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Quote: Rickorio

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I wish this would ****ing end. I want it to end. I want this life to end. It's not bring anything to this world. I'm never gonna have any impact on the world, heck, the biggest impact I could possibly have is being a part of a video game. And, out of all the few people who I care about, most of them just hate me. And my dad hates me (well, not me, but my sexuality). He even told me if I go that way, "it's over." And the one person I can even imagine caring for me, only likes me as a friend. It's so much worse than what I've said, but I want it all to end. Really bad.

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Rickorio, buddy, I'm so sorry! :c
I know you may think that you have no purpose in life, but sometimes it's not always clear. You'll be able to figure it out, even if it isn't until later. Hey, but trust me, you probably affect more people's lives than you think. And I mean for the better. I'm able to notice when you're absent from DS for a bit, and even if it's not serious I still miss ya. I always look forward to talking to you here/Skype, and I'm always excited when I see a new RP post from you. I'll always try to be here for you if you need it. Once again, I'm really about your girl. Maybe it'll just take time for her to feel the way you do, and even if it doesn't, she's probably a good friend to have. c:

Thanks. And yeah, she's a great friend to have.

How am I going to continue, seriously?
I really need help, and you think the best thing to do is just complain about someone? Like what the ****!?
I'm just on the verge of breaking down, I feel like just running away from everything, would it even make it any better? I'd just keep on walking, I wouldn't even care where I went. I'd just get as far away as possible.
Im on the verge of just breaking down, what the hell do I do with life? I wont get anywhere..
Maybe I just need a hug, a real one, someone to actually tell me that everything is gonna be alright, that you're gonna be fine, that you're still going to be you after all of this..
I'm completely terrified that i'm not gonna be me after this. That i'll just be different.. I'm scared of myself, wow. I'm scared of my anger, im scared of being like this, im scared that I wont ever change. i'm completely terrified because hurting myself doesnt even calm me down anymore, my knuckles are pretty red and grazed, and nothing was ****ing working, What scares me the most is that no matter how much I scream, or how much I beg for help, nothing will actually help me, im basically falling apart, but you wouldn't even know if you didn't read this. No matter how much I fake a smile, or fake happiness, its not going to make me feel any better, infact, the more I do it, the more I hate myself for lying.
Why dont any of you actually give a ****!? Seriously, you see me suffering everyday, and yet here you are, acting like nothing is ****ing wrong! We're family, right? I'm like a ****ing outcast! Someone who doesn't even live there! You've forgotten about me so much, like what am I to you people, huh?
I'm sorry, but I dont even know if I can last, I feel like just giving it all up, like leaving you all behind, I just cant stand all of this.
Im finding it really hard to remember things, everything's just sorta.. blurry. I find it really hard to eat alot, I always feel exhausted, my body just sorta.. malfunction from time to time. I also find it really hard to focus..
I need help, badly, but no one can save me, did I even deserve it in the first place?

Something different~

Can't tell I was ignored or you have yet to read it. Until I get an answer... I may never know.

So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain, you won't drown
And one day what's lost can be found
You stand in the rain

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I will DAMN swear ALL I DAMN WANT.

My boss tried to call me on the radio, and didn't know what my code number was. I'm "what's-your-number" to my boss.... Really feelin' the love.... XP

eeeeee

Odin
Can you please just stop being such a hard Eidolon to fight?
Geez <.>

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*after battle*

Alright
That was just entirely worth it.
Those attacks are so powerful
Sooooo worth it

I hope we don't loose anymore animals this year
I know its a part of nature, but its still never easy.
Today we lost Lucky Its still hard to believe we got her from the Walmart parking lot, cause someone just dropped her off and left her there. Some people can be so cruel, at least she had a good life here.

I don't keep it a secret, is just that I'm not noticed. If you ask, I'll tell you the truth. I'm not ashamed of it. It's not like I'm hurting you.

Always ask me instead of doing assumptions. Keep in mind that I do play a lot so I tend to cause misunderstandings on purpose.

