Sparky: CHEESE!
Star: Not again.
Ruby: Talk, talk, talk!
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#651 Posted: 04:28:54 09/09/2011
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#652 Posted: 20:24:45 09/09/2011
cynd: I am back!With no clue what is going on...
Skyburst: Something's going to happen to Laurie's eyes? cynd: Why did you read it!? Skyburst: I'm allowed to!
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#653 Posted: 23:25:05 09/09/2011
Shinma; Somethings going to happen to Laurie....something that changes her....
Laurie: I DONT WANNA ANYMORE!!! *hides behind Skyburst* Shinma; o.o Rio: I shall keep my depression to myself then....and unless you know my life you shall never see why I am like this,and have been scince I was around 7 years of age
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#654 Posted: 00:18:50 10/09/2011
^But....why?
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#655 Posted: 02:56:27 10/09/2011
cynd: I understand that,Blue.No one will ever understand why I cry so much and am so sad and quiet until they experience my life.
Skyburst: Why would you want to change her?If it's a good change,that's probably fine,but you can't do anything bad!I won't let you! cynd: Ooooh,protective Skyburst. Skyburst: I protect my friends,cynd.
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#656 Posted: 04:15:00 10/09/2011
Shinma; The changes we think of are never good...
Laurie: Dont let her near me Skyburst!! *clings to Skyburst* Rio: Just fake a smile around those who beleive they understand....'cause they never will...
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#657 Posted: 06:26:52 10/09/2011 | Topic Creator
I'm very frustrated. Oh my gawsh, DUDE. I have a f--kin' hard life, too. You think I never just want to lay down and die? But these thoughts of getting rid of the stress and the pain ... they scare me. "Why do I feel this way?" I wonder. It scares me and annoys me and bothers me every moment. I stay awake every day and every night thinking of all the times I've screwed something up. Reliving everything I can remember until I'm nearly crying. It makes my stomach turn. I feel so nervous and sad and frustrated that I've ruined so many things. I feel like I have to hurt something! Make it feel the pain that I emotionally feel physically. My stories, my drawings, my mind, my paradise of imagination, corupted by violent thoughts of death and blood. But who gives a DAMN about me? NOBODY. But I rarely complain.
So don't complain your life is messed up. There's somebody out there having a worse time than you or I. Keep that in mind before you give up on life. |
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#658 Posted: 16:03:34 10/09/2011
Quote: CinderLover
0.0 I sort of feel the same way when I was younger. Then I just sucked it up and said "Screw this!" and I got better. And I survived up untill that point because I knew that living could give you so many oppertunites- you just have to wait for it. And that's exactly what happened. Even the people that used to bully me around are now good friends of mine.
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#659 Posted: 17:59:53 10/09/2011
cynd: *sighs* Yeah,I know.I force myself to think that,but it just never works.I do that too.Remember all the times my parents yelled at me,all the times I just felt horrible,all the times I hurt someone and made them cry.My life is like the song "Because of You".I'm always afraid.I'm afraid of failure,of just everything.I used to have a fine life.Now my happiness has been killed.
Skyburst: Well don't change her,then! Why do you have to toy around with her life if yours is bad?Even if we are all made up,we have feelings. Nina: Why are we on the subject of sadness again? Ally: Eh,it always happens.Just deal with it.
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#660 Posted: 18:09:49 10/09/2011 | Topic Creator
It's because Rio is depressed, and that sucks the joy out of everything and reminds us how sad we really are (sorry, but once depression was brought up, joy ran for the hills).
But you know what I feel MOST horrible about? My uncle committed suicide recently. But ... I didn't feel bad. I didn't cry, I didn't feel lonely. Nothing? Shouldn't I be sad? Shouldn't I feel like there's a huge part taken from my life?? My mom says it's because I didn't know him well. But that's no excuse! He's still family!! URG, IT'S DRIVING ME INSANE!!! |
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#661 Posted: 18:57:45 10/09/2011
Woah,that's not good.No one in my family has died yet.Well,alot have died,but not while I lived.I dread the day my grandma's gonna die.It's hard to think about,but I know it's coming cuz she smokes.*sighs* Depression DOES suck the fun out of everything.I remember at my sister's party.We were all having a fabulous time,then,like,three people got hurt and cried.I had a gray cloud hanging over my head until my two bestest friends showed up.Now I get what friendship is.It actually taught me something at least.I just can't believe that they always place every blame on my neighbor when someone gets hurt.Seriously,that's just freakin' unfair!I never know how to brighten my day,though.
