darkSpyro

One cannot plan life beforehand at all. There are so many random factors that one is not able to control in general life so all in all our abilities to influence on our long-term life plans are quite limited. We can decide what movie to watch, what food to eat, what clothes to wear and all the everyday things but when it comes down to big picture that will affect our lives for decades to come, we are not equipped that well.

I hate double standards.

Oh god, I'm going paranoid. I can't tell if he's online but ignoring me, or the posts that say he liked the page was from something before...I don't think I can face him tomorrow.

Well the internet is **** today.

NO NO I'M STILL 12 OKAY THIS CAN NOT BE HAPPENING SO SOON GO AWAY GO AWAY 2014 I DON'T WANT YOU a

I'm so freaking happy right now. I just threw away my blades ^-^. I'm trying to move on from that place so yay

Why would you draw that ;_;

Oh great, what did I screw up this time?

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Dear *insert dude from schools name here*,


please die


Sincerely,

Our entire school <3

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I'm one of those unattractive nerds that is a magnet for unattractive idiots. My sister says I'd be 'stunning' if I got rid of my giant thick nerd glasses and if my acne cleared up. She claims to be jealous of my hair, but come on, nobody likes blonde. .-. I'm one of those people that will forever be socially awkward. People I know need to get the hint that trying to change my appearance won't change who I am.

^ I so agree with that last part. I'm a nerd, and idiots seem to 'bring out themselves' around me.
I have glasses and acne.
I have longer hair for a male.
It's an odd color that people can't describe.
I am forever socially awkward.
People thing changing how I look would change who I am.

So what if you're female, this still relates to your post.

HDAZ, although appearance isn't everything, it could certainly make you feel a bit better, especially if you care about what people think of you.
Also, blonde can look FABULOUS on anything, getting rid of that acne and glasses shouldn't be too hard either ^.^

Quote: CommanderGame

HDAZ, although appearance isn't everything, it could certainly make you feel a bit better, especially if you care about what people think of you.
Also, blonde can look FABULOUS on anything, getting rid of that acne and glasses shouldn't be too hard either ^.^

Yeah, I guess you're right.

And I'm as blind as a bat without my glasses and I refuse to get contacts because the entire concept disgusts me.

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Quote: CommanderGame

HDAZ, although appearance isn't everything, it could certainly make you feel a bit better, especially if you care about what people think of you.
Also, blonde can look FABULOUS on anything, getting rid of that acne and glasses shouldn't be too hard either ^.^

Yeah, I guess you're right.

And I'm as blind as a bat without my glasses and I refuse to get contacts because the entire concept disgusts me.

I got hipster glasses and I don't regret my decision, they do really look good

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Quote: CommanderGame

HDAZ, although appearance isn't everything, it could certainly make you feel a bit better, especially if you care about what people think of you.
Also, blonde can look FABULOUS on anything, getting rid of that acne and glasses shouldn't be too hard either ^.^

Yeah, I guess you're right.

And I'm as blind as a bat without my glasses and I refuse to get contacts because the entire concept disgusts me.

For the acne, I suggest PROACTIVE SOLUTIONS
As for the glasses, you get used to contacts. And frankly, when you start wearing them, you'll never go back.
If you REALLY don't wanna get contacts, get some thinner non-nerdy glasses, you know, the black rectangle plastic ones? Those are pretty cool, I used to wear them until I switched to contacts.

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HDAZ! DON'T GET PROACTIVE! That stuff damages the skin on your face D:

What are you talking about? I know 3 people in my family who used it, they're perfectly fine and rid of acne >.>

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Quote: HotDogAndZap

Quote: CommanderGame

HDAZ, although appearance isn't everything, it could certainly make you feel a bit better, especially if you care about what people think of you.
Also, blonde can look FABULOUS on anything, getting rid of that acne and glasses shouldn't be too hard either ^.^

Yeah, I guess you're right.

And I'm as blind as a bat without my glasses and I refuse to get contacts because the entire concept disgusts me.

