It's hard for me.
I see you there, with my so-called 'friends'. I laugh with you and everyone else, even though the jokes are about me. But that's what just what you do. That's what makes you YOU. And I don't like it. But I can't stop liking you. I don't know why I like you, but I just do.
I always feel sad, when I see you either comforting, sitting next to, joking, or hugging one of my so-called 'friends' when I am right there near you. You like them more than me. You find me annoying most of the time. I know that. But that's the hardest thing. Seeing you happy with the others. And the other thing that is hard, is that I know you don't like me the way I like you.
And with my so-called 'friends', you act like you don't care much about me. You treat me as fragile and weak, and I may be, but with you saying it, it still hurts.
It feels like all my true friends are on the internet. You know what, they are. All my true friends, the people who care about me, are on the internet. In different countries. As soon as I'm outta school, I am probably going to leave, and stay with the people who actually care about me.
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Getting that off my mind and typing it out makes me feel a little better.
darkSpyro - Spyro and Skylanders Forum > Stuff and Nonsense > Personal Thoughts
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#10301 Posted: 08:34:01 25/08/2013
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sonicbrawler182 Platinum Sparx Gems: 7105 |
#10302 Posted: 12:01:00 25/08/2013
Whoa, I haven't posted angst here in a while.
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HotDogAndZap Emerald Sparx Gems: 3531 |
#10303 Posted: 14:56:30 25/08/2013
God, I overslept. >.<
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VespiDragon8 Platinum Sparx Gems: 6823 |
#10304 Posted: 16:12:55 25/08/2013
There is always time for everything. Although, for me it sounds hard to believe.
The work, other ways to study (different from the university), family duties, unexpected hard problems (complicated and are not pleasant to one), meeting with relatives, and why me, or oneself is not entitled to his / her own time and stuff? It is very unfair. |
Jaggedstar Diamond Sparx Gems: 8018 |
#10305 Posted: 18:37:51 25/08/2013
Your words are probably going to affect me my whole life. I know you don't care, but I do. I swear to God, if you EVER dare show your ugly face around me again, I will punch you so hard you'll never be able to speak again. I don't give a damn what they say about not hating one another. You're a lowlife piece of ****, you know that? And this isn't the first PT I've posted about you. That's how angry and upset you made me. Yeah, we've moved schools now. No, Im not letting you get away for the four yeas of misery you gave me. You're lucky I have supportive, caring friends that stopped me from slapping you that day. Not stupid, brainless makeup freaks like yours.
Oh, PS, you still make me cry. Thanks. On a happier note Every time you message me, my heart literally spazzes out |
HotDogAndZap Emerald Sparx Gems: 3531 |
#10306 Posted: 19:15:51 25/08/2013
I really hoped that the nightmare I had a few days ago wouldn't continue, but it did. That dream was scarring. ;_______; I don't wanna live in the Fire Nation.
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TorchSheep Emerald Sparx Gems: 3376 |
#10307 Posted: 19:18:21 25/08/2013
Quote: HotDogAndZap
I heard the words 'Fire Nation', what's going on? ._.
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HotDogAndZap Emerald Sparx Gems: 3531 |
#10308 Posted: 19:21:04 25/08/2013
Quote: TorchSheep
I had a nightmare where I lived in the Fire Nation. ;___________; |
TorchSheep Emerald Sparx Gems: 3376 |
#10309 Posted: 19:22:06 25/08/2013
Quote: HotDogAndZap
:0 What happened?
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"I have my own system, don't get involved" |
HotDogAndZap Emerald Sparx Gems: 3531 |
#10310 Posted: 19:28:05 25/08/2013
Quote: TorchSheep
I was on one of those boat things and I blew up. ;_____; |
TorchSheep Emerald Sparx Gems: 3376 |
#10311 Posted: 19:31:15 25/08/2013
Quote: HotDogAndZap
Ouch ;__; The Avatar has failed us!
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weebbby Emerald Sparx Gems: 4220 |
#10312 Posted: 23:44:41 25/08/2013
Next time that happens, I'll be unresponsive, so I don't lie nor hurt anyone's feelings.
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HotDogAndZap Emerald Sparx Gems: 3531 |
#10313 Posted: 23:45:22 25/08/2013
I sense a lot of suffering in the near future.
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CommanderGame Emerald Sparx Gems: 3610 |
#10314 Posted: 00:26:57 26/08/2013
Dayum this is slow as ****.
