darkSpyro

I'm disgusted to be related to you. I ****ing hate you with every sense of the word. All you do is piss me off and put me in a horrible, pissy mood because you're so damn ANNOYING. And I know you're doing it on purpose. That ugly, stupid ass smirk on your face proves it.

You pretty much make my parents hate me, and make them think I'm a pure ***** (they said it themselves), and of course you rarely take blame. They apparently think you're an angel. I have just fine behavior without you around. You're always the one starting it! I can't ignore it if you're always taking my electronics I bought myself and trying to break them, and trying to trip me all the time. Apparently I'm Satan to them, because of you.

You simply don't know when to STOP, and you're helpless as hell. You're 9 and you can't zip a coat? Tie a shoe? Press a button on a microwave? Put on a sock? Dress yourself? Mommy won't be there forever to help your helpless ass, princess. At least attempt to do it yourself. Hell, it's not just me either... You purposely annoy my friends on the VERY rare occasion they come over... Then she gets pissed because they're a little irritated. Just like you planned though, am I right?

I couldn't be nice to you if I tried. I never would want to either. I'm sure most people would take your side, just because you're a helpless 9 year old. But you do all this **** to me on PURPOSE. It's so bluntly obvious you're trying to make everyone hate me, and succeed. Sometimes I think the family would be happier without me... I'm sure they'd say that, too, because they think I'M the problem, not you, when YOU ARE.

I tell myself that I'm just blinded, and mad, and that I should love you like normal people, and that I'm lucky because others don't have brothers and wish they did... But the former, I don't think that's true. Even when I'm not blindingly pissed at you I still dislike you. And the latter, I'm so sorry for them, but they don't have you for a brother.
Why couldn't she keep her legs shut?????

sorry but venting helps me calm down ._.

Back at home. <.>

Dude get back to school already... You're hardly even here anymore because you skip all the damn time, I mean, I do once in a while but not three days a week (no exaggeration) like you have for the past 3 weeks...

You are free to go
No one's holding you down
No one's holding you down
You are free to go

My opinion of you has gone down dramatically. How could you treat our own mother like that, and for what, because she won't and CAN'T get you a freaking car? Because she couldn't get you one years ago? She dosen't HAVE to get you anything, and yet she even helped you get a job and said she would help you buy your own car in a few months. And then you bring that up to her when your friend can't drive you to work and nag her about it, and then get upset when she reminds you of why you're not aloud to drive Dad's car? And you DARE to try to place blame over YOUR screw up on THEM? News Flash: YOU were the one who drove like an idiot and drove the car into a ditch. I know you're sensitive about it, but you can't nag Mom about your freaking car when YOUR accident is the reason she's behind on payments. And you dare to treat her like crap when you don't get your way? Mom has feelings too, and you've been hurting her feelings more than you'll ever know, because you're too blind to the fact that you don't have a freaking car to see the pain everyone else feels. I've been feeling sorry for you lately because I know having the burden of your mistake weighing on the entire family must be hard, but you have NO place to treat Mom like that. So in thirty minutes, when Dad comes to pick you up from work, I'm not going to feel sorry for you when he chews you out. My sympathy for you ran out when you treated our mother like crap and hurt her feelings over something you don't have. As my Dad said earlier, you'd better shape up, brother dear, or you can just leave. But my parents, mainly my mother, do NOT deserve the attitude you give them.

for the first time i feel like i don't want to see you, i can't explain it. i kinda laugh at how you cause me so much emotional trauma [even though it aint your fault] and you probably don't ever think about me unless im talking to you

You are an idiot. You have to earn my respect. I am not just the other kid who is easy to manipulate and doesn't need much attention. I'm smarter than you think; I am fully aware of your scheme. But you keep treating me as if I will follow you, whatever you do. You spend your time and effort on her, and leave me be. All because I don't cause problems, I have never stood up to your act. I said those things because I was afraid. Not a single gram of feeling left my lips. But you don't even try to make an attempt to look into the inner me. You think that my "innocence" will make me spoonfeed you forgivness and respect. But it isn't happening. I don't need to enjoy my time with you for the sole fact that we're related. You have to earn it.

I say the same to you, ma'am. Did you expect me to feel better after you buy me something? I can't be bribed. You say you feel sorry for me, you say you understand. But you simply go about you business, with the exception of an occasional "I'm sorry that happened!" You have made no significant impact that would ever even BEGIN to help. Please, actually do something for once.