For the acne, I suggest PROACTIVE SOLUTIONS
As for the glasses, you get used to contacts. And frankly, when you start wearing them, you'll never go back.
If you REALLY don't wanna get contacts, get some thinner non-nerdy glasses, you know, the black rectangle plastic ones? Those are pretty cool, I used to wear them until I switched to contacts.

I get the thinnest lenses I can have (and still be able to see) and they're about a centimeter thick.

But with glasses, it's like
"Not sure if I look better without glasses, or I'm just blind"

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Quote: CommanderGame

Quote: HotDogAndZap

Yeah, I guess you're right.

And I'm as blind as a bat without my glasses and I refuse to get contacts because the entire concept disgusts me.

For the acne, I suggest PROACTIVE SOLUTIONS
As for the glasses, you get used to contacts. And frankly, when you start wearing them, you'll never go back.
If you REALLY don't wanna get contacts, get some thinner non-nerdy glasses, you know, the black rectangle plastic ones? Those are pretty cool, I used to wear them until I switched to contacts.

I get the thinnest lenses I can have (and still be able to see) and they're about a centimeter thick.

o.o
Contacts are really the only way out, they can even change your eye color if you want :d

Quote: CommanderGame

Quote: HotDogAndZap

Quote: CommanderGame

For the acne, I suggest PROACTIVE SOLUTIONS
As for the glasses, you get used to contacts. And frankly, when you start wearing them, you'll never go back.
If you REALLY don't wanna get contacts, get some thinner non-nerdy glasses, you know, the black rectangle plastic ones? Those are pretty cool, I used to wear them until I switched to contacts.

I get the thinnest lenses I can have (and still be able to see) and they're about a centimeter thick.

o.o
Contacts are really the only way out, they can even change your eye color if you want :d

Ugh, contacts are disgusting. And I think I'm fine with my current eye color, thank you.

Quote: HotDogAndZap

Quote: CommanderGame

Quote: HotDogAndZap

I get the thinnest lenses I can have (and still be able to see) and they're about a centimeter thick.

o.o
Contacts are really the only way out, they can even change your eye color if you want :d

Ugh, contacts are disgusting. And I think I'm fine with my brown/grey eyes, thank you.

True this. I'm to lazy to change contacts and put things in my eyes.
Though, if I did have them, they would be red.

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Quote: HotDogAndZap

I get the thinnest lenses I can have (and still be able to see) and they're about a centimeter thick.

o.o
Contacts are really the only way out, they can even change your eye color if you want :d

Ugh, contacts are disgusting. And I think I'm fine with my current eye color, thank you.

C'mon, you can't say that the idea of getting rid of glasses after having them for so long isn't appealing.

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Quote: CommanderGame

o.o
Contacts are really the only way out, they can even change your eye color if you want :d

Ugh, contacts are disgusting. And I think I'm fine with my current eye color, thank you.

C'mon, you can't say that the idea of getting rid of glasses after having them for so long isn't appealing.

B-but

I think they're part of my face now

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Ugh, contacts are disgusting. And I think I'm fine with my current eye color, thank you.

C'mon, you can't say that the idea of getting rid of glasses after having them for so long isn't appealing.

B-but

I think they're part of my face now

BUT BUT
JOIN US
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I like glasses thank you very much.

*leaves topic*

I've said what I needed to say.

I really appreciate you taking the time to do that. It was great of you to show me how driving works. It's even greater that you were patient enough to let me try it (since there was no one around, it was a pretty isolated area) and help me through the turns and whatnot until I kinda got the hang of it.

I suck at turning the car though -_-

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NO NO I'M STILL 12 OKAY THIS CAN NOT BE HAPPENING SO SOON GO AWAY GO AWAY 2014 I DON'T WANT YOU a

Wait, you're 12? That's cool

@HDAZ Glasses are awesome! I personally think they can make a face look better. Plus, the hide the dark circles under your eyes if you don't get sleep!

Win win!

(I always have dark circles under my eyes, so mine help me so much lol )

I look 100x better in glasses.

Quote: Bash28

I like glasses thank you very much.

*leaves topic*

I've said what I needed to say.

*Pushes up glasses* Yes, glasses are awesome, some of them may make you look like a nerd...

But they make you look like a badazz intelligent nerd!

