just cause they invited me doesn't mean i have to join. you can't force me, you have to let me make my own desisions. i said id "think about it" no commitments
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so distant. i see you once a week now. id say your avoiding me, but you really don't have to do anything to avoid me.
Oh look, my crush was at bible study. Why do you torment me like this DX. He took my phone my stuffed it in his pants >_> greaaat.....just want i need and then he tells me to come and get it.....my mind flooded with inapporpiate thoughts that i will not share on here ^_^. Then i chase him around to get it so en he finally takes it out and throws it to me and i drop it...........fml. It aint broken though. Then a kid TORE his pants. We all cracked up laughing and he ducked taped his pants. I have a video of it. When he first walked in, i knew he wa- opps getti away with Taylor Swift lyrics.......anyway, now i feel like the girl that is literally eaiting RIGHT by their phone waiting for him to reply to a text . And what do you know, i chikened out at asking him if he would date me.....great.
it's that way of thinking.
that way of thinking.
that thinking.
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sometimes i really hope
that there would be a conversation
on it somewhere, really
that someone would look for examples
and that if i really had to
i would speak up, quietly
"how about me"
I'm not an editor or a camera women. I'm a story boarder and a scriptwriter. One of the only good ones, actually Why are you giving that job to someone who can't do it all that well?! Because they are your friends and you want to talk to them? I was on the Martin Luther King Day project, which was a major project and I've done several smaller videos for the class and they've all turned out fine.
If I cannot do what I enjoy...You can't either. I would tell the teacher about your gum chewing and your texting during class. But *****es like you would call me tattle tale.
Baro...you're nice. You tell everyone the positives they can look forward too. I really believe you're a great person. I kind of liked you at one point. There's nothing that I've seen that would make me believe that...you're bad.
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You're welcome ^ I know I'm in a bad mood, but I hate seeing my friends in a bad mood. Yes, I haven't really told you that I think of you as a friend, but I do that with a lot of people here. In a way we are a rather large family. No matter how much hate there is, I honestly still love all of you guys. I get over any insult someone might have given me. I'm sorry things are bad for you baro. Just don't let these feelings get too deep into your personal life.
I should have known that you were going to end up being a big fool who crushes me like that. Why would you do this to me? We've known each other for years and you're not who you used to be. All these curses you've been wishing upon me, the cruel insults, the way you've been telling everybody else to hate me... It needs to stop. I used to look up to you. I used to think that nobody could take your place as a friend. We did so much together. You defended me. You'd hug me. So why are you suddenly doing this to me? I cannot begin to describe how incredibly disappointed my family and I are. Yes, that's right. Not just me. My entire family. My parents, my brothers, my grandparents, my aunt and uncle, my cousins... All of us are very disappointed in you. My friends are also disappointed in you. I want to say that I hate you but I generally don't allow myself to say that about anybody. The only person I would hate now is the man who would torture me and stalk me when I was younger... But after what you've done to me, I can almost say that I hate you like him. My mom is especially disappointed in you and she herself is almost on the edge of hating you and believe me, it takes a LOT to get my mom to feel that way about anyone. She clearly said herself that she thinks you're just a vicious person. She baked me cookies today to help me feel better and helped me realize that I have people who love me. I don't have time for your ignorance and hatefulness. I've got other great friends who love me like crazy and would never ditch me for ANY reason and they're always honest and tactful... Unlike you. All those friends are upset with you. Some of those friends witnessed what you've done to me themselves so there's no hiding the truth if they've already seen it with their own eyes. Also, you've made my youngest friend cry when you told her all those nasty things on Facebook. NOBODY says things like that to her. Now you've got my family AND her family angry with you. If you EVER do ANYTHING like that to her again, I will freaking kick your ass. Nobody makes her cry... She's like a little sister to me and I won't tolerate that. And you're one of the bullies who bullied my ex boyfriend and made him cry. It takes a LOT to make him cry. I know he's broken up with me to go out with another girl, but I still love him like crazy as a friend. He's one of the most amazing friends I could ever ask for and I would NEVER give up on him as a friend... So that doesn't mean you can just go bully him like that with those other nasty kids! So good riddance to you. I don't need you anymore if this is the fool you've become. I've got plenty of wonderful friends I can be with.
1. What is the meaning of life? 2. And the purpose of life? 3. And you value your life?
Three questions too frequent each. And many responses of pure honesty of failures and sometimes suicide. I have known many of these cases. In my family there have been several. And then, in my case.
1. How I'm now, it's just a headache, where only one finds problems and disappointments. Nobody, not even your own family gives you support, or what you need, maybe just to study, but what gives you your happiness, and your tastes best in your life, forget, only God and you who define your happiness and your tastes & others, and only with your effort you will get it. 2. Generally for the human being is to seek happiness, peace, harmony, and to help the community in this world. But, that has been corrupted over time. Fewer and fewer people who think so, and decide that life is more torture of the universe, and I'm with that. My life, as I have now, is pure crap. 3. Most answers "yes", but secretly they want to suicide, in order not to suffer more pain and sadness in this world.
For me, the value a lot, but that's because I have faith and hope that one day I leave this hell of pain and sorrow that I'm living now. There are still things in the world that are worth fighting, so be unto death, and most is for the family and oneself. But I not have that feeling. The only thing I have left is my grandmother, and my older brother, for the rest of my family are deciding not to help me more. And I'm not ready when my grandmother go to God's call, which for most is death. Not sure if I will bear that pain. I probably continue, but my life will be destroyed. Somehow (sorry if it sounds horrible), perhaps losing my dad, or mom or sister is not so hard. Obviously, a lot of sadness and all that, but my grandmother is something that does not compare with them. Since I was born, she has been a thousand times better mother than my own mother. And my grandfather has been better than my father, and that we do not live together.
If I have an opportunity of having my own home, I will offer my grandparents come live with me, being in the neighborhood where my older brother lives, be a useful for the community and perhaps to the world and being a happy person. This is my hope, or dream or goal of my life.
I just need that God will give more health and life that I fulfilled that.
Grandparents are the best people I've ever met in my life. Always shares with them, so whether they have nearly 85 years of age or older, always share with them. And you, do the same, go talk with your grandparents, so it's for a simple greeting, but the important thing is to never forget. You will be surprised what you can do with them. For me, all those moments have been incredible, so be as the most moment boring, even so, being with them is like a second dad and mom in my life. And they, as well as what you want to do with your life, they always give for you their support.
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