Everyone thinks there life is truely worse than someone elses, but the thing is our lives are only as hard as we choose to make them. Fate deals us all different cards because we are all different and all find the meaning of difficult and hard worse in our own lives than everyone elses. But sometimes though. Sometimes people are just so ****ing blind and don't see what they have even when it smacks them in the face and it is so frustrating for the people who can see they are just wasting their chance and complaining about life because that's what people do. We complain and nag and want and need, like a bunch of fish just opening and closing our mouths without a single thought that maybe my life isn't as bad as I think it is. I mean it could be worse. You could have Ebola XD ahahah last line joke XD rest is serious **** though.
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Alt/egirl crossed with a Hippy, some days be gamer life others I just wanna dance with the forest fairies
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I'd be so easily forgotten. I already am. I don't think anyone would care if I left. I have no reason to stay anymore. I don't know why I still do. My life would be a lot easier if this place wasn't a part of it.
I mean, I guess I only stay because this is basically my only social enviorment. I don't have any friends though. I mean, not really. Friends are people you confide in. I think I've only ever confided in one person on here, and they've been gone almost a year now. I have a few minor friends... We haven't talked in ages. Maybe commented on something once or twice, but never really conversed. We don't talk. I haven't had an actual conversation that wasn't irritating small talk with someone in ages. I miss having conversations with people that aren't just "how are you" "I'm fine, how about you" "I'm great kthxbai". Having stupid conversations like that all the time gets on my nerves. Like how people you never talk wish you a happy birthday. They talk to you, but don't pay attention to what you say, because they said it out of curtesy. They don't care. It's practically mindless.
But really... How are you supposed to call someone a friend if they know literally nothing about you? That's my problem with the internet, and why I find it pointless now.
My "friends" here? They don't care. Nobody does. Not anyone on here, that's for sure.
I don't think they ever really cared. Nobody ever does, not about me. I'm not important. I never have been.
And I never will be.
lol ignore this just senseless rambling that doesn't make any sense yay
I'd be so easily forgotten. I already am. I don't think anyone would care if I left. I have no reason to stay anymore. I don't know why I still do. My life would be a lot easier if this place wasn't a part of it.
I mean, I guess I only stay because this is basically my only social enviorment. I don't have any friends though. I mean, not really. Friends are people you confide in. I think I've only ever confided in one person on here, and they've been gone almost a year now. I have a few minor friends... We haven't talked in ages. Maybe commented on something once or twice, but never really conversed. We don't talk. I haven't had an actual conversation that wasn't irritating small talk with someone in ages. I miss having conversations with people that aren't just "how are you" "I'm fine, how about you" "I'm great kthxbai". Having stupid conversations like that all the time gets on my nerves. Like how people you never talk wish you a happy birthday. They talk to you, but don't pay attention to what you say, because they said it out of curtesy. They don't care. It's practically mindless.
But really... How are you supposed to call someone a friend if they know literally nothing about you? That's my problem with the internet, and why I find it pointless now.
My "friends" here? They don't care. Nobody does. Not anyone on here, that's for sure.
I don't think they ever really cared. Nobody ever does, not about me. I'm not important. I never have been.
And I never will be.
lol ignore this just senseless rambling that doesn't make any sense yay
HDAZ, I haven't been on in a while and we haven't talked much, but I still know you as a part of the community here, and a good one at that. You're always nice to people and the S&N boards wouldn't be the same with you gone.
To be honest, I've been going through a similar situation with this site. I know people, but I don't really know people. All of my friends left a few years ago and I haven't talked to the few new friends I've made in a long while. I don't know why I come back to this site, I'm just attached to it for some reason. Maybe it's the sense of community around this place, maybe it's because I have things I need to do here. However, I'm not connected to anyone on this site anymore, at least, not as I used to. At times, I also feel as if no one cares, and you know what, they might not care if I left today, but I guess I come back here because I care, that's all off topic though.
I'm not trying to guilt-trip you into not going if you want to go, that's your choice to make, but I do want to tell you that you that people do care.
I'd be so easily forgotten. I already am. I don't think anyone would care if I left. I have no reason to stay anymore. I don't know why I still do. My life would be a lot easier if this place wasn't a part of it.
I mean, I guess I only stay because this is basically my only social enviorment. I don't have any friends though. I mean, not really. Friends are people you confide in. I think I've only ever confided in one person on here, and they've been gone almost a year now. I have a few minor friends... We haven't talked in ages. Maybe commented on something once or twice, but never really conversed. We don't talk. I haven't had an actual conversation that wasn't irritating small talk with someone in ages. I miss having conversations with people that aren't just "how are you" "I'm fine, how about you" "I'm great kthxbai". Having stupid conversations like that all the time gets on my nerves. Like how people you never talk wish you a happy birthday. They talk to you, but don't pay attention to what you say, because they said it out of curtesy. They don't care. It's practically mindless.