My aunt let my sister use MY TOOTHBRUSH. Does she know how many disgusting germs lurk in my sister's mouth?? She goes days without brushing! What was the reason? HER ELECTRIC TOOTH BRUSH WAS OUT OF CHARGE. No. That is not okay. They did not have my permission. My aunt just said "I'm letting your sister use your toothbrush." Um excuse me? I think I am the judge of who uses my stuff. I was saying "No, no, you can't use it! Hers is perfectly fine! She can brush without the electric on!" I am so angry. I don't care if she's my sister, that doesn't mean we share germs. Ew. They use my hairbrush too! My sister's hair is as gross as her stupid teeth! USE YOUR OWN ****ING TOOTH AND HAIRBRUSH. I don't like people using my toothbrush, hairbrush, socks, pillowcases, towels, special mug that is just mine, phone, laptop, hand gel, stationary..know why? Because there are germs on their hands and they don't think to clean the stuff they use after touching it. Okay, so I'm a bit of a clean freak! Okay, so I don't like people touching doorknobs without cleaning them after! You all know that and to shove it in my face and make fun of it is immature and asdfghjkl; I'm so pissed off. Now I'm freaking out because I can't find my emergency Virgin Atlantic toothbrush I got on the flight here that I haven't used so it's basically in pristine condition. There's no way, in a gazillion years, that I'm using my old one again. Next time anyone does that I'm using their toothbrush to clean the ****ing toilet.

My night is gonna be filled with chest pains, hearing things, guilt, increased heart rate which beats really hard and some nightmares as well, plus some unpleasant thoughts to myself. Oh, and cant forget about the headaches.
Yay.

Track is over!!!
*dances around before getting a cramp in my leg and falling over in pain*

I feel people put too much hope or faith in me... I try my hardest to help sure, but I'm not the best person...But because of my past, I feel I'll just make things worse someday...

Maybe it's because I don't have much hope or faith in myself...And I have a good reason that I will never say...

But my friends hope and faith in me, if they have a lot of it...I feel a lot of it is misplaced.

I don't know why, I have a lot of feelings about me that bring me to feeling I'm not a great person, or no better then an average person, not the kind of feeling that would drive me to suicide, but some compliments or good things said about me sometimes I feel I don't deserve.

I'm neither special nor amazing...I'm just a person, I don't I even rate as average, just that person.

I have stress tourettes now.

Quote: Jaggedstar

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I have an electric toothbrush, but I never turn it on when I use it.

Even though I say I'll stand...Even I get tiresome of picking myself up...

Well, better gather up the strength to stand again, stop feeling this way about myself, just gotta feel that I have a good life, not feel how I am as a person, if I'm average or not, just gotta try to be happy...I know I can be stronger than this with what I've been through.

I guess that is a fault of mine...Not relying on other people...But I'm trying to think about them and not burden them with my problems...But I know they want to help...But...I just...Can't burden them and rely on them, not in a I don't trust them sort of way...In a way that I'm afraid that they might not be able to take it...But maybe that is also apart of trust...I don't know, I'll just continue to carry myself, maybe life will give me a conclusion...

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Quote: Jaggedstar

snip.

I have an electric toothbrush, but I never turn it on when I use it.

I have a electric toothbrush, but I only use it before I go to bed and on certain occasions.

I honestly have no idea what's going on right now.

whether your team won or not will seriously not matter at all in ten minutes. it doesn't get you anything. all it does is give you a little extra air you can use to inflate your ridiculous ego some more

I've been trying to get my assassin to the same spot as we're on...SAVING ROLAND BY MYSELF WAS A BIIIIIIIIIII-...

All anyone ever does is just walk by without a care in the world.

I really hate how I do this so often but I can't help it afdfdfsfsf

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It's about time you acted like a man and told him the truth. I can't say I'm not happy you left him, but don't ever use me as an excuse for your wrong doings. I don't think we should remain friends anymore, you need to find someone else that you can blame for your whoring around. Try being faithful, maybe you won't have to use your friends for an excuse for your stupidity.

