(IRL)
Are we still friends? I guess not. And you know what? I'm glad. I spent so much time trying to keep our friendship from ending, and what for? Why, why would I put up with someone who hates me for so long, someone who wants me to suffer, when I could've simply said "**** this, I hate your guts" years ago? Perhaps I was afraid of being alone again, afraid of having no friends? I was a loner for years, since I was a little kid. I had no idea how to interact with people, and to this day I'm still clueless. But I hated it. I never knew why people hated me so much. I hadn't done anything wrong, people just... Didn't like me at. I wanted friends, but I wasn't sure how to make friends. Meeting you guys changed that. For once, I didn't feel alone. You were nice at first, what the hell happened? You changed completely, you became someone I didn't recognize... Three. ****ing. Years. Of. This. Bull****. I've wasted three years of my life putting up with this ****... As a kid, all I wanted was friends. But now, I'd gladly welcome isolation.
If only I could say this to your face, if only you could read this...
I felt this same exact way once.