount of bonding can fix what he did. This is the second time he’s done this to me over something very small that communication could help.

I hate my dad.

I’m currently at my sister’s house, crying and shaking.

Holy **** that's abusive as ****! That's terrible! You should really call the police, he used violence. Grabbing you by the neck, damn that must hurt a lot...

Quote: AngelicBeast

Apparently, a dad can grab his daughter (who suffers from depression and anxiety) by the neck and throw her down because she wanted to know the reason behind why he wanted her to turn off her laptop.

I used to have a laptop where I had join.me downloaded on it, which when my dad found out, he assumed it was something that could let someone hack onto my laptop. I don’t own that laptop anymore, and because my dad is a literal idiot with his head too far up his ass, I haven’t downloaded it on my new laptop.

He wanted me to turn it off so he could pay bills online, but since I don’t own that laptop nor do I have join.me on my laptop, he had no reason to tell me to turn it off. Which is why I asked why I needed to turn it off, which after a few rounds of “Because I said so” “but why?” he ran at me, grabbed me by my neck, and threw me on the ground.

No amount of bonding can fix what he did. This is the second time he’s done this to me over something very small that communication could help.

I hate my dad.

I’m currently at my sister’s house, crying and shaking.

That's terrible. If you need someone to talk to I'll be here for you.

If it happens more call the cops.

Quote: AngelicBeast

Apparently, a dad can grab his daughter (who suffers from depression and anxiety) by the neck and throw her down because she wanted to know the reason behind why he wanted her to turn off her laptop.

I used to have a laptop where I had join.me downloaded on it, which when my dad found out, he assumed it was something that could let someone hack onto my laptop. I don’t own that laptop anymore, and because my dad is a literal idiot with his head too far up his ass, I haven’t downloaded it on my new laptop.

He wanted me to turn it off so he could pay bills online, but since I don’t own that laptop nor do I have join.me on my laptop, he had no reason to tell me to turn it off. Which is why I asked why I needed to turn it off, which after a few rounds of “Because I said so” “but why?” he ran at me, grabbed me by my neck, and threw me on the ground.

No amount of bonding can fix what he did. This is the second time he’s done this to me over something very small that communication could help.

I hate my dad.

I’m currently at my sister’s house, crying and shaking.

Jesus, your dad's a f#*ker! He has no right to do that!

Honestly, reminds me of my step dad kind of.


If you need to talk, like Mesu, I'm here for ya. In fact we're both part a chatzy room and we're both almost always on (Unless I'm at work.) and you're more than welcome to join us.

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Thank you, all three of you. It makes me feel like he really was being a jerk, and that his actions weren't valid. I would join the chatzy, however I need to leave very soon. Thank you for the invitation, though. It means a lot to me.

I might not have internet for a while because of his hissy fit. I'm scared to go home, but my sister is going to make me leave her house soon. She's going to make me apologize. It will not be truthful at all, I hate my dad. This isn't the first time he's done this to me, it's just this was the first time I had somewhere to run to to calm down and feel safe for a few hours.
I just hope he buys the fake apology and leaves me alone. I will never do anything with him again. He'll be lucky if I ever talk to him or look in his direction again.

*hugs you* Gosh I'm so sorry for what happened, I hoped that after you can leave you dad behind you will be able to live a better life that you deserve. Please be safe <3