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weebbby Emerald Sparx Gems: 4220 |
#10315 Posted: 00:36:36 26/08/2013
Quote: weebbby
Because if I respond in either way, I'll be both lying and hurting someone's feelings. If I'm unresponsive, I won't be lying, but I might be hurting 1 person's feelings... :/ |
HotDogAndZap Emerald Sparx Gems: 3531 |
#10316 Posted: 01:11:13 26/08/2013
I really can't stand you. Not at all. Some days I just want to drive a screwdriver through your skull. >.>
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HotDogAndZap Emerald Sparx Gems: 3531 |
#10317 Posted: 01:38:44 26/08/2013
Yes yes yes! We get out of school 2 hours early tomorrow! Err... Because of a heat advisory.... But... It's still good I guess.
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CommanderGame Emerald Sparx Gems: 3610 |
#10318 Posted: 01:38:50 26/08/2013
Regular Show, thank you for curing me!
YOU'VE CURED ME FROM BOREDOM! |
Trix Master 100 Diamond Sparx Gems: 8213 |
#10319 Posted: 01:46:19 26/08/2013
I don't want to go to school tomorrow
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If you cannot handle me at my pumpkin spiciest, you do not deserve me at my pumpkin sweetest icon from Empoh |
Darby Platinum Sparx Gems: 5738 |
#10320 Posted: 03:08:26 26/08/2013 | Topic Creator
seeing friends move away and talk about college and life and marriage makes me realize how fast life is going and it makes me sad ):
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Trix Master 100 Diamond Sparx Gems: 8213 |
#10321 Posted: 03:29:11 26/08/2013
****ing dick, PLEASE ****ING QUIT IT! I TELL YOU ****ING MULTIPLE TIMES TO SHUT THE **** UP! GOD DAMMIT! Do you know how long I've been trying not say "God" and "dammit" in that phrase!?! IT TAKES A LOT OF PATIENCE LOSS TO GET ME TO SAY IT! You actually make me want to pack my **** and sneak out to the orphanage.
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If you cannot handle me at my pumpkin spiciest, you do not deserve me at my pumpkin sweetest icon from Empoh |
JakeJones Blue Sparx Gems: 533 |
#10322 Posted: 04:21:35 26/08/2013
Damn this sucks ass
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crystalhero37 Platinum Sparx Gems: 5536 |
#10323 Posted: 07:29:44 26/08/2013
Crap... people actually care about me still?
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#10324 Posted: 07:44:04 26/08/2013
Quote: SPARXisAWESOME
Yes, agreed. Of course we do! |
Wild Platinum Sparx Gems: 5045 |
#10325 Posted: 08:11:45 26/08/2013
it's real difficult
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Spyro Fanatic Hunter Gems: 12284 |
#10326 Posted: 09:10:21 26/08/2013
I have a test tomorrow, but I'm so lethargic and I'm not able to concentrate. My heart is worrying me. It sometimes pushes so hard at unexplainable times that it skips a beat and I'm on the verge of passing out when I sit down. Lying down doesn't help, I suddenly feel like there's a heavy blanket covering my body and chest, lifting my legs into the air whilst lying down makes my heart beat heavier. I'd love to go to the doctor as soon as possible.
What's worse is when I explain what I'm feeling to my parents and they tell me to shut up and stop being a hypercondriac. I don't become ill often, my last cold was three years ago and it only lasted for a day. |
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crystalhero37 Platinum Sparx Gems: 5536 |
#10327 Posted: 11:04:43 26/08/2013
_________ Do you still love your sister? She's confused, very confused.. Is she even your sister anymore? ~~ I have 'grown up' a bit, and I'm not acting like an asshole (well I hope not) like you. WOAH, THERE'S ANOTHER WAY!!!??!! |
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sonicbrawler182 Platinum Sparx Gems: 7105 |
#10328 Posted: 13:05:14 26/08/2013
While most people thought I was annoyed during that long conversation, and you thought I was bored, I was neither.
I was just deeply sad. Because I'm incapable of taking your advice. I really want to, but I can't. I will most likely not be socialising in college. I don't trust people anymore. The one friend I have left, whom I would trust with my life, is not someone I will be able to see that much anymore. Two other people who I trusted and cared for dearly completely through me in the gutter, and turned into horrible people. It seems I'm not enough for anyone. So I just wanna focus on being enough for myself, and enough for my line of education and work, so I don't ever feel seriously suicidal again. Sorry for being a disappointment, Grandad.
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LevanJess Emerald Sparx Gems: 3516 |
#10329 Posted: 20:54:31 26/08/2013
Oh no you won't you little *****, you have no choice in the matter. It's not "one good pic or two crappy ones," it's "two good ones." That's what you owe me, and if you're too damn lazy to do it, WHY DID YOU RIP THEM IN THE FIRST PLACE? You said you could do better, so am I wrong to assume you would've given me two better ones LIKE YOU PROMISED? No I'm not, actually.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- So two of my friends are getting bullied by their team leader in football, they tell you, and you just shrug it off? You even TEASE them for it? "Oh, I guess we should stop playing football and play ring-around-the-rosie then huh?" They are being teased by all of the team leaders, being called "worthless," because they don't know how to play football (they're not very athletic girls, so how the hell would you expect them to know how to play football?). They're trying, but the team leader is an enormous douchebag and won't even teach them! Yet that is what you have to say about it. I wonder where my respect for you wen- Oh, I see it... It seems to have flown out of the window and gotten hit by a ****ING SUV ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I haven't really talked to you in forever, it was nice to get the chance to today! Thanks for hanging around me during that trip, it was great!
