darkSpyro

Perhaps I am injured after all.

Quote: sonicbrawler182

Quote: Wild

I actually really wish somebody challenged what I said so I can actually explain my reasoning and have it not fall on deaf ears.

My family tell me that I talk back too much, and that I'm a "know-it-all"...maybe I could try to put myself to good use for you?

Oh, I'm going to let my words linger a little longer and see if people will respond. But, thanks. Noted. My general shyness might get the best of me even if I don't ever get a response, although. :x

I'm gonna wind up killing all the otter puns.

Quote: Trix Master 100

I'm gonna wind up killing all the otter puns.

That's all I read before I freaked out.

Me: "I don't feel like going to the Holiday World thing on the 29th. I'd rather stay home and go online (especially since it's the day after we are done with 8th grade, which I will probably go to bed early and stay asleep nearly all day because I'm sleeping off all exhaustion from the year. The sooner I sleep it off the better, so I can start staying up all night and sleeping all day earlier). Plus I'm not sure if I have $30 to spend. Plus I'm pretty sure my friends will abandon me as soon as they find a chance to, and I don't want to deal with that."

Girl: "But I won't abandon you..."

Stop right there. You know how much bull**** that statement is as much as I do. You abandon me in choir class all the time for other friends, what the hell would make me think you wouldn't do it in an AMUSEMENT PARK? The 8th grade choir and band are all allowed to come if they pay, and probably some other classes too. I don't have a doubt you'll abandon me like everyone else would (and does).

Ahahah.

Ah, I needed that break. I feel much better.

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I've noticed you care less about me and treat me worse with every month that comes.
I'm not looking forward to christmas time.

the reason i dont fit in is because im old?
since when is 18 old?????

im so terrible at conversation or just talking to someone in general
why am i so terrible at conversation or just talking to someone in general

okay i'm flipping out

Oi *****, don't take the batteries out of MY clock -__-

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oh ****. whyy did I have to tell you why. Now you're gonna think I'm....idk JHFKUEJDCVDSJZ

I do not feel safe with the new future that I'll have, since, my life took a 180° degrees. Now what nobody expected of me, now I'll have to do, and I feel I'm not ready for that. But I do not want to pay or be a failure at life. Maybe I have a stroke of luck, and things to be as before, just hope it does not take years.

Now I have the doubt if living with another family. I do not know why, probably this will happen. Anyway, my parents want to get rid of me, in a good sense for them.

You think you're a good person because you stand up for your friends.
You let them commit errors and give excuses on why they had a good reason to do such a bad thing. But when it comes to others that make the same mistake, you have no mercy on them and make sure they know what they have done and make sure that everyone is aware of it. So they receive negative looks and you get the "This guy is right! He is smart and I will listen to him from now on" reaction from bystanders.

My voice is so high that Helium barley changes it >_____> well

Quote: Pixilism

I should learn how to start conversations rather than just have the small talk crap. Even I find myself annoying.

Ditto. It irritates me and I feel sorry for the person talking to me. >~>

you never seen this side of me i hoped you never well, and that thing is you brought it out of me

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Go ahead and hurt me, if it really makes you feel better.

Today was a good day, best I've had in awhile.

Quote: Pixilism

I should learn how to start conversations rather than just have the small talk crap. Even I find myself annoying.

Same here.

Well... it was nearly 6 and a half years. My PlayStation 3 croaked. At least I was able to get it to successfully last that long. I heard the first model PS3s tended to have some issues. *sigh*

Oh, the stress of moving. The stress.

That's it, I'm never eating that stuff again.
Bleeeuurggghhh.

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WHAT. Gawsh I hate the teens on Teens React, how they treated Bronies was just... D:<

You can't give me a reason? Why?

Seriously? This horrific and boring two days of graduation is over, and now you're gonna tell me that our Grandpa has given us something relatively obnoxious to do for Sunday? I've wasted two days of my weekend already, and had to completely abandon my GF for those days! I mean WTF?! I love weekends because I get to play games, hang out with friends, go outside, just do what I want and escape the crap I deal with at school! I thought I could at least take Sunday to relax after I finish that project that I was finally expecting to have time to do! But nooo. I guess not. Now I have to take half of my Sunday to do my project, and the other half to do this stupid thing my grandpa suggested. Gee. What great freaking weekend this was.

