darkSpyro

I wonder if anyone understands me in certain situations. I know I'm speaking english but, are you guys speaking or reading the same language as I said to you?

Is it?

Is it really?

Then...why does this hurt, then?

Is it "all in my head" again?

Quote: Trix Master 100

I wonder if anyone understands me in certain situations. I know I'm speaking english but, are you guys speaking or reading the same language as I said to you?

I understand you. I know of all people it sort of makes sense for me to understand you, so my opinion isn't exactly what you're looking for, but, still. I understand you perfectly.

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Thought so...

You guys, this fight is ridiculous. You're all mad at each other for literally nothing and it's making me feel bad that I'm the reason you're all fighting. None of you did anything wrong to each other and I certainly didn't do anything wrong to you. I just had to EXIST and you guys are suddenly fighting over who gets me. You're all letting your lust and jealousy take over you and quite frankly, I don't understand why you're fighting over ME of all people. There's MUCH more attractive girls out there than me. I just look meh... I appreciate that you guys think I'm cute, but I DON'T appreciate that you're all fighting over me because of my looks. It's like you're fighting over a toy. Jeez... I seriously do nothing wrong at all and people are already falling apart in drama that I caused for doing nothing but live.

You... I know we had a long, strong friendship. You were my first friend I met in middle school and we even had a great relationship. But you DID still cheat on me. I confess that lying about you for revenge was not the right thing to do, either. We both did wrong, and we both apologized and moved on. It's safe to say we're friends again, but that doesn't mean we can continue to date. I'm sorry your previous girlfriend was such a jerk to you. You deserve better. But I've already moved on to someone else. You said you were happy for us because we're both your best friend, so please try to live up for your words instead of being desperate and jealous. We can ALL be friends. That's what I want. We're going to see this movie together tomorrow and I want us all to have a fun time. No arguing, no awkwardness, no jealousy. Just laughs, smiles, and joy.

Now YOU.... You flirt. You keep trying to win my heart over with all this flirting and romance. I'm sure you're a really great guy. You seem to have a good sense of humor, we have a couple of things in common, and you're just in general a social butterfly. But this flirting, ESPECIALLY when you're aware that I'm already in a relationship, REALLY needs to stop. I can being called a cutie, but writing my name all over your car with hearts and "xoxo" is just not tolerable. These love songs are making me feel uncomfortable and it's making these other two guys uncomfortable as well.

I'm seriously stressed out about this! I'm already dating one of you and you know how to really treat me right. You know how to be protective and you know how to be respectful. You never swear around me, you keep perverted comments to yourself, and you admire my dreams. But I'd like it if you'd stop feeling jealous when I talk about other boys... I have female friends AND male friends, and it doesn't mean I'm dating other people. As for you two, you REALLY need to stop pushing him around, feeling jealous, and ESPECIALLY stop the flirting.

I may sound rude when I say all this, but honestly! It's silly that you're fighting over me. There's NOTHING special about me at all. I personally think I look like crap, my art skills are not that good at all, I suck at singing, and my voice is weird. You're like girls fighting over a Barbie doll. This is RIDICULOUS and really needs to stop. I refuse to live in a real life soap opera. The thought of boys lusting and fighting over me JUST for my looks is seriously making me feel like a slut and it's an icky feeling...

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On a happier note, I'm SUPER glad you can actually make it up here this summer! I was worried things weren't gonna work out, but now I can rest about that. Gosh, the memories I've had with you and our other good friend... We've always had soo much fun together. Let's relive those memories and make this one of your best summers ever! I'm SOOO sorry everyone in your current town are such jerks to you and your sister. D: It must not be very fun at all. You all deserve a break and so do I, with this silly fight going on... Let's all give each other a hand and have a great summer together. :3 Our other best friend is still living up here and she's super excited as well. The four of us can all live those happy memories again as well as make new ones to carry with us for the rest of our travels. Gosh, there's so much I want to do with you... I gotta pace myself. ^ ^;;

I'm sorry then. At least I know, now, what you think. I'll just continue to hide behind the wall.

Quote: Gem-A-Knight

Quote: Trix Master 100

I wonder if anyone understands me in certain situations. I know I'm speaking english but, are you guys speaking or reading the same language as I said to you?

I understand you. I know of all people it sort of makes sense for me to understand you, so my opinion isn't exactly what you're looking for, but, still. I understand you perfectly.

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Thought so...

Thanks Gem.

