darkSpyro

Quote: Gem-A-Knight

Quote: HotDogAndZap

People treat me like crap IRL and now here.

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Theres not much left in my life to get screwed up.

You can talk to me if you need it.

Same, if you need it, just send me a message.

Quote: HotDogAndZap

People treat me like crap IRL and now here.

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Theres not much left in my life to get screwed up.

There are always other forums if you think this one's too ****ed up. The whole subject will pass in the matter of days.

Thank god that was just a dream.

I woudn't want to get detention in my first day of High School ._.

Want to understand someone?
Make them loose you.

Quote: Pixilism

What's so wrong with liking a specific anime? I'll like whatever ****ing anime I want thanks. It's kind of getting annoying how you two are making assumptions on what I like about the anime, as well.

You're friends are making fun of you for liking a specific anime?
They watch anime as well(I'm guessing), they're not in the position to make fun of others.

Nice to know a certain someone is spreading the word that I'm a bad person, and he wishes he could stick a knife in me. Cool. Now it happens both here and school.

I wonder what you think of me. I wonder if you think im your friend. I wonder if you think im ugly, smart, stupid, awesome, cool, fat, handsome, funny, boring, etc. I wonder if i ever go over board with you... if i ever go to far with my joking around. You already know im gay, yet you still do things that could be awkward with a gay friend.

Saying goodbye isn't easy, especially when you plan on not hearing the person say goodbye (or in this case, reject you) back. I feel more depressed then when I started. But I know it was something I had to do. And hopefully I'm right and I'll feel better in the end. And hopefully this is the first step to recovering, and nothing goes wrong in the meantime... though I'm not even 100% sure what I'm doing or even what I'm talking about. And of course, part of me doesn't WANT to "recover."

I’m ****ing sick of the lies and deception. I lie every time I get on the computer about what I’m doing just so I can get on darkSpyro and talk to my friends. Because if my Mother finds out I’ll never be able to get on the site again. But just keeping it inside is ****ing killing me, it feels like my heart is being ripped to shreds. It’s even making my depression and Schizophrenia worse. I’m so sick of lying I could just throw up.

Oh, so you hate me for being depressed all the time? Please, continue to tell all your friends how much you hate me, that'll make me change my attitude right away!

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Omg you're the best dad ever. Thank you. ;v;

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We haven't talked to each other since you moved to another state. Give me a call! I've missed talking with you and sharing good laughs with you. I've still got that good luck charm you gave me before you moved and I wear it almost everywhere I go, thinking about you every time I wear it. We need to think of some way to get in touch again. I've seriously been lonely since you've moved.

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Don't like my characters? You don't have to look at them. I didn't make them for you.

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I'm sorry I've been so immature lately. I hope you're not too upset with me and I hope we can still watch the movie together this Summer. Just know that I've been working on my troubles and changing my attitude so I shouldn't be such a nuisance anymore.

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And just what did he ever do to you? Why do you hate him so much? He just tried to be friends with you and didn't do anything wrong. You just randomly started hurting him with no exact reason. I thought you were a great friend, but if you're gonna hurt my other friends with no specific reason, I don't know why I should bother hanging out with you anymore.

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Just because you're fat, doesn't make you stupid or ugly. You're WAY prettier than me and you're my best friend. Besides, I've seen fatter than you. You've been losing weight since we first met and I think your body is perfectly fine. Beauty comes in all shapes and sizes.

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You know that I have a weak stomach and throw up easily. Stop trying to force me to eat food that's past my own body weight. Take it easy.

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Okay, I'm a Christian too, but that post was just ridiculous.

>notices tiny cat scratch on back of right hand, yells at me for it and threatens cat even though it was my fault
>doesn't notice gigantic burn taking up nearly entire top of left arm

I think you're just looking for an excuse to get rid of my cat. And let me just say it's not going to work. I love that cat more than I like having friends, and you think you're going to rid of him because he annoys you sometimes?
Get over it already. Over my dead body will you rid of him while he is still alive.

