darkSpyro

I...can't get over you. I keep trying and nothing. We were never together, nor were we ever. But still, I wrote this a while ago and it all stays true so i'll post it here:
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Dear Dylan,
You will most likely never know this, but I am head over heels in love with you. I think about you everyday, all day long. Seeing you in Mandarin class just makes my heart beat and I feel happy inside. On a scale of 1-10 I couldn’t even grade you, you broke the scale. You’re the entire package of perfection. You’re sweet, funny, hot, cute, have abs, is perfect, and is lovely. Sadly, you must never know I am in love with you, and no one can. To be completely honest, I have had dreams about you so many times and I love them~. Dylan this is what I think of you summed up from my heart: I love you to the moon and back, even knowing you don’t even know I exist. If I could, I would love you, but I can’t. I’m trapped, forced to not be with you. I guess I should’ve just tried to break free, but I can’t, I am just a hollow shell. I can’t even put into words how I feel about you, but I can keep trying to. You are just utter perfection and I love everything about you. Sometimes I will just be sitting there and I think of you and laugh to myself. I stare at you as much as I can (I know, I am a creep) and when you look at me I just look down. I can’t have you know that I am staring at you lol. We’ve talked like, once lol. I worked up all my courage and texted you, it felt amazing. I was so nervous that you wouldn’t know who I was xD. When I’m around you I feel like a different person! My palms get sweaty, my heart thumps, and I just instantly am in a good mood. Dylan I am in love with you, I have been since the beginning of fifth grade and I am sadly in fear that one day you’ll forget me and move on, but I won’t be able too. Your lights up my world like nothing else can, and I can’t help but perk up and smile too. I fall asleep each night thinking about you, you are the reason I can even get up and go to school. The day you and Caitlyn began dating, I was crushed. I laid down at home and cried. All my dreams and hopes had been crushed. You were straight and I could never be with you. When you guys broke up, I admit, I was happy a little bit, it restored some hope that maybe, just maybe you were just through a phase. The fact that you haven’t liked a girl in two months is a good sign to me lol. Mainly though Dylan, what I want for you is to be happy, even if it isn’t with me. One day it will come that I will just flat out ask you if you are gay and I will just wait for my heart to be shattered into a billion pieces. The odds of us going on in the future, you being gay, us staying near each other, and us getting married is about as slim as a piece of paper, but I can always hope can’t I? You are what I think about all day, what I think about before I go to sleep, and what I think about as I wake up. Most mornings I just get up and dressed just so that I can go and see you. You’ll never notice me though. Only one person knows that I am bisexual, I couldn’t tell them I was gay, I wasn’t ready. Rylan or Dyan. Either one is fine with me. Well, Dylan, I am gonna stop writing now, I am on the verge of tears, so I will just end this now.
With Lots Of Love, Ryan~
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And now I am still thinking about you. I just finished reading a really good fanfiction and I SO wish it was us man. It was basically just these two guys who clash together by accident, one being the quiet one and the other being very popular. They end up falling in love and stay in love. The one is a virgin and they **** and yeah that's not important really, but I do love smut every now and then. Anyways, I wish you were mine, but no. You're Jordan's, not mine >.> The worst part is... Jordan and I are such good friends but I just hate her. Dylan, you'll never understand how much I love you. I tryed my best to put into words and I still have so much I can say. I could just go on for hours and hours and hours about how flawless you are. Your smile, your personality, your eyes, your hair, your laugh, EVERYTHING about you! I mean I can always have a sliver of hope, right? I get really sad sometimes and ugh. Seeing you in Mandarin is tortureeee. I try not to stare but I am so captivated I just can't help it. I just want to get out of my seat, walk over to you, pick you up and tell you I love you, then leave that ****ty class. I honestly hope you don't notice that I am staring at you because that is major awkward. Imagine, if all this time, Dylan is a user on here and reads all of this hahaha. Oh well, if you ever see this Dylan... I love you. That is the simplest way I can put it. I genuinly believe in love at first sight and this actually happened. I'm 100% sure you are my first love Dylan. I'll only have sweet dreams about you I guess.

If you plan on getting Pokémon X or Y or you aren't far into it, please refrain frpm reading this unless you can take some spoils.

Huh. I guess cooked fish isn't so bad.

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Annnd now two of them are following and reblogging from me. im going to die
I'm so happy and scared ;~;

how do i say hello

There is no you better than me and me better than you, we're all people here, so stop talking me off before I start chewing on your head...A slow...emotionally painful way, oh "King".

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There are things I don't need and things I do, I don't need to be dealing with you (No one on here) bad people, going to take it better then you, I'm just going to go.

Rallen
Rallen
Why must you sound exactly like teenage Ben Tennyson.

