darkSpyro

Maybe I should stop.

Hmmm, listening to this band and I'm get nostalgic feelings, apparently when I was very young I used to sing all their songs, ha, I'm also remembering you. You know you were my only family, tragic eh?, but it's the truth. I know for a fact no one else cared like you did, why did you die?, I know it's been 5 years now, but, I can't let go, I've never been able to let go of things, it's why I hold grudges and love....revenge.
"Hey, did I mention? I’ve got friends now!"

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I've always been so alone, when I was younger my parents always neglected me, everyday I had to go to after school care, I was always the last one left too. Now whenever I don't go to a friends house I am alone to around 8 PM, I've developed the habit of automatically turning the TV on as soon as I get home, I don't feel so alone that way, I've had this habit for years now and I doubt it will ever change. I'm more alone than ever these days, my dad left for some asian chick and another kid, I guess I'm just sort of in the background now.

Weeeell, I feel invisible, everybody thinks i'm just the backround guy, there is nobody at my...place I meet people...that is my age, I have a friend that is 16, he is cool, I had a crush, but I recently figured out she likes somebody else, welp, that's all I got, most my joy comes from Kaiju Combat forums.

Finally got my prescription from the pharmacy. <.>

I'm kinda nervous about that ACT tomorrow.

I don't know how you got the position you have now, as the only times I've ever seen you post is when you said something stupid and people disagreed with you, forcing you to get butthurt and make angry responses.

Quote: Spyrobaro

i hate most of you UGH

*if you think this is about you there's a 99.99% chance it isn't so calm*

im the .1%

why baro
why

Quote: Spyrobaro

Quote: wspyro

im the .1%

why baro
why

you are no where near the .1% calm

whew =w=

There comes a point when watching this fails to be amusing.

Quote: Spyrobaro

I was actually feeling kinda confident in myself before this.

It's ****ing sad that such a small thing caused so much pain.

Aww. :c *hugs*

I finally told you some of the things that have been haunting me, and the things that have been chipping away at our bond, because our bond was strengthen by us opening our hearts.

But telling you what I told you doesn't feel good at all. It's supposed to be good to get things off of your chest, but telling you something like that can never feel good.

The meaning of life is to let other people live their own respective lives and you live your own life. This is one in a who-knows chance to expercience life in this universe of ours, so we must use it to maximum benefit without violence and useless quarrels between each other.

Okay, I'm certain these Ash avatars are making me stupid or something

Hm, possibly loving a fictional character?

Sure, why not?

Quote: wspyro

Quote: Spyrobaro

i hate most of you UGH

*if you think this is about you there's a 99.99% chance it isn't so calm*

im the .1%

why baro
why

me too.

That was the saddest yet most heart-warming story I've ever read.

I'm done. I'm ****ing done. There isn't anything left. Not a thing. If I just stopped, no one on both conversational dimensions would not care. It isn't worth it. Nothing is.

Jeebuz that was the best written fanfiction I've ever read.. and I haven't even finished reading it.

I jumped off the schools indoor bleachers onto a giant mat.

Yeah. I don't feel "loved", and instead of talking about it to me you instead threaten sending me into adoption.

What is your secret message

There isn't a single reason for continuing. My only bit of pleasure has become a rampaging mound of assholes. No one gives a damn about my accomplishments, as they will get me nowhere but a place of mere stability.

But could I do it? Is it possible to pull this out, when my certain theoretical path dictates that I won't be able to start over?

I must wake up at 5:45. It's 11:31 and I'm darkSpyroing...

It's good to have you back.

I've been a lot happier and more myself, with you around. Then there's been other friends that have really cheered me up. It's nice to think I'm not really alone anymore.

(That wasn't directed at anyone above)

Thank yo so much for vigilantly sticking with me. I know I may have made you want to ditch me, but you kept on with it, when I offered little to nothing in return. You have no idea how much I appreciate that.

Well, looks like I'll never be able to play that game...
*Le' sigh*, oh well..
._.
Back to Pokemon for now!

You wrote something a while ago that mentioned you felt lonely. I hope I helped change that.

Oh my, look at the time!

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That is you, isn't it?

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Oh, so it was me...

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I can't even cry anymore.

Quote: Spyrobaro

it's almost four in the morning and i want to sleep BUT I CAN'T BECAUSE OF THIS PAIN IT'S STILL THERE GAH

the PAAAAAAAAAAAAAIN

Hmmm.. you're definitely changing in personality and behaviour.
I know it's not any of my business, but I am quite shocked.. not in the good way.

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Not one Ash avatar will suit me for more than 50 seconds.
Ever.

Today's going to leave me feeling miserable, empty, and insignificant...

Wild got an avatar. It's the apocalypse. ;~;

I'm trying, SO hard, to be happy for you. Really, I am. Not just happy that you're happy, but to not appear miserable about other things in front of you.

Thing is, I'm holding back so much bitterness. If it weren't for the fact that I truly love you, I'd have lost my patience a long time ago. I wouldn't do this for anyone else. I try to ignore all of the neglect you cast upon me. All of the times I feel forgotten. I tell myself that if I do that and wait for some kind of better future alongside you, things will be better, better than they ever were between us.

How long do I have to keep waiting though? Or am I supposed to let all of the harsh facts out one day? Because I don't want to do the latter. Yet, I don't know how much longer my heart can handle this. If everything else in my life was good, I might be handling this better. But that's not the case.

Why am I still here.

WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?

You have no idea how I feel right now.... I don't know why you say those things, but, I... I really can't anymore, Or maybe I'm just a ****ing idiot, yeah, I'm pretty sure that's it. If only she was there, my only chance of having a somewhat normal childhood, ha, I'm so foolish. God, I don't understand people, these emotions, anything.

It's good to have the apartment clean. Except for the part where my back hurts. <.>

spyro and sonic whyyyy
spyro and sonic whyyyy
spyro and sonic whyyyy
i like sonic nowwww

That went better than expected.

It's good to know that sometimes bad things and very bad, there is something hidden that is good. The hard part is knowing how to use it.

Generally my life has been more with bad and very bad things, so it's a habit. The sad thing about that is occurring with my family, but when I'm with my IRL friends and their families, everything is the opposite.