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I can't believe I almost killed myself today.
I was actually prepared for it really determined to... I'm scared I'm going to snap.

Please don't crystal. I don't know if you consider me a friend, but you mean a lot to me. I really look up to you, because you're what I used to be and I want to become like that again. If you were to die I would be devastated, and I wouldn't know what to do for the longest time. You're a very nice and caring user and I hate myself for not being able to show you how great you are, and responding like a day late. You seem much too down recently, but I believe you can accelerate.

All you have to do is believe in yourself, just as I believe in you.

Wow.. Words cannot explain how much I appreciate this Baro, thank you.
I do see you as my friend, a really good, amazing one. If anything it's my fault we don't get to talk much, and I'm really sorry. I look up to you too, so this does mean a lot.
Ever since school started, it feels like everyday it gets worse. I may seem happy, but I'm getting worse deep down... But I try to forget it, you guys have been so helpful, actually caring and trying to help, thank you so much.
Sorry for bothering you all with this, I must be so annoying with these things.

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I can't believe I almost killed myself today.
I was actually prepared for it really determined to... I'm scared I'm going to snap.

Please don't crystal. I don't know if you consider me a friend, but you mean a lot to me. I really look up to you, because you're what I used to be and I want to become like that again. If you were to die I would be devastated, and I wouldn't know what to do for the longest time. You're a very nice and caring user and I hate myself for not being able to show you how great you are, and responding like a day late. You seem much too down recently, but I believe you can accelerate.

All you have to do is believe in yourself, just as I believe in you.

Wow.. Words cannot explain how much I appreciate this Baro, thank you.
I do see you as my friend, a really good, amazing one. If anything it's my fault we don't get to talk much, and I'm really sorry. I look up to you too, so this does mean a lot.
Ever since school started, it feels like everyday it gets worse. I may seem happy, but I'm getting worse deep down... But I try to forget it, you guys have been so helpful, actually caring and trying to help, thank you so much.
Sorry for bothering you all with this, I must be so annoying with these things.

i think i can speak for everybody when i say this, your not annoying us. you have things that are bothering you, and its us, as your friends job to help you

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Quote: crystalhero37

Quote: Spyrobaro

Please don't crystal. I don't know if you consider me a friend, but you mean a lot to me. I really look up to you, because you're what I used to be and I want to become like that again. If you were to die I would be devastated, and I wouldn't know what to do for the longest time. You're a very nice and caring user and I hate myself for not being able to show you how great you are, and responding like a day late. You seem much too down recently, but I believe you can accelerate.

All you have to do is believe in yourself, just as I believe in you.

Wow.. Words cannot explain how much I appreciate this Baro, thank you.
I do see you as my friend, a really good, amazing one. If anything it's my fault we don't get to talk much, and I'm really sorry. I look up to you too, so this does mean a lot.
Ever since school started, it feels like everyday it gets worse. I may seem happy, but I'm getting worse deep down... But I try to forget it, you guys have been so helpful, actually caring and trying to help, thank you so much.
Sorry for bothering you all with this, I must be so annoying with these things.

i think i can speak for everybody when i say this, your not annoying us. you have things that are bothering you, and its us, as your friends job to help you

Thank you ;___;
I feel like I post too much but I can't help it.

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Quote: crystalhero37

Wow.. Words cannot explain how much I appreciate this Baro, thank you.
I do see you as my friend, a really good, amazing one. If anything it's my fault we don't get to talk much, and I'm really sorry. I look up to you too, so this does mean a lot.
Ever since school started, it feels like everyday it gets worse. I may seem happy, but I'm getting worse deep down... But I try to forget it, you guys have been so helpful, actually caring and trying to help, thank you so much.
Sorry for bothering you all with this, I must be so annoying with these things.

i think i can speak for everybody when i say this, your not annoying us. you have things that are bothering you, and its us, as your friends job to help you

Thank you ;___;
I feel like I post too much but I can't help it.

the whole point of this topic is to post too how you feel. i think the only way to post to much, would be to have every post in the topic

Aw **** this!

This is never gonna work. I'll make sure it doesn't work.

True ZIU, true. Thanks again.
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Oh thank goodness, It's good to know how you really feel, no more lies (I could actually tell from the start). It actually makes me feel better, less stress, I'm free!
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WHY CAN'T I LOG OFF IT'S SO LATE, UGH.
WHY DOES THIS WEBSITE HAVE TO BE SO ADDICTIVE. WHYYYYYY. I SERIOUSLY HAVE A PROBLEM. I NEED REST ;__;

Not every post I make is about you.

Imma just be quiet with ya

I got what I wanted and I think my personality annoyed you~
I dun hate ya though
And dun take this as I know everything bout ya. It just means that I got what I wanted ^-^

I'll be another user that won't stand out as much as ai did before(if ai did at all)

Words cannot describe my hate for you, go die in a hole, drag your jerks that you call friends with you.