Quote: HIR

Well... it was nearly 6 and a half years. My PlayStation 3 croaked. At least I was able to get it to successfully last that long. I heard the first model PS3s tended to have some issues. *sigh*

I feel for you, mate.
I have the first model too, got it in 2007/2008, while my friends have the slim version. The controllers are pretty dusty and those 40 GBs keep forcing me to delete stuff when I get new games but it all works fine.

This day just makes me want to run away and never come back. I won't be sending flowers, I won't be making your favorite dinner, I won't be laughing with you like we used to. I won't be listening while you tell me I need to stop crying over nothing. I won't hear your advice on what to do. I won't get a hug either, and that is one of the things I miss the most. Mom, I miss you, and this day brings back all the memories. I hope you are at peace and I know you no longer suffer, but I really and truly miss you.
Mom I miss you and I love you so very much.

Aww I feel horrible now ;~;

Quote: thumper

This day just makes me want to run away and never come back. I won't be sending flowers, I won't be making your favorite dinner, I won't be laughing with you like we used to. I won't be listening while you tell me I need to stop crying over nothing. I won't hear your advice on what to do. I won't get a hug either, and that is one of the things I miss the most. Mom, I miss you, and this day brings back all the memories. I hope you are at peace and I know you no longer suffer, but I really and truly miss you.
Mom I miss you and I love you so very much.

*Hugs tight*

Quote: thumper

This day just makes me want to run away and never come back. I won't be sending flowers, I won't be making your favorite dinner, I won't be laughing with you like we used to. I won't be listening while you tell me I need to stop crying over nothing. I won't hear your advice on what to do. I won't get a hug either, and that is one of the things I miss the most. Mom, I miss you, and this day brings back all the memories. I hope you are at peace and I know you no longer suffer, but I really and truly miss you.
Mom I miss you and I love you so very much.

Please don't feel down... You have us and everyone else you know on your side. Although it isn't the same, consider yourself lucky to even have known your mother. She is resting peacefully and perhaps waiting for you, somewhere.

Quote: zzsdf

Quote: HIR

Well... it was nearly 6 and a half years. My PlayStation 3 croaked. At least I was able to get it to successfully last that long. I heard the first model PS3s tended to have some issues. *sigh*

I feel for you, mate.
I have the first model too, got it in 2007/2008, while my friends have the slim version. The controllers are pretty dusty and those 40 GBs keep forcing me to delete stuff when I get new games but it all works fine.

Yeah, I think too much dust had gotten in the disc reader. It just wouldn't read ANYTHING anymore. I'm gonna need to look for a new one. Thankfully they shouldn't be too expensive, especially with the announcement of the PS4. <.<;

Quote: thumper

This day just makes me want to run away and never come back. I won't be sending flowers, I won't be making your favorite dinner, I won't be laughing with you like we used to. I won't be listening while you tell me I need to stop crying over nothing. I won't hear your advice on what to do. I won't get a hug either, and that is one of the things I miss the most. Mom, I miss you, and this day brings back all the memories. I hope you are at peace and I know you no longer suffer, but I really and truly miss you.
Mom I miss you and I love you so very much.

Stay strong, thumpy-wumpy. I'm here for you if you want to chat.
And just know that your mother gave the world the miracle of a beautiful woman, that beauty being you. I'm sure she was proud when she left you.

I'm sorry to everyone who has lost their Mother and I hope you guys are at peace today and always. Find friend to keep you in comfort and hang out with them.
Or if you find that mourning will help you, then is understandable and you should do it.

Quote: HIR

Quote: zzsdf

Quote: HIR

Well... it was nearly 6 and a half years. My PlayStation 3 croaked. At least I was able to get it to successfully last that long. I heard the first model PS3s tended to have some issues. *sigh*

I feel for you, mate.
I have the first model too, got it in 2007/2008, while my friends have the slim version. The controllers are pretty dusty and those 40 GBs keep forcing me to delete stuff when I get new games but it all works fine.

Yeah, I think too much dust had gotten in the disc reader. It just wouldn't read ANYTHING anymore. I'm gonna need to look for a new one. Thankfully they shouldn't be too expensive, especially with the announcement of the PS4. <.<;

They really aren't. I think they are even cheaper on Pawn Shops and are in top shape.