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Glad to see you think it's humorous when I'm getting irritated.

I can't get you out of my head. Your all I think about now. I often have dreams about you, and think about you during class. I think about what you'd be doing now, or how you would be if you were still here. Sometimes I fantasize you are. But I know, that doesn't change the fact that you're dead. I can't do a thing about that. But every day, I blame myself for everything you went through. I feel like its all my fault. I can't get you out of my head, and nobody could ever replace you. My parents may try to fill my void, but nothing will fill this empty heart. It's too far gone. I hope you're happy. I really do. I'd rather go through this hurt, and suffering alone then have you be with me, suffering like I am. I just felt like you were my only real friend, like you were the only one who got me. And you were. I just feel so alone now. You were everything to me. And you died. I often stay up late at night crying about you. In fact, I am right now. I can't fight the hot tears. I can't fight my feelings. I can't face the facts. People said it would get better, but it isn't. I miss you. I'd give anything to have you here, even if just for a minute or two. I just need to let loose these tears, hug you, and feel understood and loved. You were my everything, and nothing will ever replace you. I can't fight it anymore. I just can't. I might have only known you for a year, but that was the best year of my life. I just feel... Like I somehow neglected you. You were obviously suffering, and I did nothing. I just could bear for you to leave. But none of that matters now. Nothing matters now. I have no one left to talk to, for you were the only one who truly understands everything going on in my life, for you suffered similarly to me. I'm just glad it's over for you. You didn't deserve the **** you were given. But from how I neglected to end your suffering, I'm worthy of my punishment. I'm just so, so sorry. Everything's all my fault. My parents know how I blame myself, and they keep trying to replace you. But nothing will. You were my dog, and no dog will ever take your place, and no dog will fill my empty heart. I... Just... Can't be happy without you anymore. Things just get worse and worse. I have nobody left that understands everything. I told you every little detail to all of my problems, and you pretended to listen and care. That's all I needed somedays. But now I have none of that left.

I have nothing.

Quote: Spyrobaro

You've been holding in the tears for too long. Just let them go.

Just when I was on the edge of accepting myself, on the edge of finally thinking I'm not just a worthless little asshole, this **** happens.

Jesus Christ, it's been a long day. And all I can ever hope for is to just be left to relax for a little while, to not talk to anyone for a while, to just come to the acceptance that I've made so many stupid decisions that I can never repay for them, no matter what anybody says.

First I say something stupid and am singled out even though people were saying much worse. You used that in your argument; specifically pointed it out yourself. So why call ME out when everyone else was being stupid? The only conclusion I can come up with is that it was one of my smarter moments, and you felt the need to point it out even though part of you probably knew it'd make me feel bad. Thanks, I guess.

Then, when I'm cooled off a little, horrible memories decided to come along without me being aware. When I didn't want them to. Without bad **** happening all around me, these things WOULDN'T have come back. But, of course, they did, and only made me fall further down into that hole.

AND THEN - oh mother and father, sweet little candles, right? - you find out that I'm NOT Christian, and not only threaten to put me into a school where they preach that religion and nothing else except for my LEAST FAVORITE SUBJECT, but you're threatening to take my computer away. BOTH of those things take me away from the people I love and care about. Both of those things take me away from the only people who ever truly gave a single **** about me, and accepted me, and helped me grow into a better person even though I never asked them to, even though I didn't understand why someone like me would EVER get that kind of treatment. You two? You only care about your stupid ****ing politics that wouldn't even be a problem under certain circumstances. More about politics than your kids, it seems, let alone your feelings.

Why would you even try that?

I am sorry that you had to experience events like these. It can seem nearly impossible to trudge through the power given to your superiors and the influence they have over your well-being. Also, you do mean a lot to quite a few people (one of them being me), I can assure you. *hugs*

I think I should resort to composing mature stories on FanFiction. I feel I can make plenty original stories up.