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Things like this are why I wanna start high school already, I'm sick of seeing you idiots.And seriously, Racism?That's just a level of stupidity, you know you're gonna end up in a street gang, instead of doing something productive, you spend all your money on ****ing candy, your parents don't seem to care about you either, instead of paying for basic things such as education, they feel that getting the New Honda Civic is more important.
I used to pity you, all 8 of you, now I just hate you, get out of my life, and stop telling people to shut up for litteraly NO REASON at all!You ask them a question, then when when they're about to say something, you say Shut Up.GTFO!I hate you all!

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Thanks, the 5 of you are the only decent people around here, if you guys weren't my friends, I'd be bullied and so would you.

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You do know I still have a mad crush on you right?*sigh*

I will be 18 in less than a month, I will be considered an adult.

But I don't know what it's like to be a teenager, I never was one. And never will be, for definite.
I am not an adult either, and never will be one.

I'm just stuck in this limbo, I'm a failed experiment.

Ugh, if that was for me:
When, how.. I dont understand None of my current posts were about you, or anyone on DS except really obvious ones. I hope I didn't offend you with anything, but it depends which post you meant. If it was my last thought; It was in IRL where my friend was taking over our project and we asked her how she felt about it and if she was okay with doing a lot, she said she was absolutely fine and recently she finally told us she wasn't, so now we can help her without me stressing out about her, and it has had me worried for a a while every night as once she stayed up at all night for it without us knowing at the time or beforehand, and she felt terrible afterwards. And if it WAS that post, why would I think you're lying? You're one of the people here I trust the most, maybe even including IRL.

So, now you know the full story, I'm really sorry if I did offend you, I feel awful as I just realised what I have posted could've meant something else, I have a bad habbit of not putting 'This is IRL stuff' under my posts. You have every right to hate me right now..

You know, I probably have just fallen for that trick, derp.

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Ugh, if that was for me:
When, how.. I dont understand None of my current posts were about you, or anyone on DS except really obvious ones. I hope I didn't offend you with anything, but it depends which post you meant. If it was my last thought; It was in IRL where my friend was taking over our project and we asked her how she felt about it and if she was okay with doing a lot, she said she was absolutely fine and recently she finally told us she wasn't, so now we can help her without me stressing out about her, and it has had me worried for a a while every night as once she stayed up at all night for it without us knowing at the time or beforehand, and she felt terrible afterwards. And if it WAS that post, why would I think you're lying? You're one of the people here I trust the most, maybe even including IRL.

So, now you know the full story, I'm really sorry if I did offend you, I feel awful as I just realised what I have posted could've meant something else, I have a bad habbit of not putting 'This is IRL stuff' under my posts. You have every right to hate me right now..

You know, I probably have just fallen for that trick, derp.

if this was directed at me, my post was not directed at you

Quote: zook it up

Quote: crystalhero37

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if this was directed at me, my post was not directed at you

Oh no no no, it wasn't directed at you at all.

Quote: crystalhero37

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if this was directed at me, my post was not directed at you

Oh no no no, it wasn't directed at you at all.

oh. it just seemed like it was in response to my post, silly me

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oh. it just seemed like it was in response to my post, silly me

No problem, I'm glad you know for sure it wasn't you

Sorry about the misunderstanding. I just assumed your post was directed towards me because of the closeness in time.

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You've only taught the class one day and I already don't like you.

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I will prove my point to you that this is a bad idea.

I knew you would do that, I hope you're ****ing happy.

Every damn time something happens after that time, I feel I'm the problem. It's really stressful and I feel it's going to be the reason I eventually pack up and go. I get slightly driven away every time...

This is taking too long.

WHY DIDN'T YOU BUY ANY MILK TODAY?

I CAN'T HAVE A BOWL OF CEREAL NOW.

hey semp

Are you living the bug's life?

is that directed to me???

It's about yo mamma.

SHE BE LIVIN' THE BUG'S LIFE?


brb moving to canada

yeah she works at a suicide hotline

NO STOP THAT CANADA **** I AM GOING TO END ALL OF YOU

Is that directed towards me?

i wonder what's going on
HMMMMMM

Wow, been on for an hour and no bull. New record.

I am tired of always getting depressed that some days I just want my life to end. People say it can only get better, well news flash it doesn't. I have been living with this on and off depression for almost four years now. And people know why I am depressed but nothing good has happened. I want to be comforted with this I really do, but no one is ever there to help me when I'm down. I push it off saying its nothing so they won't worry but I want them to know. All I want is to be loved by my peers but its never gonna work. I am tired off feeling I don't belong and tired of getting called names. I pretend to laugh it off but it hurts, it just does. ash hasn't made this any better and this sense of community in it is a joke to me. I feel unappreciated in everything I do. I make a poster for them and it doesn't even go up on the school or its too big. I'm glad I'm so helpful. And then there's lip sync. I'm glad I'm soooo wanted in the sophomore class's act. Everyone in that sophomore class except for me and this other girl aren't in it because we aren't close friends with them. This is what caused ,e to almost break down in zero and first period. They say they and they talk to me but I feel as if I am just nothing and at they don't want me, in fact they would give a damn if I was in ASB or not. I kinda don't want to be in ASB next year because I feel excluded from my class. Seventh grade started this and it only got worse in eighth grade. That's when I felt no one liked me as a person. I felt like I was a piece of **** that no one liked. I try to hide that depression with a smile at high school now when it comes up. I just want the love of my peers, not the rejection that I feel. Methods who say they love me I feel like its a lie because they use me for homework or other stuff. I'm done with my life and I just want a fresh start. I'm tired of everyone thinking I'm gay, when I'm not. I have more potential then those people think, yet I can't prove myself because I feel like I'm judged constantly and I hate it. I'm not suicidal, but sometimes I feel if I died no one would care. They would just shrug and not give a damn. I'm not longer myself or happy, I'm just this hollow being who has no life.

