darkSpyro

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So desperate for a girlfriend...

Stop it.

Ugh, I wish this wasn't brought up... I'm not part of this anymore, leave me out of it. I like to forget I ever was. I hate being reminded of that life, which is why I stalk any thread with mention of it in fear that someone will mention me and start something.... Sometimes I wonder about my own logic... Seriously, something must be wrong with me right now... I'm about to have an emotional breakdown over THIS?! How the hell did I survive being a hunter for a month, anyway? Maybe I've been thinking too much these past few weeks and my emotions are just crazy... Actually, I'm pretty sure I've been like this all year. And it's not like I can just bury something and think it'll NEVER be brought up... I guess I should be glad it hasn't been brought up much at all. Still, I shouldn't be this touchy about the whole thing.

Oh look! I didn't even realize there was more that I was dragged into without even knowing it! Ugh, maybe I should just... I don't know, go...
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I really wish there wasn't this small part of me blaming you as well as HIM for the suicidal part of me that wants to wake up every time I think of my situations. Seriously, I know none of this is your fault. At the very least, you had no idea any of this was going on. How would you? Still, every time I think about all of this, whether it has to do with you guys or HIM, I feel rejected, lonely, unwanted, and I can't help but feel a bit of anger, no matter how wrong I know it is. That's not like me...is it? I do know that just a few minutes of seeing a post on here and then thinking about this made the self-hate come back. Joy. Maybe I should hate myself. I don't know.

I honestly wonder how people see me.

I am extremely grateful for the life I have.

Quote: CommanderGame

I am extremely grateful for the life I have.

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Quote: spyro and sonic

I honestly wonder how people see me.

I see you as a well-mannered, generous, gentle, and caring person. I would plummet into depression if I lost you... You are an inspirational man.

It's funny really. You text me out of the blue telling me i have a half-sister, 10 WEEKS OLD. Then you ask me to call you and even dare ask me to stay with you. And what now? Ever since that text, you haven't said, texted, or anything else in that matter to me. What a mother.

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Everyone at schools sees me as he crazy, wild, weird, annoying as hell person. They think im care free and freak out to much. They know that im the smartest in the grade, but not common sense wise, and seemingly happy all the time, overly cheerful you could say. How things are different on the inside. I am not care-free nor happy. I'm depressed and tired of the drama. They all know my parents live in different states, but they don't know how i take it because i never show it. I'm tired of my "mother" making false promises and having no interaction with me. I'm tired of all the sit my "step-mother" has put me through. I'm tired of hiding who i am. I'm tired of constantly hearing what i am being used as an insult and others dissing on it. Life is not fair. My above average grades are not worth it. Oh how many times i have drempt and even thought of suicide. Then there is the normal teenage feelings and problems. Supposed "love", hopelessly "in love." sigh, crushes are terrible. Jealousy as well.

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Do you know how much i crave to slit your throat? Or bit it out with my teeth? or to plung a spear through your chest? Oh all the daydreams i've had of killing you and many others. It's quite satisfying actually. It keeps the blood lust at bay.

Woops, didn't see the comment 'till now.

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..... :3

"You're an irreplaceable human soul with your own understanding of what it means to suffer..."

SHUT UP AND TAKE MY MONEY. ;;;A;;;

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I love how you used to hate every being of my existence when I was younger and now suddenly over the past year we became like, best friends. I'm glad you're including me in things and I seriously felt really special when you said you see me as a little sister. Hope I get to see you this Summer!

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People, honestly! I'm not that good at drawing! Why are you trying to push me into opening a commission stand at the fair this year? ;~; I appreciate your compliments and all, but I'm seriously not that good. I don't think people would want to pay for my art. I feel like I'd be ripping them off.

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This video just describes us in a nutshell. xD

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Buddy, if it ain't broke, don't fix it.

"If somewhere in this world there is someone who understands you, it feels like that person is right beside you, even if you’re as far apart as the end of the land and the top of the sky."

I hate how overrated you are. You don't deserve the praise you get anymore.

yay, finally got this game.

I feel happy. I can't let my happy out.

HOW DO I LET MY HAPPY OUT?????

Quote: HotDogAndZap

I feel happy. I can't let my happy out.

HOW DO I LET MY HAPPY OUT?????

WELL FIRST TRY UNPLUGGING AND PLUGGING IT IN AGAIN.

OH AND KEEP YOUR HAPPY IN A BOX SO WHEN YOU FEEL SAD YOU CAN OPEN THE HAPPY BOX AND NOT BE SAD AND BE HAPPY INSTEAD OKAY THAT'S A SOMETHING I DO ALL THE TIME WHICH WHY I'M ALWAYS HAPPY AND SCREW PUNCTUATION

Maybe it's time I stop looking back and instead just look forward.....

It's funny since I know you at least used to treat people the same why.

See how that works?

*violent sneeze* @.@

-violent giving of tissues to HIR-

*violent accepting of said tissues*

Is this what I needed?
e.e

The 18th is so close now....I really wish I didn't have to go through it. I keep getting reassured its not that painful, or even enough to make you wince for that matter. Just a 15 minutes activity...10 of that being a pain relieving process. Then it just pinches a little...they do what they need to and it's done. So simple...yet I remain so terrified. Why did it ever have to happen in the first place...