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#662 Posted: 19:32:08 10/09/2011 | Topic Creator
I went to my friend's birthday party ... and for at least 20 minutes everyone there was sobbing ...
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#663 Posted: 20:57:35 10/09/2011
Here is a look into my life,why Im so unstable....not many of the people I have dubbed as friends know this....I have spoilered it just in case you dont want to read it....
When I was 7 my aunty went insane,I was locked in her house with her and my mother.....the next day doctors from out of town came and took my Aunty away....my mother went with then and I didnt see her for a week.I thought that she was gone for good.I barely saw my Aunty from then on.... Scince then I have had many friends with mental problems....so i take it upon myself to try and stop them from endidng up the least bit like my aunty.One of them has a depression and often talks of killing herself,I was fine Until I was dubbed by my teachers as her guardian.... She often left class under the lie 'Im going to the counsellor'.Then the teachers would send me out to get her.....no matter what the weather.And if I came back to get the other girk who helped me keep it together they would yell at me.The last time that happened I snapped and told my English Teacher,"I am a student!I was just trying to complete my school work!I am going to see if I can help my friend,but I need help to get her back.GO GET SOMEONE WHO CAN HELP HER!" (Surprisingly I am still his favourite student) A few months ago my cousin was hit by a truck,I thought she was dead.....and I realised that other than my mother she was the person i was closest to in my famliy...when i found out she was fine,I sked my mother if I could skip school and go visit her in hospital....when we got there we started talking to my aunty...and now she has lept back into my life like nothing happened,like she had only been away a week....
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#664 Posted: 21:06:43 10/09/2011 | Topic Creator
For one thing, having an insane aunt is horrible. Why the HELL were you locked in with her for a week?
Why do you hang around people with mental problems? That'll cause bad things to happen to you. Proven fact of normalization. But trying to help them is a good deed, and I honor you. Why'd they dump her on you ...? Why not get her some more help? Tragic, really. You say your cousin is fine, now, and that's good. |
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#665 Posted: 21:12:45 10/09/2011
1) it wasnt a week,it was 2 days....but when the doctors left I waited for a week which seemed like an eternity...
2) Its not like when you first meet them they say 'Hi,I have a mental problem!' I habg out wiht them becuase they are my close friends... 3) I DONT KNOW ;________;
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#666 Posted: 21:21:20 10/09/2011 | Topic Creator
1) Ohhh, I seeeeee ...
2) Okay, I can respect that. 3) 'cause they're assholes? >.> |
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#667 Posted: 21:22:49 10/09/2011
I agree with 3....
Now you know I shall shut up
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#668 Posted: 21:26:08 10/09/2011 | Topic Creator
Why is it SO MANY PEOPLE ARE ASSHOLES?
BTW, my friend showed me this video ... now I'm mentally scarred and terrified for my life ... |
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#669 Posted: 21:28:15 10/09/2011
HA!I cant watch vids....
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#670 Posted: 21:29:09 10/09/2011 | Topic Creator
YOU ARE THE LUCKIEST PERSON ON THE PLANET RIGHT NOW.
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#671 Posted: 21:30:29 10/09/2011
lol....
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#672 Posted: 21:32:27 10/09/2011 | Topic Creator
... hmm ... I should really be doing something of importance .... meh ....
anyway, now what? |
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#673 Posted: 21:33:25 10/09/2011
I dunno,I should be studying for my Japanese test...
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#674 Posted: 23:28:29 10/09/2011
I didn't watch it.
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#675 Posted: 23:32:18 10/09/2011 | Topic Creator
You shouldn't watch it.
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#676 Posted: 23:35:04 10/09/2011
I'm not going to.
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#677 Posted: 23:40:16 10/09/2011 | Topic Creator
Good.
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#678 Posted: 00:45:14 11/09/2011
lol.....i might watch it when i go to my grandparents....
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#679 Posted: 00:50:37 11/09/2011 | Topic Creator
You may regret it.
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#680 Posted: 01:29:19 11/09/2011
the only thing I regret is not beleiving someone loved me....