Did I say something? :I
.. Like.. really? Not like you can see my face.. >.>
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Um.. yes, I get you don't like my avatars.. you don't have to rub it in, we all have different tastes. But now it feels like you're being a bit much with it, like, NUH WAY I'd ever get offended
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You know what, why not you two date and go out? Don't care about me, leave me here, prove to me that you were lying, that you don't like me, I knew this whole time.
I don't care, I've got my friends who actually care about me and my feelings, you two can go and leave me now, I use to actually care (well then again I obviously still do if I'm still angry) You win, you've ruined my days, made me depressed, you won. You got the reaction you wanted, now please, just leave me alone... I'm happy again, back to my normal mood, I'm not going to let you ruin it again.

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I am getting super annoyed with people dating their friends just because they don't want to hurt their feelings, if they're your real friend, they'd understand and stay! You're offending the person you're dating because your relationship is full of lies, no one after them will not know if you truly love them! You appear like a diva who is up for anyone, even complete strangers!

(This is mostly aimed at IRL people around me, and I guess anyone who fits tha description on here too)

Oh well, forget that stuff, back to Spongebob music! ^.^b ~

"How.. Just how? How could you care so much about me!?!... All I did was hurt you for my own selfish ways.. I just don't understand how you're willing to stand by my side, hold my hand, and tell me you love me..
I really am sorry, I just.. You act as if it never happened!.. But why?.. You could just bully me like all the others.. But.. You comfort me and hold me tight?.. I don't understand!.. How could I be blessed with such a friend like you?!"

Ice Age 4 was ruined by Niki Minaj.
Seriously. I don't want to hear her crappy, autotuned music in a series I actually somewhat enjoy. Next thing I know, Justin Bieber is going to be in the next Elder Scrolls.
*This is subject to an opinion.

I just think I'm officially ready to die, at least mentally. Nobody really gives a ****. I won't be missed.

You've reminded me that I have great friends, thank you, that call really made my day, you made me laugh, happy and remind me that you're the closes friend I've ever had. I'm glad I still have you, I can always go to you, you always see my views and take interest in my things even if you're completely different to me, I've almost made you a Classic Spyro fan because of AHT. It was so awesome talking to you again.

I want my life to end in the quickest, and most painless way possible, without it involving anyone else.

Well, Kurui has failed to comply with the Cease and Desist order, so game on b*tch.

it's fine if you don't want to talk to me, but could you at least say it to my face instead of saying you have to go?

you're too young to deal with this stuff

Sometimes I feel like there are too many broines and "swag" people out there

Quote: Spyrobaro

..........Are you just going to not respond? Are you just gonna let my heart rip itself apart piece by piece and let my self-esteem wither away?

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This is a semi-complicated thing that I don't think you have the full story of. Don't know where to begin though.

A topic seems unnecessary. Feedback would be nice about that one since it's not as basic as one might think (yet not as complex).

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I'm afraid of being judged from here on out, and any criticism I make being seen as simply a result of jealousy or spite. I feel like I've stained myself permanently from here on out and that I won't be "forgiven".

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Happy now?

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You aren't very good at your job.

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You aren't very good at your job and it's the honest truth. I buttered it up for then and tried to keep it the least offensive I could've but I really don't think you're good at it. At least not for this particular thing. Maybe if you shifted you would do better. But this one just isn't for you. You're far too emotional for this.

And don't even ****ing think about doing what I think you would do.

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You aren't very good at your job and you're too serious for this. Calm the **** down and quit closing everything.

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I'm going to keep your word on that, and will be watching to make sure that what I believe isn't the case.

And thanks for saying that. It means much more to me than you think.

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Thanks for being the one friend that wouldn't leave me alone while I wasn't here.

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Thanks for being the one friend that wouldn't let me fall apart or give up while going there.

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Are we twins???

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I can't even look at your ****ing posts anymore. They make me feel that much like ****. And I know it's pathetic, but hey, I'm a pathetic person so it's not like I have anything to lose.

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Maybe I'm still not over it.

i hate your melodramaticism

I HATE YOU TOO.

i hate you too !!!! but that wasn't directed at you so shoo

Quote: Carmelita Fox

i hate your melodramaticism

well im sorri but I AM THE NIGHT

do i have to get carly simon to sing you two a song

This is one of those cases where I actually know the context behind the post. <.<;

omg i am idiot.

Quote: X-Treme

omg i am idiot.

Yay! Welcome to the derp club!

Really Kurui? I found out you've been lying, you're a fake. You try to tell people I'm Brittany, when we both know damn well I'm not. We were all in a Skype call, and unless I hired a 22yr old girl then stfu. Use Nanina In any likeness and I WILL file a lawsuit. You've failed to comply with the cease and desist order, so this is your last warning you lying succubus.

Quote: Jaggedstar

Quote: X-Treme

omg i am idiot.