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HotDogAndZap Emerald Sparx Gems: 3531 |
#10330 Posted: 22:07:58 26/08/2013
I realized today how much I've changed. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not...
~~~~~ This heat. IT'S KILLING MEH. D: My body is adapted to endure severe cold weather and ice storms, not the Sahara desert! D: GO DIE SOMEWHERE GLOBAL WARMING! >.< ~~~~~ So much homework. I don't even have the time to get on here anymore. I've been working for 5 hours straight. I'm on here just to post my stupid thoughts while I should be studying for my French test.... ~~~~~ Does anyone even care about me anymore? I just seem invisible to everyone. As if they could walk right through me.... Sometimes I feel as if they could if they tried. ~~~~~ This twisting in my gut. If I don't pass this I'll have an F in the gradebook! I'm an A/B+ student! An F will be the end of me. X.X ~~~~~ Sometimes I feel as if nobody cares. Like they think I don't have feelings or something. I've considered running away twice in my life. I don't want to start thinking about it again. ~~~~~ Ouch. That hurt. Way to turn on me, "friend". ~~~~~ You're one of many things that always makes me smile. No matter what you do, you'll always make me happy. :) ~~~~~ OHMYGAWSHYOUREBACK. :DDDDDD ~~~~~ I miss you... But I bet you don't even remember me anymore. ~~~~~ How much I'd give to be invisible for a day... |
Knight Wolf Emerald Sparx Gems: 4336 |
#10331 Posted: 22:14:42 26/08/2013
Just cause i'm gone no reason to not get my gems.
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Trix Master 100 Diamond Sparx Gems: 8213 |
#10332 Posted: 22:17:53 26/08/2013
I forgotten how nice everyone else is to me in class. Maybe hoping to change schools is not the brightest idea.
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If you cannot handle me at my pumpkin spiciest, you do not deserve me at my pumpkin sweetest icon from Empoh |
somePerson Diamond Sparx Gems: 8849 |
#10333 Posted: 22:39:01 26/08/2013
Nobody remembers me except my friends.
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crystalhero37 Platinum Sparx Gems: 5536 |
#10334 Posted: 22:40:16 26/08/2013
*Wakes brother up without making him pissed off*
~~~ I really wish I was male. ~~~ Dude, one day karma will strike back at you for the pain you've caused me. One day... and I sure hope you realise what you've done. I want you to learn your lesson and not get away with this. I miss being free, I could say things on here and not give a **** about what people think. Now I fear to hurt someone with most of my thoughts. BUt they hurt me with theirs. I just can't hurt people back, I HATE hurting people on purpose or not. No matter what they've done to me. (Some of that is IRL by the way..) ~~~ And once again I bomb this topic with gifs, videos, edits, winging and rants. Gah. |
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Cynderluv8801 Emerald Sparx Gems: 3305 |
#10335 Posted: 00:16:06 27/08/2013
Those days when you feel like you just don't belong.
*sigh* depression why do you come now D:
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DragonCamo Platinum Sparx Gems: 6692 |
#10336 Posted: 00:46:49 27/08/2013
The scary thing about dating is that you are either going to break up, or marry that person...
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Darby Platinum Sparx Gems: 5738 |
#10337 Posted: 01:48:25 27/08/2013 | Topic Creator
You brought around the lowest point of my life but in turn also the highest point of my life so basically thank you for hurting me!!
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HotDogAndZap Emerald Sparx Gems: 3531 |
#10338 Posted: 01:49:50 27/08/2013
The title of this topic should just be changed to "Personal Thoughts". I find the "5" unneeded.
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wspyro Emerald Sparx Gems: 4422 |
#10339 Posted: 01:53:20 27/08/2013
Quote: HotDogAndZap
I would love to see this come true! ;A; |
Darby Platinum Sparx Gems: 5738 |
#10340 Posted: 01:56:23 27/08/2013 | Topic Creator
and so darby worked her mighty magic
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parisruelz12 Diamond Sparx Gems: 7577 |
#10341 Posted: 01:57:39 27/08/2013
@Crystalhero-Your GIF made my day. X3
BLLAAAHH. My mussels feel like noodles.
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wspyro Emerald Sparx Gems: 4422 |
#10342 Posted: 01:58:30 27/08/2013
thank ya, darby!
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