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#681 Posted: 16:18:50 11/09/2011
Wow,that's just...A horrible life!Well,I know that there are worse lives.Like one of my bestest friends.She has a huge family,and they are so lucky they stayed in their house.I can't tell you guys any more,but let's leave it at that,cuz everything just gets even more worse.Arceus,I feel horrible for her and want to help her,but I don't know how.I feel like a failure,and that's one of my biggest fears.I wonder if she wants some help or not.I don't know,and I feel like I'm letting her down somehow.
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#682 Posted: 16:55:38 11/09/2011 | Topic Creator
Can we let the subject of having terrible lives drop before I draw another picture of Curly bleeding to death?
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#683 Posted: 17:26:25 11/09/2011
Right,right!Ummmm...9/11!No,that's about killing...But I'll always honor them and remember them.
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#684 Posted: 17:33:15 11/09/2011 | Topic Creator
Let's ... not talk about that ... please ...
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#685 Posted: 17:37:27 11/09/2011
Yeah,okay.Then what's there to talk about?
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#686 Posted: 17:45:46 11/09/2011 | Topic Creator
Um ... I have no idea ...
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#687 Posted: 17:52:51 11/09/2011
Exactly.I'm so bored!Like the marshmallow people!I'm listening to random songs,looking up random things on Google(lots of cat pictures when I last typed in cynder2000 ),and I'm just pretty much doing random things.I hate being bored.
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#688 Posted: 18:08:38 11/09/2011 | Topic Creator
OH MY GOSH, I'M SO BORED! (lol, here we go again!)
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#689 Posted: 19:24:37 11/09/2011
Doooooooooooooooooooooom
Laurie: Nyyyyyeeeh! Shinma: *Edges towards Laurie*
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#690 Posted: 20:23:53 11/09/2011
THE OTTER ISN'T WORKING!
Skyburst: Did it really go like that? cynd: ...No clue.That was my favorite part,though.And "Your face is pretty soft!".The way the marshmallow said it was funny!
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#691 Posted: 20:26:40 11/09/2011
I have no idea what your talking about
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#692 Posted: 20:42:06 11/09/2011
The marshmallow people!You didn't see it?THIS CALLS FOR YOUTUBE!
THE OTTER ISN'T WORKING!Ah,I love that part. Skyburst: She can't watch youtube videos,cynd. cynd: WHAT!?NOOOOOO!I must find something else,then!I MUST! Skyburst: Is it THAT important? cynd: YEEEEES!Do ya have Quick Time Player,Blue?You can watch it like that.
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#693 Posted: 20:43:03 11/09/2011
No.... sorry......
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#694 Posted: 20:47:05 11/09/2011 | Topic Creator
CL: *touching Eve's face* say ... your face is pretty soft!
Eve: We have to get out of here. CL: THE OTTER ISN'T WORKING! Eve: We NEVER get good ideas on the otter! CL: What else can we do!? Eve: WE CAN DO SOMETHING THAT ISN'T STUPID!! *shoves CL off otter* CL: *screaming* Eve: I know, we can visit cynd! -- at cynd's house -- CL: HEY, cynd! ARE YOU HOME?? |
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#695 Posted: 20:54:56 11/09/2011
Awwwww!
Fern: I'm home!
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#696 Posted: 20:57:39 11/09/2011 | Topic Creator
CL: WHOA! WHOOOAAAA!!
Eve: Yeah, you're the BORING PERSON. CL: We want the one who isn't TERRIBLE!! |
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#697 Posted: 20:59:19 11/09/2011
Laurie: thats not nice
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#698 Posted: 21:00:52 11/09/2011
We're acting out Marshmallow people.I gotta be the guy!
Fern: Aw,but I'm fun!
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#699 Posted: 21:04:11 11/09/2011 | Topic Creator
(Curly will now take the part of Gray Marshmallow. Eve and Fern still have their parts, I guess. X3)
Eve: NO!! NO YOU ARE NOT!! |
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#700 Posted: 21:13:02 11/09/2011
(You forgot the "Woah,my face IS soft!". Ah,well,just pretend it happened.)
cynd: *comes riding an explosive flying surfboard* YEAH,CYNDANGULAR( Sounds wierd.)!*jumps off of flying surfboard and it explodes* I JUST SURFED AROUND THE WORLD!BD
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