Would it kill you to be nice... You've just been so rude to me lately.

Oh well, I'll carry on, I don't care. I'll just not do what you do! ^.^

Will you shut the **** up already?!?!? I get that you are trying to make things fun for the people riding the ride you are running, but doing that annoying voice and making the same repetitive noises day after day is getting on my ****ing nerves. I seriously can't hear my customers over you. And I can carry on a decent conversation with them over the screaming of the people riding the ride. If you're louder and more obnoxious than constant screaming, something is wrong here. I swear to God. If you don't shut it, I'm going to go over there and beat the **** out of you.

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Why would you buy a $5 bottle of water when I am offering you a FREE cup of water?

I'm actually very proud of how this came out.

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I've had people say that some of my characters are attractive, but wanting to visit me this summer just so you can propose to my OC and seriously plan a wedding is a bit over the top. She's just a drawing, guys... o3o

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Why do people always like to text me when I'm getting ready for bed?

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Wow, I'm actually pretty proud of myself for that comment. xD I don't think I've ever made anyone laugh that hard before.

Things are finally starting to let up.


I feel good.

I hate people like you. Way to break me.

URGHHH! Why do I have to feel like this?! Why does life have to be so complicated, the one time I get these feelings?! Stupid hormones, stupid puberty, stupid feelings!! Why can't I just ask her out and be done with it?!

*Hugs laptop*
THANK YOU FOR COOPERAtING FOR ONCE.

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Haha, I really need to find the Spongebob movie game again.

Why did you have to ask that? I can't choose. I like them both equally and they're both like my best friend. I just can't bear choosing.

I feel very regretful and terrible. I'm not going to let a douchebag get inbetween us, no way in hell. **** that ****, I got better things to worry about than a prick.

I'll overcome my own emotions and prevent that, because you don't deserve the **** I've been giving you. After all the things you've done for me and that's how I act? Disgusting. You've done some negative things too, but so?

I feel like saying "sorry" isn't quite enough. I'll make it up to you somehow, and it won't happen again.

How did I know this would happen...? I did what I had to do because it was right, but I didn't want this...I guess the whole thing dropped quicker than it started, thanks to me. I'm really sorry.

Why does the **** have to happen to us? You need to be there for your youngest daughter, not just phone in and say you can't get there because there are no taxis or whatever. Wouldn't kill you to actually walk places. Me? I don't give a crap if I don't see you. You're a useless mother. And now we might be....you know. I don't want to leave. It's YOUR FAULT me and my sister are in this situation. Because of you, we'll probably not see our dad for years now. You're a liar and a thief and you make me SICK. **** YOU. You've put our life with the family in jeopardy. Though I wouldn't mind leaving the family here and going to live somewhere else with the only four people I actually like.

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I hate this. I hate acting all happy and cheery. I just don't want to worry my friends, who have been so amazing and helpful through this. I also feel like I'm putting ME first, mememememe, oh give me attention because my life is a piece of crap, boo hoo. That's why I try not to vent; therefore people say I'm a "closed book." Most of the time I'm here, I'm not laughing or smiling a tiny bit.

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August couldn't come any sooner. Hurry up already, I want to leave!

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Come on now. This is getting beyond stupid.

Worst day of my life. I can't stand around waiting for a change to happen, it looks like I'm going to have to make it myself.

Quote: TorchSheep

Worst day of my life. I can't stand around waiting for a change to happen, it looks like I'm going to have to make it myself.

D:

Here, man. Have a toblerone. Hope it gets better for you. *hands toblerone*

Just 1 more then.

And to top it off, im ill. Really ill. Godammit!

:3 You really are what a true friend is supposed to be.

Well, im going to fail the Algebra Regents...

Quote: Sesshomaru75

My snake tried to eat my brother's cat. I don't know what I am going to do with you Cornelius II, you naughty naughty boy.

Your brothers' cat should have done the same thing I did when I saw your snake, and that was *run away*

Quote: Sesshomaru75

My snake tried to eat my brother's cat. I don't know what I am going to do with you Cornelius II, you naughty naughty boy.

Invite Metallo over

I feel like I cheated, this sucks.

Health inspector is coming tomorrow... With all of the pressure management is putting on us, I am honestly scared and want to call in tomorrow.

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Though I have many friends, I just wish I could feel like more than that friend you only hang-out with at school or work. I just wish I could know the true meaning of the term "hanging out with friends". It honestly makes me feel sad and left out to see all of those posts on Facebook from people I call friends having fun at places or at parties, while I sit at home day after day, alone in my room.
Then when I try to invite people to something to celebrate my brithday, MY BIRTHDAY, I'm lucky to get a response and in the end I end up there, alone, waiting for someone who'll never show. I actually plan on working on my birthday simply because it's the only chance I'll have to spend it with someone, even if that someone wouldn't invite to the birthday dinner you had with everyone else in our department. Real nice, calling me a good friend, then making me pretty much the only one left out.