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Rallen
Rallen
Why must you sound exactly like teenage Ben Tennyson.

Do you mean Rallen from this Spectrobes?

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Rallen
Rallen
Why must you sound exactly like teenage Ben Tennyson.

Do you mean Rallen from this Spectrobes?

Yep, it's so hard to un-see Ben once you realise it's the same voice Q_Q

Ah, yeah, Yuri Lowenthal...Since I've played Persona 4 a lot and watched a lot of Code Geass, I always see him as Suzaku Kururugi from or Yosuke Hanamura but whenever I think of him voicing Ben, I go like "Oh yeah, I forgot he voiced him" and sometimes laugh a bit. xD

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School somehow is fun wen you are the only one...

Haha! It's snowing too hard right now! I appreciate winter weather and its enigmatic weather so much. Walking to school in it will suck though. :I kh86kbfr7yç

Oh. That was unusual of me. Um...sorry. Really, that...why did I post that?

I'm home, and my rabbit got kids

and dad coulnd't tell me?


now I have to take care of 6 bunnies......

Thank you God! Sis, you're gonna be alright, the test results were negative. I love you Sis. ^.^

omg I'm so freaking happy right now, my stress level just dropped tremendously. Now I can handle the stress of my job. I'm still gonna look for another job, but right now, I'm going to enjoy my life. ^.^

That moment when you really want to slap the person who hurt your best friend.

What exactly do you want with me?
You told me that you had something planned for me but then said that I'm not going to understand yet. What the heck? I didn't realize we were in a movie. >.>
Hmm. You know how much I deceive, right?

(Watching One Piece)

Kaku is so cute, I was so sad when he turned out to be evil. T.T

Waaaaah snow

Quote: Spyrobaro

Quote: CommanderGame

Waaaaah snow

I'll gladly take it if you don't want it!

TAKE IT
ALL OF IT
PLEASE
JUST TAKE IT ALL

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Damn, this chicken is so delicious. If you made this dish again, I wouldn't say no to it.

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Quote: CommanderGame

TAKE IT
ALL OF IT
PLEASE
JUST TAKE IT ALL

OH PLEASE GIVE IT TO ME, YES! I'VE BEEN MEANING TO WEAR MY PJS INSIDE OUT BUT I DIDN'T LAST NIGHT AND I THINK THAT'S WHAT CAUSED THE SNOW TO NOT STICK but at the same time it somehow triggered the christmas spirit in my house

*~CG's Snow Pack~*
INCLUDES!:
A ****ing lot of snow.
4 Shovels
Mittens
A coat
a scarf
a hat
boots
And a 25$ Tim Horton's Gift Card so you can buy hot chocolate after shovelling the snow 3 times a day

Haha. I'm such a freak. Haha.

NO.

You may not mean to act this way, but it's the feeling I get from you sometimes. And it angers me to no end. Your screams of 'Accept everyone!!' seem to lose their value when you turn around and basically say 'Your feelings don't matter'.

I'm human, too, you know. But all it takes is one step and you trample me.

One of these days I'm going to want to bite back.

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That dream was like a terrible horror movie. But for some reason it scared me. Well, while I was dreaming, anyway. Now I just don't care.

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Sometimes I feel nervous talking to other girls, if they happen to know I'm homoromantic. Sure, I'm asexual, but... I still wonder if they worry I take any interest in them, be it in a simple 'I love you' way or a (please no) sexual way. I don't want to make them uncomfortable just by my mere presence.

It's even more troubling since I have no idea how to talk to a girl I happen to love. While there isn't anyone in my life that I love right now, I'm still afraid to think about it. I feel like I'll ruin it somehow, that I won't be able to speak to her about it, or she'll misunderstand, or...she'll just stop talking to me altogether.

Maybe it's for the best. I probably wouldn't be a good partner, anyway. And I've got other things to worry about. I just turned 18, I shouldn't be concerning myself with this right now.

That moment where you could lie to someones friends, making them turn on them and hating them is okay. Even after they've helped you countless times, believed the suicide threats and told you meaningful things and told you that you were a beautiful person. But when you make a character to remind yourself to not let that happen again, you are suddenly an asshole.

Incredible.

I almost puked today. Urg, so much ****ing stress.

Of course. The goal of everyone is to one-up me. e_____e

I burned 50 calories today :D
Hey, that's an achievement for me.

I see....

Ya, my friend forced me to work out with him.
Then he was like "feel my muscle"
And In my head I was like "Ya...um, not a good idea"

if you think thats depressing I have an explanation

How do I tell my friends? They all think she's my friend. She's their friend. But I hate her. I hate her more than anything. Wonder why I'm feeling angry all the time recently? It's because of her. But I know if I tell my friends, she'll know. And she'll ruin my school life even more.