*Is kidding about the nerd part except the intelligent part, is apart of those who wears glasses* xD

I feel the same about myself @Bash. I hate the way I look without mine... >~>

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Welp, another week of school. I've got a meeting with my house principal to "work out more plans to help." I... I feel like I'll explode. The more I think about it, a personality test I did a while back was so accurate. All I want is understanding and comfort. No one gets it, and I'm horrible with words. I can't explain myself, and I can't stand up for myself either... No, I can't advocate. And speaking up is scary for me... I wish we knew more... But it's so new there's not much research yet darn it. For all we know it might not be what we think. Now I'll be going to a consoler with my parents so they can help me, because they need to know how. I feel like an idiot. And consolers just bring back memories... Bad ones. My past still haunts me, and in fact if it hadn't happened I wouldn't be in this pain darn it. I hate you, and I don't say hate. It's too strong a word. So, needless to say, I don't hate often. But you... Why were you so heartless? I don't care about you anymore, but if you knew what you've done to my family... Actually, forget it. You don't care. That's how we're here. I don't regret anything. But sometimes I wish it hadn't happened. But then... Who knows where we'd be? All I can say is... My mom and family. You are all amazing people. I am blessed to be with you all, and to be able to help you and have you help me... I'm lucky. Truly. Although AMPS sucks, everything happens for a reason...

But this one better be a darn good one.

Thanks so much for helping me in every way you can... And if my house principal is a good guy... I trust you, you have a sixth sense about people. He can help me with the school day... We need all the help we can get. But I hate how the words "get through the school day/year" and "have the most normal day you can" keep coming up. Hurts me...

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Quote: Wild

NO NO I'M STILL 12 OKAY THIS CAN NOT BE HAPPENING SO SOON GO AWAY GO AWAY 2014 I DON'T WANT YOU a

Wait, you're 12? That's cool :P

i wish i was ;_;

I swear whenever I get side tracked with making things there's always a lot of chatter going on in the club that I miss out on.

go away fear
go away pain

(Babbling encompassing several days worth of events...)


I saw Catching Fire today! It was good, why can't the next one come out tomorrow?

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Ok, I'm trying to get a shift's hours extended? How did a conversation about asking for more hours turn into you asking about my 2-week resignation notice? That's not happening, this job is stupid but I'm not quitting. If you're going to get all butt-hurt everytime a worker asks for longer hours because they need a break due to their body needing food to survive, you should really rethink being a boss, cause you suck at it.

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Did I seriously only get a break only because I asked if I could eat? Sure I was required a break this time, but I have a feeling you would've forgotten if I didn't ask if I was allowed to have dinner.

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These holiday hours are seriously ****ed. I end up spending nearly all day at work with no time to myself, only being home like 3 hours out of the day, then ending up going nearly 12 hours between meals because of how screwed over everything ends up for me.

Don't let them in.

let the storm rage on
the cold never bothered me anyway

Sooner or later you're going to have to accept that I'm real.
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*Snickers*
I love what you're doing. Welcome back.

I hope that you no longer have me as one of your idols.

I CAN'T SLEEP I WANT TO WRITE AHBDNKklm,./

Just gonna go ahead and post this because I'm sure someone is going to eventually.

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Kinda sad how I was showing great improvement early this year...only to get dragged back to where I was before.

stupid thoughts

So sleepy... want to snooze... but work....zzz...

I am so glad we're not friends haha I hate you

sometimes i wish there was a way to search for posts more easily. this topic is so huge that it can be a chore to look for older posts.

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I know what I have to do. And I figured it out earlier, but then I lost it. Well, I'm going to try again. It's about all I have left at this rate. I'm going to try to not worry about things anymore, and just focus on being happy.

Unfortunately, this won't change my social anxiety with one-on-one conversations with 'new people', but it's a burden I'll have to live with. I'll try to do what I can, but right now... I think I just need to stop worrying.

Quote: Bash28

I like glasses thank you very much.

*leaves topic*

I've said what I needed to say.

This.

I seem to get the same question every day. "Why is your hair so long?" I know it is long...9 inches about...

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let the storm rage on
the cold never bothered me anyway

i love you

Hey HDAZ ^.^