darkSpyro

I'm just completely done with you, and the sooner I am out of here, and have my own place, the better. Even if my own place HAS to mean my grave, yes, I'd rather die than live this way any longer.

You are ignorant beyond compare. The other day, when I was crying, something I NEVER do unless it's for someone else, and even then it's incredibly rare - I thought maybe that things might get a little better, that you were going to understand my position, and not butt heads with me so much.

But the very next day, and onward, you just completely turn around and everything you said feels like a lie. I'm not sure if I can trust you again. I'm not sure if I'll trust other people close to me anymore. How can I, when I can't even trust my own mother anymore?

I've told you what the problem is countless times, I've told you why I am struggling, and why my grades are slipping. But you just keep arguing and saying that's not the problem, that that problem is that I'm not working hard enough. I'm sorry, but I've worked my butt off, probably more than I should. And there are people who don't work NEARLY as hard as me, and get better grades. And that's the problem with your entire way of thinking - your train of thought is so black and white. You think way too simply.

And let's pretend for a second that I am doing fine in school, and that I'll get the marks I need to get into a college course - how am I supposed to pay for it? I can't get a summer job, not with these mock results.
And that wouldn't matter, if it weren't for the fact that I forked out my entire life's savings to you so you could pay for this completely unnecessary house renovation that actually made it HARDER to do the study I wanted to do for a period of time, as well as a games console for my siblings. Yes, I did want a Wii U - eventually. And I do love the thing now that I have it. But I don't play it all that much at all. I only ever turn it on for system updates and to build up free downloads. Why? Because I'm too busy studying.
And my two siblings don't even use it either. But nope, you listened to their spoilt demands at Christmas and made me pay for that too. Again, I know you were trying to give us a nice Christmas present, but the thing is, I paid for the damn thing. Not you. ON TOP of those house renovations, it cost me my life's savings. I was keeping that for college. But it's all gone. Not to mention all of the money you borrowed from me over the course of my life, and the money you are STILL borrowing. You literally asked for more money off of me minutes ago.

Forget my wildest dreams, I'm out of a basic living because of you. I highly doubt I'll do well in the Leaving Cert too, so that's not gonna save me. And YES, I AM right to blame the awful design of the thing, as well as other things, because I HAVE worked by butt off, and it got me nowhere. And I don't care if the teachers are going to side with you, a representative of Microsoft agrees with me, and gave a freaking college lecture on the thing. Of course the teachers are going to defend the exam system, they are mindless drones of the government who don't give a crap about how I do, other than it making them look bad if I don't do well. All they care about is their pay check. You saw the strikes that happened, you should know.

I'm just completely sick of your ignorance and really, I've only scratched the surface.
Oh, and by the way, I know about the time you smoked hash while on holidays with us. That's illegal here. You do realise that your ass would be in jail of if I mentioned that to the teachers in school, right? And not to mention all of the times you're out partying and drinking.

Also, I'm no longer your little trophy. I never was a son to you. I was just a trophy to make you look good.

So yeah - you're a good housewife, but a terrible mother. That's how I see it now.