Why don't you look at it from my point of view?

Oh my god, thank you for the "hugs" and caring words. "Hugs" you all back. Thank you for being here for me, I really appreciate ALL of you.

Physics AP test, this ain't gonna be easy.._.

I am now obsessed with The Last Airbender... Thank you TorchSheep, I now feel complete. ;3

I get worried way too easily, though I guess that can be a good thing.

I wish I could just leave and never come back...
yes, that's how bad it's gotten. You've driven me to insanity. I, freaking, tried, to, break, my, freaking, HAND! I FEEL LIKE CRAP WHENEVER I CREATE SOMETHING!!! WHY DOES THIS YEAR SUCK!? WHY DOES NO ONE HELP ME WHEN I HURT!?! WHAT HAPPENED TO MY OLD FRIENDS!?!... The saddest thing is, the kid who dislikes me was the only one to show slight concern!!!... </3 you've broken me..
Old besties become enimies sometimes.. and it really hurts..

Quote: Storm Dragon

I wish I could just leave and never come back...
yes, that's how bad it's gotten. You've driven me to insanity. I, freaking, tried, to, break, my, freaking, HAND! I FEEL LIKE CRAP WHENEVER I CREATE SOMETHING!!! WHY DOES THIS YEAR SUCK!? WHY DOES NO ONE HELP ME WHEN I HURT!?! WHAT HAPPENED TO MY OLD FRIENDS!?!... The saddest thing is, the kid who dislikes me was the only one to show slight concern!!!... </3 you've broken me..
Old besties become enimies sometimes.. and it really hurts..

"So, my best friend became my girlfriend, my girlfriend became my arch enemy, and my arch enemy became my best friend, but hey, that's High School."

You may not be in High School, but the quote still seems to apply, IMO. Most of us go through a time in our lives when friends turn on us and we need to find new friends as we're all changing in likes among other things. Believe me, it gets better. It may take some time before it does, but it will eventually. I wish you luck in getting through this.

Quote: Pixilism

I was walking through the city streets, and a man walks up to me and hands me the latest energy drink.
Run faster, jump higher. Mayn, I'm not gonna let you poison me.

I THREW IT ON THE GROUND

You must think I'm a joke.
I'm not gonna be part of this system.
Pump that garbage in another man's veins.

you fool
such a waste
you disgust me
a poor slow kid in africa could of drank that to go fast but you spoiled murikan kids just take the gift of fast for granted

(Gosh that last message sounded so weird and attention whore-y >.<)
I love this musical piece so much. It makes me feel hopeful and reminds me that something good will come, that everything will be okay. It's the only time I've cried to music.

I'm happy if my parents & my family are happy. The sad thing is that, they do not the same with me:
When I'm happy with my stuff and my personal life, my family hate my personal life. Even I'm not sure if they love me or not. I think it's because of all the family generation of my dad, I am the first with different skin color. All are white and I am the first to be light brown. I know, my parents tell me they love me a lot, but sometimes I see this affect them psychologically, and perhaps is the reason why even they do not trust me.

I'm still thinking that I was born into the wrong family.

I remember I read that there was a news report in which a child was thrown out of the house because his parents hated their tastes. Well, my family hates my taste, but still they do not know my biggest secret. And I have a fear that they say that I'm a loser in this life or get me out of the house.
Always my dream was to share my happiness (my tastes) with them, but I think I imagine much reality, and at the end, just a glory to oneself and no one else, or sadness and disappointment because one does not fulfill his / her dreams only because the family did not leave it.

This is so painful and frustrating. I don't know what to do at all. I hardly feel motivated to do anything anymore.

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Despite my coldness towards you lately, I miss you. I miss you far too much. It's aggravating that things can't be simpler. But it'll only lead to a bitter fallout if I keep in contact with you. I'd rather phase out of your life quietly than taint your happiness. And you should understand by now that you don't need me, and have no real reason to want me around. And I know a part of me wants to question various things about us. But those questions would specifically cause a bitter fallout

At this point, I think it's inevitable that I will have to disappear from your life. I'm just going about it in the most mature way I know how, and a way that is easy on your heart.
A friend of mine thinks I should go full force, but I can't bring myself to do that.

That was the hardest test I've ever taken.