But really... How are you supposed to call someone a friend if they know literally nothing about you? That's my problem with the internet, and why I find it pointless now.
My "friends" here? They don't care. Nobody does. Not anyone on here, that's for sure.
I don't think they ever really cared. Nobody ever does, not about me. I'm not important. I never have been.
And I never will be.
lol ignore this just senseless rambling that doesn't make any sense yay
HDAZ, I haven't been on in a while and we haven't talked much, but I still know you as a part of the community here, and a good one at that. You're always nice to people and the S&N boards wouldn't be the same with you gone.
To be honest, I've been going through a similar situation with this site. I know people, but I don't really know people. All of my friends left a few years ago and I haven't talked to the few new friends I've made in a long while. I don't know why I come back to this site, I'm just attached to it for some reason. Maybe it's the sense of community around this place, maybe it's because I have things I need to do here. However, I'm not connected to anyone on this site anymore, at least, not as I used to. At times, I also feel as if no one cares, and you know what, they might not care if I left today, but I guess I come back here because I care, that's all off topic though.
I'm not trying to guilt-trip you into not going if you want to go, that's your choice to make, but I do want to tell you that you that people do care.
If I may be allowed to comment on this. I'm sorry that if I seem to be not talking to you HD&Z. I was busy with school work, and I forget to talk to friends on here. I'm more active to talk on skype. Honestly I know how you guys feel at this situation too. I'm sorry.
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If you cannot handle me at my pumpkin spiciest, you do not deserve me at my pumpkin sweetest
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I'm playing a game which makes me procrastinate yet the worst ever sentence in the game that puts someone in the slammer for a million years is procrastinating...Oh man, that's so weird.
--- Like fallen snow, I lay on the ground and wait for my turn to fade away, no matter how unique I seem. It's my gift to you... A true sacrifice...
I'd be so easily forgotten. I already am. I don't think anyone would care if I left. I have no reason to stay anymore. I don't know why I still do. My life would be a lot easier if this place wasn't a part of it.
I mean, I guess I only stay because this is basically my only social enviorment. I don't have any friends though. I mean, not really. Friends are people you confide in. I think I've only ever confided in one person on here, and they've been gone almost a year now. I have a few minor friends... We haven't talked in ages. Maybe commented on something once or twice, but never really conversed. We don't talk. I haven't had an actual conversation that wasn't irritating small talk with someone in ages. I miss having conversations with people that aren't just "how are you" "I'm fine, how about you" "I'm great kthxbai". Having stupid conversations like that all the time gets on my nerves. Like how people you never talk wish you a happy birthday. They talk to you, but don't pay attention to what you say, because they said it out of curtesy. They don't care. It's practically mindless.
But really... How are you supposed to call someone a friend if they know literally nothing about you? That's my problem with the internet, and why I find it pointless now.
My "friends" here? They don't care. Nobody does. Not anyone on here, that's for sure.
I don't think they ever really cared. Nobody ever does, not about me. I'm not important. I never have been.
And I never will be.
lol ignore this just senseless rambling that doesn't make any sense yay
I'd be so easily forgotten. I already am. I don't think anyone would care if I left. I have no reason to stay anymore. I don't know why I still do. My life would be a lot easier if this place wasn't a part of it.
I mean, I guess I only stay because this is basically my only social enviorment. I don't have any friends though. I mean, not really. Friends are people you confide in. I think I've only ever confided in one person on here, and they've been gone almost a year now. I have a few minor friends... We haven't talked in ages. Maybe commented on something once or twice, but never really conversed. We don't talk. I haven't had an actual conversation that wasn't irritating small talk with someone in ages. I miss having conversations with people that aren't just "how are you" "I'm fine, how about you" "I'm great kthxbai". Having stupid conversations like that all the time gets on my nerves. Like how people you never talk wish you a happy birthday. They talk to you, but don't pay attention to what you say, because they said it out of curtesy. They don't care. It's practically mindless.
But really... How are you supposed to call someone a friend if they know literally nothing about you? That's my problem with the internet, and why I find it pointless now.
My "friends" here? They don't care. Nobody does. Not anyone on here, that's for sure.
I don't think they ever really cared. Nobody ever does, not about me. I'm not important. I never have been.