Can I even say one ****ing thing without my social anxiety overriding my emotions or tormenting me for my decisions?

I so badly want to live in the fantasy world...I honestly hate our race. "The most intelligent beings on the-" Yeah I don't care. They make it seem like we're amazing...but in comparison to these stories and creatures people come up with...we're no where near amazing. I'm really not joking here. I honestly hate this life. I love all of you guys, that's not the problem. It's how much being a worthless human destined to die within so long sucks. How is that "living?" What's the point? Why not be a fantasy creature you know? Something that can live for thousands of years...or maybe forever...I know I can complain and think about it all I want but...the true problem is...it will never happen. This is life, and I simply have to deal with that, as much as I hate it.

hehe, do you really think I fear you? Oh wait, I'm laughing at you, so guess what the answer is? lol,

I never mean to hurt any of you guys, sometimes I just.. get carried away. I feel so relaxed when you're all near me, I can be myself. But lately I've been going too far and too often. I'm really sorry.. I'm trying to change myself back to how I used to be. How I want to be. Everytime I do something to you, I'm really, really sorry. I really am. It'll stop, that's a promise.

You three know who you are.. I'm in a tired and confusing mood right now, I just wanted to vent.

My grandfather's on hospice now. It's just a matter of time before Parkinson's Disease does him in. *sigh*

Quote: HIR

My grandfather's on hospice now. It's just a matter of time before Parkinson's Disease does him in. *sigh*

My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family.

Ironic that what was supposed to be one of the best days of the school year has turned out to be one of the worst... for me adleast...

You tell everyone to shut up yet you won't shut your own trap?

Why aren't people getting more mad and vocal about this...?
And in turn, I'm a bit frustrated by that.

which part of the penis r u ment 2 suk

Okay, I get your point, and I know you're angry, but yelling at us wasn't necessary or appropriate. Now I feel like crap and the whole self-hate issues are coming back. And if you don't want to talk to the cops so bad, go tell our Dad to go talk to them himself, since he's the one who sat on his keys and pressed the panic button.

I think you should do it, I'd read.

There's no reason to try and hide from the truth. I hope you know that I will be on your case, because you are not telling the truth. If you were looking at moderated messages at least some of them that I know of would have been removed.

Lol I get pissed off every time I think about you now. :3

I am really honored that you think of me as your most outstanding English student. You are easily the best teacher I've ever had (oh man though, my teachers for math, history, and science were amazing this year too), you've given me some good advice for getting good grades in high school, you're super kind, you grade pretty well and give constructive criticism on papers and let us know what we did wrong and how to fix it, and you're just an all around amazing person. I tried my best and I'm super glad you recognized it. "You're a great author, I hardly even had any mistakes to fix!" is easily one of the best things a teacher ever said to me.

I felt like crying when you called me up because I am REALLY going to miss having you as an English teacher. I really hope you the best in the future.

On a side note, it really pisses me off when people make fun of your voice. Your voice is a little nasally, so what? We can understand what you're saying just fine, and if those people really want to be so cruel to a different human being when she did nothing wrong, I hope karma bites them on the ass someday. It's also funny how they make fun of the fact you don't look like a model, I mean, it's not like they'll ever get anything better than magazine covers in their love lives.

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Maybe I wouldn't so harshly wish that if you kept him either under control (he's completely out of it, don't you notice?) or on a damn leash.

I remember always playing video games and watching anime with you and having a good ol' time. You've always felt like a big brother to me. I hope you can visit for a while this Summer when you're out of college, ol' buddy.

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Lol no. My voice was NOT meant for singing.

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I see that you're coming back for a visit... You'll remember me, right? I'd love to be included this time.

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No need to fear that, my dear. I'd NEVER do something that cruel to you.

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Why are you taking my side on this when I was clearly the one who did wrong? You should help her instead. She's going through enough stress already.

