crystalhero37
Platinum Sparx
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#3534 Posted: 05:21:16 19/02/2013
*Omg CH is posting another thought, like, that's totally new*
I've realised, no matter what, I'll never get your attention back. You'll forever be nice and caring for others but me. Only that one person makes you happy, I want you to be happy. I'd rather you live a happier life never talking to me again then a depressed one where we talk and be 'friends forever'.
Good bye. Please keep smiling, never let anyone put you down or treat you like an outsider, because you are a great person who I am honoured and really glad to have met and be friends with one point, you may have caused me anger and ruined my year basically, but it was mostly me over-reacting, I'll be shocked you still like me now.
I know you find me annoying, no matter how many times you say I'm not, I know you do, your actions towards me compared to everyone else is solid proof.
You shouldn't treat me like this, but I shouldn't be the one giving you the power with my reactions, it was what you wanted.
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Meanwhile, I have great, better friends, who have actually cared about my mood, who actually react and care about me, who talk to me about it, they only care about my mood, not their own, they care about their friends, they cheer me up, try to prove me wrong when I put down myself, they have always been there, and I wonder what I have done in return, you have no idea how thankful I am for you guys to be my friends. I want to be more like you. Thank you so much, and I hope I can somehow pay up to be a good friend myself, you deserve better.
And to some, I act and winge that 'Wahh you don't care ;__;' when, you do. Maybe some have stopped because of that, I don't blame them.
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Alright, that's it, looking back on what I've posted, I've just been selfish and thinking about myself! I've been feeling sorry for myself, even when I talk to others, it's all 'Me, me, me, poor me, misery, blah' no wonder why I feel ignored sometimes! Well, now I'm going to shut up (Or try) and think and talk about how great everyone else is, I do, I just don't show it enough! I will try to from now on.
I'm so sorry for big post... I'm just so confused and muddled up in my own thoughts, it's like four brains in one person talking.
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