Yay! Welcome to the derp club!

lol.~

why are you so snappish now? I thought we were friends??

Hehehe, all these tracks from the Spongebob Movie game is making me so happy <3

Maybe some day I'll tell the actual reason why I avoid Skype...

I'm sure there's people who can guess.

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Not alone.
No, definitely not alone. Don't get your mind wrapped up in such a lie...

Quote: Wild

Maybe some day I'll tell the actual reason why I avoid Skype...

I'm sure there's people who can guess.

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Not alone.
No, definitely not alone. Don't get your mind wrapped up in such a lie...

i can tell you my reason. i my parents dont even know im here, so random skyping will freek em out.

Quote: Wild

Maybe some day I'll tell the actual reason why I avoid Skype...

is it deep and psychological

im really worried that day is gonna come, the day i have to say goodbye. ill probably overthink it and get worried. i hope it won't come to this,ill probably just amke you feel awkward. i really hope it doesn't come to this

Quote: Carmelita Fox

Quote: Wild

Maybe some day I'll tell the actual reason why I avoid Skype...

is it deep and psychological

POTENTIALLY

Quote: Wild

Quote: Carmelita Fox

Quote: Wild

Maybe some day I'll tell the actual reason why I avoid Skype...

is it deep and psychological

POTENTIALLY

GAHASP.

What a great day to get organized and get stuff done. :'D

why am i so bad at writing

aAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaa

Quote: X-Treme

Quote: Jaggedstar

Quote: X-Treme

omg i am idiot.

Yay! Welcome to the derp club!

lol.~

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Life sucks.

Quote: Rand O M

Life sucks.

blerhh

I'M SO EXCITED

What a mother you are. You used to only see me every summe and spoil me with anything i wanted. Now i never see you. I havent seen you for 2 years and to some that is a short time, but for a kid who needs his parents to care for him and needs them to tell him how great he is, its long. I put myself down everyday, telling my self im not worth spit. Insisting that im ugly and useless. Saying that i have no skills and sucks at everything. But you woudn't know this would you? You dont even know my favorite color, what i like to eat, or even how i act. You call maybe once a year, twice if im lucky. Yet you have the nerve to say you love me. You have the neeve to try and buy my love. You have the nerve to ask for me to live with you. I will never live with someone who dosen't love me. You can not buy my love. You can give me everything you can buy, games, pokemon, hunger games things, even a car, but all i want from you is love. When i was little and i didnt get what i wanted, i always would tell my dad that i wished i lived with my mom because i knew it hurt him. Now i know why it hurt him. How can his son want to live with a women like that and not with me? Now i have to deal with these thoughts and emotions everytime my father mentions you on the phone. What kind of mother dosen't even call her son ON HIS BIRTHDAY! YOU NEVER CALL ME! YOU DONT CALL ME ON CHRISTMAS, VALENTINES DAY, OR MY BIRTHDAYS. IF I WERE TO DIE RIGHT NOW, I BET YOU WOUDN'T EVEN GO TO MY FUNERAL! I live i my gandma and even though i love her very much, i still need my parents. I know my dad loves me very much. I know why he lives in North Dakota and i live in New York. Im fine with it and i never think that he hates me. He texted me after he had to leave after my birthday to go back to ND saying that he loves me and it pains him to leave me. Do you do this? I bet not. I should take a dartboard and put your picture on it and use it for practice. Then you would at least be helpful in helping me practice my dartrowing skills. I once thought you were a wonderful person. But now, when i think of you, all i can think of is broken promises, heartbreak, and hatred. I am ashemed to call you a mother. You don't deserve it. When people mention you, i just sit and dont say anythi about it. When my dad mentions you and asked if you call, i just say no and say nothing else until he changes the subject. I hope your happy being a poker dealer and having to move from apartment to apartment.

I guess it can come to a slow boil such as this:

Sometimes you have to move on.

Sometimes you have to push it all away in order to realize where you are.

You become so focused, so devoted, and to what extend do you stretch?

How far?

You're bound to break, sometimes, snap back and backfire on yourself.

You're bound to wither in some places and grow in others.

However, is there one thing? What's holding you back from moving forward?

The same thing you swore to protect, to follow...a standard you have composed...in the end, it's a fabrication. A very real fabrication, it's almost like you can feel it...but you can burn it still, you can turn away.

It takes a lot of sheer will to do that.

Attachment will be a raw source of your unhappiness and sometimes there's walls you have to build again.

Is there a point you become blind?

Is there a point this blindness will also fail you...

...that when you start seeing clearly again, it's just in time to see it all crumble?

Is it worth it, maybe?

It's up to you.

Dear friend.