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Well THAT was certainly awkward...

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How do we even start conversations like this?

Quote: Spyrobaro

TOMORROW'S THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL FOR THE REST OF THE WEEK UNTIL NEXT TUESDAY *cheers*

Hooray for Memorial Day? Oh wait, I never had Memorial Day off. <.<

Sometimes I just wanna run through a field screaming in the rain with no one to hear me.

I'm starting to lose faith in forming bonds between myself and others.

People you have come to a new level of stupid. When you set a cup on the counter and say "refill", first you made the mistake of not telling me what you want, and sure a "please" would be nice. However, when I ask you what you want that refill to be of, your answer shouldn't be the incredibly vague "soda". I already know that, you need to tell me what kind of soda you want.

When you see a row of cotton candy bags nearly entirely blocking the window, that means that window is closed. Why would you go up to it and actually wait for someone to take your order when no one is even over there? And then when you do figure out that I'm never going to help you at that window and you come to the right one, "there wasn't a sign saying it wasn't open" is not a proper excuse for your stupidity. Point is you walked up to a window that is blocked by a mini-wall of cotton candy, where no one was standing and actually expected someone to help you through this "wall".

Get your head out of your ******* ***. You see the incredibly long line, you see me running around in a tiny circle trying to take care of it since I was supposed to close the stand like 10 minutes ago and can't until the ever-growing line goes away; so why do you just stand there scooping popcorn into the trash when you could help me with drink refills or at least help fill orders for me, you know, do something helpful, not just standing in the corner making do almost all of the work. How the **** did you get promoted to Lead? Everyone's thinking it, I know, I've talked with people about it, and they wonder the same **** thing.

These are some of the reasons why I hate people.

FYI: I work at a popcorn stand at an amusement park.

Quote: spyro and sonic

I think you should do it, I'd read.

Is that to me?

Somedays I hate the human race. Well, I always do, but some days more than others.

Quote: ThroneOfMalefor

Quote: spyro and sonic

I think you should do it, I'd read.

Is that to me?

I know I didn't say that but I've been thinking that. I would totally read those! But I think you know that already.

Quote: Gem-A-Knight

Quote: ThroneOfMalefor

Quote: spyro and sonic

I think you should do it, I'd read.

Is that to me?

I know I didn't say that but I've been thinking that. I would totally read those! But I think you know that already.

I guess I will begin soon, then. I will open a link on my GB when that day comes.

Quote: ThroneOfMalefor

Quote: Gem-A-Knight

Quote: ThroneOfMalefor

Is that to me?

I know I didn't say that but I've been thinking that. I would totally read those! But I think you know that already.

I guess I will begin soon, then. I will open a link on my GB when that day comes.

YESSS.

Quote: ThroneOfMalefor

Quote: spyro and sonic

I think you should do it, I'd read.

Is that to me?

Yes sir.

Please don't become like them, they may treat you badly sometimes.. but please don't change. I really like you the way you are. You're so kind in every chat with everyone, you sound like you actually care. Now you're slowly changing into something like them. Just.. stop and realise how much I (and many others) like you just the way you are. Please, don't change.

I think... I seriously love you... I cannot wait to approach you physically.

Quote: HotDogAndZap

Somedays I hate the human race. Well, I always do, but some days more than others.

Glad I'm not alone in that one.

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(Not to anybody here) Where do I start!? You are so embarrassing. I seriously hate you. It's only a ****ing broken screen and you flip!! You assulted one of my best friends. How DARE you? Stuff like this makes me certain I don't want to stay alive in this stupid, pathetic world. You just don't understand me. I try to explain it to you, but will you listen? No. I feel like the only things I've got is one best friend going through his own **** and my cat. Grrrr.

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I'm fat? Okay, thanks. I'll make sure I slim down to suit Your Highness' pleasure.

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I can't wait to leave school.

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****ing life.