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Quote: AvatariDragon

but then they turn around and make fun and say rude things to anyone who disagrees with them.

Unless the gay rights supporters are attacking innocent people who are just ignorant or sending death threats or just in general going way too far, then I agree. But if they're jumping on people who say that homosexuality doesn't exist or something ridiculous like that and refuse to back down, then it could be justified. It's just that homosexual people constantly have to deal with people claiming their sexuality isn't real, and they can sometimes outright be attacked for it without anybody batting an eye. It's not a jusitification for being a complete douchebag, but I can honestly see why they get so angry.

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It's funny how gay rights supporters claim they try to spread the word to end hate and say how everyone should be loved and treated equally... but then they turn around and make fun and say rude things to anyone who disagrees with them. I'm not saying they're all like that, but I've seen some of the things they say and post on their pages... a bunch of hypocrites. If you want to help end hate, treat everyone the way you claim they should be treated. At that point, it's not just about equality, it's just common courtesy. If you aren't going to truly take your goal seriously, then I really can't take you seriously, no matter what you're fighting for. Just saying...

Exactly. I'm not stupid, I know there will always be people who don't approve of how I and others are, but I still respect their opinions. You don't like that I'm gay? Well I don't care, as long as you don't act on that hatred and do some stupid thing like beating me up because of how I am or picking on me. I, personally, am not trying to end hate, it'll never happen. I hate certain people, so what point is it to end hate when you yourself hate? I am, though, for getting people treated equally, that people can be who they want to be without anyone hating on them because of it. Keeping in mind of course, if your ***** then nobody can help ya there from getting hated on.

Did I pass my A level chemistry exam that I did today?

I don't have as much energy as I used to for some reason...What is going on with me lately?

But then...It is visitation weekends...Things get so lonely and quiet around the house without my younger brothers...I also get stressed about their safety with a man like that...That abusing man...I'm close to all of my brothers and sisters, thankfully my sisters don't have to go...I only got out because I'm eighteen, over here, I don't have to go to these visitations because I'm an adult, I can choose not to...But still...These weekends still make me somewhat stressed, and make things so quiet...And less energetic...

It makes me realize that he took all of my best years away, all those years that could've been spent creating a childhood...Most of it was in fear...

If he wasn't there, I...My brothers and sisters besides my older brother, would've never been born...

Sometimes though...Sometimes I wish I had more years back...To make better memories that I hadn't had before...

This weekend...Is going to be a lot of negative energy...

lol
@me Michael Clifford is living proof that you can be really ugly and still become famous

@og **** off

@me lol

@og haha ikr it's so funny that you have no life

@me

@og lol why you call Michael ugly tho? I think it's time to take that eye test

@me ok

@og yea ok bye you ****ing idiot

@me byebye

people on twitter are ****ing stupid

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It's funny how gay rights supporters claim they try to spread the word to end hate and say how everyone should be loved and treated equally... but then they turn around and make fun and say rude things to anyone who disagrees with them. I'm not saying they're all like that, but I've seen some of the things they say and post on their pages... a bunch of hypocrites. If you want to help end hate, treat everyone the way you claim they should be treated. At that point, it's not just about equality, it's just common courtesy. If you aren't going to truly take your goal seriously, then I really can't take you seriously, no matter what you're fighting for. Just saying...

It's funny how certain religious groups claim they try to spread the word of tolerance around... but then they turn around and make fun and say rude things to anyone who disagrees with them. I'm not saying they're all like that, but I've seen some of the things they say and post on their pages... a bunch of hypocrites. If you want to help spread love, treat everyone the way you the you claim they should be treated. At that point, it's not just about religion, it's just common courtesy. If you aren't going to truly take your goal seriously, then I really can't take you seriously, no matter what you're fighting for. Just saying...

You can apply that logic to a lot of different groups, religious or not. So I don't know what point you're trying to make here.

