darkSpyro

Thank you for giving me the answer I have been longing for so long. Even though the conclusion was not what I desired, it was still an answer that made me feel the first real and honest emotion for the first time in ages. Even though I do not know that how relevant this event eventually is and it will probably lack of meaning and overall purpose when analyzing it to death. But I feel that I can finally move on and set my sight on different horizons.

I'm pretty excited that now I can get back into animating. Just...have to find that program. I always put these things in places that I'll never miss it but it stays safe at the same time and I never find them. I have to look for something else 5 weeks from now if I want to find it.

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Well. It's done. One of the few things I'm willing to be serious about.

I just cannot wake up today sheesh.

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i am sO ****ing happy
you guys have no idea
i am the happiest i have been for half a year
and that is not an exaggeration in the slightest.
cause i'm happy
clap along if you feel--*shot*
hApPiNeSs

Quote: Jaggedstar

i am sO ****ing happy
you guys have no idea
i am the happiest i have been for half a year
and that is not an exaggeration in the slightest.
cause i'm happy
clap along if you feel--*shot*
hApPiNeSs

Why are you happy.

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Quote: WilltheWizard

Quote: Jaggedstar

i am sO ****ing happy
you guys have no idea
i am the happiest i have been for half a year
and that is not an exaggeration in the slightest.
cause i'm happy
clap along if you feel--*shot*
hApPiNeSs

Why are you happy.

good things have happened to me and my family and it's about damn time

wth i was watching a murder mystery tv show and the episode that came on was in my town in the neighborhood next to mine

holy ****

Maybe God is telling me that I worry too much..

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My dog gave me a monster headache... yay!


Horray for my dog.

I wonder if I should have followed my heart or not...

I don't know what to do, guess I'll just go back to playing Kingdom Hearts 2.5 Remix, just try to get calm again.

I still can't believe you'd lie to people like that. I never said ANYTHING like that. I thought you were my friend.

I want to get better. I want to get out of this pit of unhappiness. I want to finally feel good and make those around me happy.

But it's too hard.

I haven't been happy since before Christmas, it's like there's always something wrong. All this depression is making me lose people and I don't want that. Love for me is scarce as it is, and I can't lose anyone else. I wouldn't be able to handle it...

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I was reading my phone in the bath when all of a sudden my sister breaks in to get her phone because she is retarded. I got the **** scared out of me and dropped my phone destroying the screen. Thanks *****.

Quote: somePerson

I was reading my phone in the bath when all of a sudden my sister breaks in to get her phone because she is retarded. I got the **** scared out of me and dropped my phone destroying the screen. Thanks *****.

It's kinda your fault for using your phone in the bath...

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Bet no one will talk to me and say they'd want me to stay, am I right....Am I ****ing right?!

gonna buy my second cosplay ehehehe

I already love this school I might go to

Quote: Mesuxelf

Quote: somePerson

I was reading my phone in the bath when all of a sudden my sister breaks in to get her phone because she is retarded. I got the **** scared out of me and dropped my phone destroying the screen. Thanks *****.

It's kinda your fault for using your phone in the bath...

That's like saying that it's my fault for having stress ticks.

Quote: somePerson

Quote: Mesuxelf

Quote: somePerson

I was reading my phone in the bath when all of a sudden my sister breaks in to get her phone because she is retarded. I got the **** scared out of me and dropped my phone destroying the screen. Thanks *****.

It's kinda your fault for using your phone in the bath...

That's like saying that it's my fault for having stress ticks.

No, not really...

Why can't I find an article for my homework due tomorrow?

*sighs*

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I don't know if I should stop fighting...You seem happier without me interfering with your heart and you talk to me more...I don't know anymore.

Maybe I'm better off...Maybe it's better for them...If I'm alone...If I always am alone...

My nights are lonely and boring. I should probably use those mmorpgs to get some play buddies.
The question is how. I'm shy on these games and just go on everything alone. I'll probably go to earlier areas and see if anyone is having trouble beating someone. Hope they don't think I'm stealing their kills. I'll probably get yelled at and I'll feel rejected by everyone. I should just stay to myself. ;_;

The lonely road is a harsh one, but at least I'm not disappointing anyone.

are friendships really not as long as ours? what the hell...

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I heard a rumor about Elder Scrolls 6.

Outside:

Inside:

im screaming holy **** griffon ramsey i had no idea you were still going to be here! aaaAAAA

I dont see it. What everyone says. Nor do I see what why I feel the way I do. People say that i am so many things, but they are wrong. I am not what they say, but at the same time i dont see bad about myself. But something deep inside me, something here makes me hate myself more than i have ever hated something. I can not look in a mirror for extended periods of time. I cannot stand to look at myself. What is wrong with me? Why do I despise myself so much no matter what?
When I get like this i act so rudely towards those around me. I think i deserve to be alone. With acting like this i do.
I am indeed, a terrible person.

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Feeling worthless, useless and downright stupid, you showed me that there is a reason to find my faith again. If only all people would be faithful to the one's they love then I do believe that there would be hope and there wouldn't be so many broken hearts. I lost trust in many people I love but you restored that trust again. Did you know that I was falling and you had to stop the fall? Did you know that I was a freaking wreck and you saved me? Did you know that I was hurt and the pain was too much for me to handle? I don't know if I would have stayed sober but you saved me. I thank you, you really are a wonderful friend. ^.^

I wish my school was more strict. I wish we had uniforms. I wish we had a lunchroom. I wish people would stop spray painting the vending machines in the courtyard. I wish people were disciplined. I wish people wouldn't make the coffee in the coffee shop the equilavent of lava. I wish the school store was somewhere less crowded. I wish the principal did his job. I wish they'd add air conditioning. I wish they'd add a heating system. I wish they'd update the peeling walls and stained floors. There's literally blood stains outside the library, guys. Classy school you're running. I wish the windows had screens. I wish the school wasn't 2000 people over the max capacity. I wish people wouldn't have to sit on the floor because there's not enough desks. I wish my school functioned like a school and not some social center. I want to learn **** guys, that's why im here. Teach me.

you always make me wait. i'm beginning to loose trust in you.

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yo mum when i'm saying my ears haven't popped since i'd been on a plane in august and i have been pretty much half-deaf since then i do not mean i want ****ing sarcasm in return

thanks