And I never will be.
lol ignore this just senseless rambling that doesn't make any sense yay
Bby come back ;w;
I know we're kind of friends on here, or at least I have you on my friends list. Who else will I have to fangirl over AOT with? D: I'm sorry I never message you, if by any chance I was one of the people you were referring to, I dunno, but I'm awkward with new(er) people and don't really like starting conversations with them. You're an important member to this forum, you're super nice and cool and I feel like a lot of people would miss you if you left ;w;
Why is it that, despite being in a decent place and don't harp on it much, I still want this? I've been told that it's because I want to establish a connection with someone I lost, but that sounds so sappy that I don't think I really want to accept it. I've been able to live and let live all this time but when I'm reminded up front about it, I feel uneasy. And it bothers me when other people don't even attempt to understand. My hands are tied and there's nothing I can do yet for some reason I keep feeling like things will change. It doesn't bother me that often but there are days where it can.
look at all that positive reception, and all just being ignored too! man, i sure am confused... and rather envious
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Man, am I sick of being dreadfully unprepared for the math portions of tests like that. Don't you think if it were that important then we should actually be taught how to do the stuff that's on it? Lmao
inb4 "uhhh it's supposed to challenge u" How can I be challenged when I've never seen problems like that in my life, hardly know what they're even asking, and don't even know the first step to finding the solution?? At that point, you just have to leave it blank!
inb4 "how r the teachers supposed to know whats on it?" Because there's plenty of practice tests they could look over and go over briefly...
inb4 "just practice urself" I realize that we are expected to do that in our free time and it's our faults if we don't, but with all the homework dumped on us, how do you expect us to have any time to do anything like that? I tried some, and it's pretty time-consuming. Most of us have sports that take up most of our time, some of us even have jobs... Plus the homework? Plus the fact some of us enjoy at least a little sleep? Where's the free time you expect to filch from us, as opposed to just setting aside some time in each math class for the subject? The people who aren't taking the test could just relax... We usually have some free time at the end of the year, so it shouldn't really hurt anything.
It's easy to hate someone You disagree with. Or just don't get along with.
But You think it'd be easy to keep in mind that everyone has problems in the end.
Whether they're big or small to others, they matter to each their own.
It feels so hard trying to help...trying to love You...when Your parents just bring You down again.
Merrily we fall
Out of line, out of line
Id fall anywhere with you
I'm by your side
Swinging in the rain
Humming melodies
We're not going anywhere until we freeze
I'm not afraid, anymore
I'm not afraid
Forever is a long time
But I wouldn't mind spending it by your side
Carefully we'll place our destiny
You came and you took this heart, and set it free
Every word you write or sing is so warm to me, so warm to me
I'm torn, I'm torn to be right where you are
I'm not afraid, anymore
I'm not afraid
Forever is a long time
But I wouldn't mind spending it by your side
Tell me everyday I get to wake up to that smile
I wouldn't mind it at all
I wouldn't mind it at all
You so know me
Pinch me gently
I can hardly breathe
Forever is a long, long time
But I wouldn't mind spending it by your side
Tell me everyday I get to wake up to that smile
I wouldn't mind it at all
I wouldn't mind it at all
I'm a doll.
I'm a ****ing doll.
And I've been thrown away.
Have I?
Or am I just imagining it?
You talking to me after class means you haven't thrown me away yet, or have you?
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**** it.
I am ****ing sick and tired on this year. Our year is a bunch of *****es and dickheads (except for two friends) who look down on me and my best friend due to us being the 'outcasts'. We had to sit at a table with my ex and his two friends for the Leavers Dinner. They didn't even try to make conversation with us.
We're ****ing done. I doubt we're leaving on good terms. Two more days of school and then we're gone. Out of school. And we won't have to deal with certain 'feeling crushers' and 'stress creators'.
And we also have to get over certain people and move on. There's 40 guys in our year, and 6 billion in the world. We'll find someone better. Someone who won't crush our hearts or use us as a doll, to play with us and then throw us away.
We're done, with people and school and teachers in general.
I can't take it.
I need freedom.
We need freedom.
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So I'm watching adult swim, and they were talking about how being an adult is great because you have total freedom and you can watch as much tv as you want, whenever you want, and there I was laying in bed eating cookies at 11 pm and I had the sudden realization that I'm free, like it never really hit me until just then o___o
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Halloween is my favorite holiday, but I'm just not feelin' it this year...
So I'm watching adult swim, and they were talking about how being an adult is great because you have total freedom and you can watch as much tv as you want, whenever you want, and there I was laying in bed eating cookies at 11 pm and I had the sudden realization that I'm free, like it never really hit me until just then o___o
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Halloween is my favorite holiday, but I'm just not feelin' it this year...
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You can feel me this year
HEYO
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Lanky Kong saved me despite having no style nor grace.
So I'm watching adult swim, and they were talking about how being an adult is great because you have total freedom and you can watch as much tv as you want, whenever you want, and there I was laying in bed eating cookies at 11 pm and I had the sudden realization that I'm free, like it never really hit me until just then o___o
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Halloween is my favorite holiday, but I'm just not feelin' it this year...
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You can feel me this year
HEYO
Hey bby come on over so we can have our own little partyyyyyy lol
I know I'm over reacting and there are no signs of anything like that happening but still I guess I cant help but panic its in my nature. And the more I think about it the more I freak out and the more the scenario seems likely. I know Im getting worked up over nothing, and I know that this makes me seem obsessive but I guess Im just scared of losing you.
I hope you forgive me for my strange over-caring habits. <3
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