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"If anyone would have a brain, they'd spend their whole life howling in pain. 'Cause the dark is everywhere and she doesn't seem to care that soon the dark in me is all that will remain. Listen close to everybody's heart, and hear that breaking sound. Hopes and dreams are shattering apart, and crashing to the ground. I cannot believe my eyes, how the world's filled with filth and lies. But it's plain to see, evil inside of me, is on the rise..."

This is a breakthrough! Just in time, too! The trimester's last day is tomorrow, and I have several final exams for the trimester.

*cackles evilly*

SUCCESS IS MINE. >:D

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This is a breakthrough! Just in time, too! The trimester's last day is tomorrow, and I have several final exams for the trimester.

*cackles evilly*

SUCCESS IS MINE. >

What is a trimester?

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Quote: HotDogAndZap

This is a breakthrough! Just in time, too! The trimester's last day is tomorrow, and I have several final exams for the trimester.

*cackles evilly*

SUCCESS IS MINE. >:D

What is a trimester?

At my school, the year is divided into three sections call trimesters. Each one is a third of the school year. After every trimester, our schedules change and we attend slightly different classes at harder levels.

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Quote: Bash28

Quote: HotDogAndZap

This is a breakthrough! Just in time, too! The trimester's last day is tomorrow, and I have several final exams for the trimester.

*cackles evilly*

SUCCESS IS MINE. >

What is a trimester?

At my school, the year is divided into three sections call trimesters. Each one is a third of the school year. After every trimester, our schedules change and we attend slightly different classes at harder levels.

That. Is. Weird.

Yeah. We don't do that

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Quote: Bash28

What is a trimester?

At my school, the year is divided into three sections call trimesters. Each one is a third of the school year. After every trimester, our schedules change and we attend slightly different classes at harder levels.

That. Is. Weird.

Yeah. We don't do that

It keeps things interesting.
Though learning new schedules is always a pain. :I

This is all going terrible.

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Done fairly early with my homework! Now I'm free for a bit instead of scurrying to bed after finishing!

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Quote: HotDogAndZap

This is a breakthrough! Just in time, too! The trimester's last day is tomorrow, and I have several final exams for the trimester.

*cackles evilly*

SUCCESS IS MINE. >

What is a trimester?

At my school, the year is divided into three sections call trimesters. Each one is a third of the school year. After every trimester, our schedules change and we attend slightly different classes at harder levels.

oh hey, we did the same thing in my high school. Some classes occupied multiple trimesters, like Math, Science, History, & English/Foriegn Language were always in 2 trimesters each, in theory it was possible to take the second half of those classes before the first half. Every 12 weeks (give or take), new schedule, new teachers, new classes.

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Someone please post in the Survivor topic. DX I need to start the next day and don't want to double post.

why do i feel as if this song is speaking to me

Then again most of this band's songs tend to do that with me. Guess that's why they're my favorite band.

But still, this one...seems more special somehow...? It has something none of the others did, but I can't quite place it. All I know is I almost cried listening to it, which is bizarre because I rarely cry when listening to music.

what is with this song

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oh my god you're just too amazing pfff

i love you like a brother

never change

never change

You sir, are too stupid to insult...

In the end, I'll probably just be forgotten, probably won't be remembered, probably won't have accomplished anything important...

Such a small hope I have of the maybe that I'll change someone, maybe I'll be remembered, maybe I'll be significant for who I am...

Most of it is though, my feelings of I'll change someone, I'll make a big and wonderful change in someone's life, then become a nobody to them, a forgotten person who was kind enough to try and take a pain away and make them happier...Then not even know my name, just a face that helped.

Maybe it will be better that way, maybe it would make the best ending, as long as others are happy, then I'll be content.

I don't know why I feel this way, I most likely still have a long life ahead of me, but I just have this feeling that it will happen.

I wonder when I'll be able to make an impression, a significant change to someone, wonder if I'll be a help to anyone, I hope the change I bring is good, I'd hate it if I caused pain, I want to be the one that receives it, that takes it away, not the one that gives it.

I wonder...If this is the feeling of insignificance? I'm not sure, I just want to help someone though, make a big change in someone's life, I wonder when that day will come...

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This is a breakthrough! Just in time, too! The trimester's last day is tomorrow, and I have several final exams for the trimester.

*cackles evilly*

SUCCESS IS MINE. >

What is a trimester?

At my school, the year is divided into three sections call trimesters. Each one is a third of the school year. After every trimester, our schedules change and we attend slightly different classes at harder levels.

Oh yeah, we have those!

Except 4 times a year... *twitches*