I love how schedule means totally avoiding me.

Two hours and nothing??? Keep it going.

Damn it, Wololo!
I mean, I understand, but now I have to keep a constant eye on you.

I have to keep reminding myself "Get on Wololo.net. Check if is out" everyday, every hour.

Please be alright, you have me worried.

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Quote: Rand O M

I'm not suicidal, but sometimes I feel if I died no one would care. They would just shrug and not give a damn. I'm not longer myself or happy, I'm just this hollow being who has no life.

I would care, Rand O M. I find you to be an amazing and funny person. I'm sorry I can't type up a long message, but I'm speechless about how such awesome people can say this about themselves. I think that you're pretty damn cool, and I would be devastated if you were to die, whether by your own hand or not. I believe in you! Please, Rand.

You have to believe in yourself.

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I really must stop bringing the external Internet into what I do on a single site. I need to just hang completely loose one day.

I'm not ignoring you?....

Baro and ToM I thank you for your concerns. I have just been so down this week, it makes me feel better to hear that.

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Baro and ToM I thank you for your concerns. I have just been so down this week, it makes me feel better to hear that.

We just don't want to hear you talking about ending your life. I'm sure many people would miss you deeply if you were to suffer casualty. Just stand tall and look at what's coming in life!

I like you a lot. I'm afraid to admit it though.

Sleep is no longer an option. It's sad because my dreams are vivid, but my mind itself is just like "**** it". I cannot go to sleep as easily as I once was able to...
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I honestly cannot believe how snappy you have become since I came. When we think the whole lollapalooza is over... How do you imply a best friend is passing you by because of time regulation of their choice? They said they'd lurk more and post less, so don't expect them to be that talkative especially when you don't exactly know they're online. Is getting an attitude and lashing at a friend for no logical reason really an action a "best friend" should carry out? ...I didn't think so. And with me, don't say a simple good night? You were online for quite a bit and not a response was given. I will admit that I am getting fed up with this and that I may call it quits if this goes on too long. Can we not bring real depression or sassiness with us on a site that is supposed to be happy? Thank you, and I hope this says something. I'm losing patience, and fast.

It's alright, I'm just glad you don't have the wrong idea anymore.

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Quote: crystalhero37

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If this is directed at me, I can give you the guarantee that every non-reply-to-you post here isn't about you.

Oh, not in any way it was for you, dun worry c:

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( Everything below is IRL things, I shall learn from my mistakes ;A; )
I really feel you, I understand completely. I'd tell you, but I'm not sure if you want to be reminded of the problem. I'd help you, but I'm even worse when it comes to this. When I try to make you happy, it's actually making the problem worse. Please, just try your best and that's all you can do, you can't do better than best right? I know you can do it.
.... Why don't I have the guts to tell you this? Typing it here won't help you... only me.. which this isn't about. I know, tomorrow I'll tell you this and try to actually help. I just hope I don't mess up.

Please, just go well for me this time; college ended up to be not so great, so at least, let me enjoy this coming up. And hopefully I'll start actually getting somewhere with my life. But then again, at least I finished college successfully, but I don't really know what I want to actually do.

I honestly don't know how much more of this I can take. Why is this happening, again? Did you ever notice how quiet it is at 3:00 in the morning? It's extremely quiet.

Nice to know ya'll don't like me anymore. Getting mad about things you never would have before. Why are you so irritable recently? Are you seriously still stuck on that incident from a WEEK ago? If you don't want to be my friend just tell me to my face rather than trying to make me guess.

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Nice to know ya'll don't like me anymore. Getting mad about things you never would have before. Why are you so irritable recently? Are you seriously still stuck on that incident from a WEEK ago? If you don't want to be my friend just tell me to my face rather than trying to make me guess.

Oh, I continue to like you. And I'm upset about things I was never upset about before because I care more now than before. And I'm sure this incident was stretched out by you. I don't want to leave you, but I want to just tell you how I feel about you. I could've blown this off and spent my time elsewhere if I really didn't care. It's just you began as such a calm person and now I see lots of anger. It worries me, and that's what would make me leave. I would feel horrible leaving, definitely. But I would at least help you on the road to recovery. That whole thought before was just the spark of restoration, and I hope I can guide you through the end. Really, I care about you and seeing you torn up hurts me in ways unthinkable.

Anger? I don't see where I've been angry. More irritable yes but not angry. Most of my personal thoughts yesterday were for people irl anyway.