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It's funny how gay rights supporters claim they try to spread the word to end hate and say how everyone should be loved and treated equally... but then they turn around and make fun and say rude things to anyone who disagrees with them. I'm not saying they're all like that, but I've seen some of the things they say and post on their pages... a bunch of hypocrites. If you want to help end hate, treat everyone the way you claim they should be treated. At that point, it's not just about equality, it's just common courtesy. If you aren't going to truly take your goal seriously, then I really can't take you seriously, no matter what you're fighting for. Just saying...

It's funny how certain religious groups claim they try to spread the word of tolerance around... but then they turn around and make fun and say rude things to anyone who disagrees with them. I'm not saying they're all like that, but I've seen some of the things they say and post on their pages... a bunch of hypocrites. If you want to help spread love, treat everyone the way you the you claim they should be treated. At that point, it's not just about religion, it's just common courtesy. If you aren't going to truly take your goal seriously, then I really can't take you seriously, no matter what you're fighting for. Just saying...

You can apply that logic to a lot of different groups, religious or not. So I don't know what point you're trying to make here.

The point she's trying to make is that all of the groups that do that are stupid.

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It's funny how gay rights supporters claim they try to spread the word to end hate and say how everyone should be loved and treated equally... but then they turn around and make fun and say rude things to anyone who disagrees with them. I'm not saying they're all like that, but I've seen some of the things they say and post on their pages... a bunch of hypocrites. If you want to help end hate, treat everyone the way you claim they should be treated. At that point, it's not just about equality, it's just common courtesy. If you aren't going to truly take your goal seriously, then I really can't take you seriously, no matter what you're fighting for. Just saying...

It's funny how certain religious groups claim they try to spread the word of tolerance around... but then they turn around and make fun and say rude things to anyone who disagrees with them. I'm not saying they're all like that, but I've seen some of the things they say and post on their pages... a bunch of hypocrites. If you want to help spread love, treat everyone the way you the you claim they should be treated. At that point, it's not just about religion, it's just common courtesy. If you aren't going to truly take your goal seriously, then I really can't take you seriously, no matter what you're fighting for. Just saying...

You can apply that logic to a lot of different groups, religious or not. So I don't know what point you're trying to make here.

The point she's trying to make is that all of the groups that do that are stupid.

Alright then, sorry if I seemed rude.

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Quote: Ninpire

Quote: IsisStormDragon

It's funny how certain religious groups claim they try to spread the word of tolerance around... but then they turn around and make fun and say rude things to anyone who disagrees with them. I'm not saying they're all like that, but I've seen some of the things they say and post on their pages... a bunch of hypocrites. If you want to help spread love, treat everyone the way you the you claim they should be treated. At that point, it's not just about religion, it's just common courtesy. If you aren't going to truly take your goal seriously, then I really can't take you seriously, no matter what you're fighting for. Just saying...

You can apply that logic to a lot of different groups, religious or not. So I don't know what point you're trying to make here.

The point she's trying to make is that all of the groups that do that are stupid.

Alright then, sorry if I seemed rude.

Exactly. I was just specifying gay rights supporters because that's who I seem to see it from the most. Sorry for the confusion~

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I mean, I understand why they get angry, and rightfully so, but don't say "help end hate" if you aren't going to actually follow that credo. Calling someone a rude name and/or bashing their opinions (and not all of the opinions I've seen were rudely made or even directed towards any one person) makes me believe you are no better than you claim that person to be.

a /opinion

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Despite what some people might say, I STILL believe that homophobia isn't an opinion. Homophobia is prejudice and discrimination. I'm not saying that it's okay to respond with death threats and bull**** like that though. And before you say that you never said homophobia, if someone disagrees with the concept of someone being gay, that's homophobia.

But that's just how I see it, you don't have to agree. Just puttin' out my two cents.

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Homophobia isn't an opinion for the same reasons that racism, sexism and other forms of discrimination are not opinions. >.> They're prejudice and hatred of people for reasons that they cannot control. Just as you can't help being born with black skin, you cannot help who you love. >.>

I completely agree here.

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Homophobia is a thought pattern. NOT AN OPINION.

yeeees

ah, fridays

I'm so tired...