Quote: Trix Master 100

Quote: Gem-A-Knight

Quote: Trix Master 100

I wonder if anyone understands me in certain situations. I know I'm speaking english but, are you guys speaking or reading the same language as I said to you?

I understand you. I know of all people it sort of makes sense for me to understand you, so my opinion isn't exactly what you're looking for, but, still. I understand you perfectly.

Thanks Gem.

You're welcome.

It seems I created such an immense mental blockade of this one thing that it will take such sheer force and willpower for me to actually do this relatively simple thing. It's not even something that should be difficult for me, even, but over time it has just twisted and built up into a large thick mess of emotions triggered by even going near the thought...

Well I guess I made the 5th least favorite topic to talk about.

1. Religion
2. War
3. Politics
4. Race
5. OC and FC logic.

Quote: SPARXisAWESOME

I feel like the biggest idiot..

noooooo!!!!!!!!!!!! You are NOT an idiot!! *hugs*

The forest is on fire but we're gonna let it burn.
We're controlling it.
We've got it handled.
Thanks for your concern!

(I am so late buut..)
JaggedStar! Stahp feeling bad, if you're down or if there's something wrong you can tell me and I'll try my best to cheer you up!! I want to help you when you need it, you were so helpful to me when I was down, I MUST help!!! >:c
SPARXisAWESOME, in no way are you an idiot. AT ALL. How could you say that? You are awesome >:ccc


>:CCC

:'c *Hugs*
If you need anything, you can always tell your friends c:

How did I not find you earlier

You shall be mine!

DC Universe Online :3

Sorry you're having such a hard time. D: I'm always here when you need someone to talk to... Actually, to make it up for you, I'm gonna be working on a little gift for you. :3 Sorry it'll take so long, though... I've got SOOO much going on this summer. I'll try to get it done by August, though. :3 It's a project I'll need some help with and my mom is super busy with planning out a wedding and directing summer theater shows, so she won't be able to help for a little while yet. But I do promise that I'll get done with it eventually and hopefully it'll help keep your spirits up. ^ ^ I've never done this for a friend before so I hope you'll like it when it's ready. c: For now though, I'll just send you a letter of encouragement and let you know that everything is gonna be fine. Don't listen to the jerks who hate on your characters and the other jerks who just put you down in general. You're beautiful, creative, and your characters are all adorable. You're not stupid at all and you're DEFINITELY not a jerk. You're still one of my best friends, despite how we've never really met in reality, and I hope these bad thoughts wear off soon.

I swear, my life has too many twists and turns.

One minute, my parents are nice,

The other, they're screaming their heads off.

I fins it funny when people are like "Did you just cuss?" "I've never heard Damian cuss" well thats because your not worth it.

You make my life 50% worse. With the other 49% of stuff going on at home, only one tiny bit of me is happy. And that bit is slowly dying away. With your criticism, and your "I'm soooo much prettier than everyone else!" and "I should be the prom queen," it makes it a helluva lot worse. For starters, you're uglier than a pig rolled in crap. Second, we're not in ****ing America! There is no Prom Queen! God, you make me mad! You even said I'm not allowed to laugh. D'ya know what? I SKIVED SCHOOL BECAUSE OF YOU, YOU POMPOUS, STUCK-UP, BLABBERMOUTH, UGLY *****! GO TO HELL!

I ****ing hate you. I have never hated anyone as much as I hate you. I hope you suffer in the future as you are making me suffer now.

You're really changing, in a good way of course. I still question things though, those questions will be answered soon enough. I swear to god if I find out the real truth, someone will be getting their ass kicked by yours truly. Of course I say this out of pure luv. lol

More goodbyes. Yaaaay. Seriously, I'm done getting attached to people. What's the point when they're just going to leave? I thought I could stop people from leaving my life...Yeah, that worked out well. Now I feel lonely and abandoned by people I had complete trust in who I haven't seen in a year and may never see again. What's the point in trusting someone when in the end they'll leave (abandon?) you and eventually forget you? Amazing how one person doing or not doing something can completely change things. I know I may be overthinking things again, but I can't help it.

And "life's about moving forward?" Yeah, I think I've moved forward quite a bit, considering the circumstances. I haven't had a choice. Still, I'd like to think "moving forward" doesn't mean this endless cycle of trusting someone, saying goodbye to them, and never seeing them again or even hearing from them. If that's the case, maybe I'm better off staying by myself forever with the exception of my family and the few real friends in this world I have that I can't leave now because I'm already attached to them.

Life's too complicated. Anyway, looks like I'm temporarily saying goodbye to this place too. Only, besides a few people, this doesn't affect me as much. This is just something I need to do, possibly for my own sanity and safety.

Goodbye, I guess. Hopefully I'll survive to see my sophomore year.

Well it's nice to see users that I barely know care about other users. I wonder why my apology wasn't accepted by the people I meant it for, maybe they are not on during this time. Or they did read it, just haven't bothered to give a darn...Hopefully it's not that.

97% In math!

YAaaaaYY!

don't cry

I think you might think I'm dumber than I really am. I also think you can't really tell when I'm serious and when I'm joking (when I try to make it obvious), which is kinda sad because I joke around a lot (you know, so I have something to say).

You're nice, but it seems like talking to you now is a chore, kind of. I don't really enjoy the games you ask me to play, either, since they're not my thing and they're the kind of games where if you suck then others point it out and are just pricks to you. Not that I care anymore, just a bit of a burden.

Still, I enjoy talking to you (for a little bit). I just wish you didn't seem to think I was an idiot.

*****, if you are gonna come to my stand and try to order somethin', get the **** off your **** phone. If you do insist on talking on the phone while trying to order from me, how dare you give me an attitude, like I'm being rude for interrupting your call! I'm just trying to make sure I got the order right and say the things I am required to say.

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YES!! I passed the health inspection. I thought I was gonna have a heart attack when the inspector walked in.

Hey, whoever you are!
Try to do yourself a favour today.

You really have me worried. I'm not exactly sure what I think about you, for the moment. I know the event just occurred...but I have this gut feeling that...you don't exactly care about me the same way I care about you. I came to realize this and...well...am a little sad now. Maybe it's just me. But I feel like the beginning was when you actually cared about me. Until you realized you could use me to help cheer yourself up. It seems like that's the only reason I'm still with you now. Not for love. For cheering up. I may be wrong, but this is just what I'm beginning to think...

All that because I'm not making you laugh or talking "normally". What am I to you now, a goddamn marionette?

(Just before my shift ended)

I'm tired, I'm hungry, and I'm ready to kill everyone....

You two make up, now.

Quote: spyro and sonic

You two make up, now.

We can handle it, don't worry.

I'm going to have to burnt that piece of cardboard. How dare you write "Hunger Games 2" all over it. I hope you step on a Lego. I do not like you any more.

Quote: ThroneOfMalefor

Quote: spyro and sonic

You two make up, now.

We can handle it, don't worry.

Doesn't seem like it right now.>__>

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oh yeah, quit being an ass

Quote: spyro and sonic

Quote: ThroneOfMalefor

Quote: spyro and sonic

You two make up, now.

We can handle it, don't worry.

Doesn't seem like it right now.>__>

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oh yeah, quit being an ass

That last part wasn't towards me was it....?

Quote: Gem-A-Knight

Quote: spyro and sonic

Quote: ThroneOfMalefor

We can handle it, don't worry.

Doesn't seem like it right now.>__>

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oh yeah, quit being an ass

That last part wasn't towards me was it....?

No, not at all.

Okay...

I wish I had one of those...
e.e

.....

*giggling like a teenage school girl*

Dude, just stop I got the point already. I got it ages ago.

I don't care anymore. I don't care about what you do, or how you feel. Because I've moved on. You've changed and you're treating me like I'm a pile of junk. I've got real friends to be with. Pfft I don't even want to think about you anymore.

Ahhh on the bright side, I am free and happy now. I have hardly any worries now.

I don't think I could ever come here again if I end up being right...

Aaaaaaand things fall down again.

My life is a roller coaster.

Well, that was my first real kiss...

I know most people would find the feeling amazing and feel good for the whole week, but why do I feel so dirty about this?

Although on a somewhat related note, I'm glad you two didn't fight this time. I had fun tonight and the movie was enjoyable. Let's do this more often... Just having fun together as friends and not having to fight over silly things.

Sometimes I wonder if that's what you want. You may deny it, but the things you do and say seem to support it. I can't be sure what is truth. Rather odd.

Quote: Seiki

They say the ones who seem the happiest are the ones who are truly dead inside.

The above quote explains me as a person.

Quote: HotDogAndZap

Quote: Seiki

They say the ones who seem the happiest are the ones who are truly dead inside.

The above quote explains me as a person.

*hugs*

It is a sad but true saying. As long as the people it describes are able to find happiness someday, then there is still hope. Hope for the future and hope for mankind as a whole.