darkSpyro

some days i just wake up and i feel angry about myself

Despite everything, I still wish you a fulfilling and happy life.

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There’s gotta be something I can do...

lol why am i such an idiot. i always have to do idiotic things when there is no reason to do idiotic things.

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oh god im gonna eat **** and fail

It's getting harder and harder to believe in myself.

One day I'll lose, and I lose everything will turn away from me, like I didn't exist, I'll fade away. I'm trying so hard to stop it, I'm crying so hard to please stop it. But each day, I look and see, as if that me in the photograph that's faded, and will... Disappear from... Everything.

Maybe if something were to happen I could be someone again, at least something... Or maybe if I go before it happens, then I won't have to deal with the misery.

This has been a roller coaster of a week so far. I've gotten dumped by the love of my life, then later the same day, I get accepted into one of the colleges I wanted to go to. The next day I was in an awful mood thanks to not getting sleep, but later in the day, my ex tells me she still cares about me and she wants to remain friends. Then just now I turned in my first job application to a place I'm almost guaranteed a job.
It's definitely been a hell of a week to say the least.

lol i doubt anyone will notice

Every day I get one step closer to the answer of my pondering; should I just have a cynical outlook on life?

The answer appears to be yes.

i hate my job bc 90% of the people i work with are lazy assholes and i hate my boss and why do people gotta be like that. honestly i hate people. they will **** you over and take advantage of you as soon as they get a chance to. i bust my ass just so people can stand there and eat for 20 minutes and not do their job. the people that actually work hard here get screwed over by ungrateful lazy people. the same is true outside of work. i wish people weren't assholes.

God, I need a break.

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With every day that passes, I feel even more like an irredeemable monster... There needs to be some sort of light at the end of the tunnel. Some way to undo everything I ****ed up.
If only miracles were possible. ****.

i should stop going to cons if they all end in disappointment like this one

****ing god i left because of this **** i really dont want to deal with it here!!!! :)

I don't really want to go, but have too

My depression and anxiety is too much

I don't want to go in public please...

Stop being hypocritical, please

What's in your head?

God I feel like **** today...

thanos pls snap me out of existence

I don't give a flying **** if you left because of me

I am my own person and there ain't jack you can do about it

all of a sudden i get hit with a **** ton of nostalgia uh

Actually it was because being there gave me anxiety.I decided to do what’s best for me instead of forcing myself to stay.

And my earlier posts haven’t even been about you. That was about something else entirely, something that happened at work

I really wish you'd listen to your daughter.

Your wife can't be reasoned with. But you.....Maybe there's a part of you that can still be reached.

You watched me grow up with her. You've known me since I was knee-high to you.

Come on. Come on.

Alright then cool, I spend this whole week studying for a quiz, and then suddenly, surprise test! Which has none of the material we were studying for currently


I'm honestly done with this place

Why am I still feeling like this? It isn't wrong, it's not. I love him, and he loves me, and we're happy together. So why am I still feeling like this?

My god, I'm so glad I met you.

I know it's really petty to be upset about, but all I wanted was one game for my birthday. Normally I have a list but this year I just wanted one thing, and then you tell me "oh i didnt get you any games at all". I get it 21 is supposed to be a 'special' birthday but the cliche stuff you get people turning 21 wouldn't work for me. I cant drive, so a car is out of the picture. What could you have gotten to make is 'special'? I'm freaking out a lot about this, and I know it's stupid but I don't like thinking about this one being different. This one shouldn't be. I almost didn't make it to this one, please just let it be a normal one. Not special at all. Please.

See, this is why I don’t talk about my ****ing feelings irl.
I’ve been struggling with this issue way longer than you have. So tell me, why am I the one looking for a solution, and you the hopeless one? If anything the roles should be reversed. You’ve some damn nerve telling me there’s no solution, when you’ve put up with way less **** than me. But that’s just fine, I’ll fix my own problem by myself for myself on my own terms. Wallow in your sadness for all the **** I care.

i wish i just didn't care so much.

oh my **** i'm exhausted
this. is. why. i. don't. do. parties.

Coming out doesn't change who I am.
Coming out doesn't change who I am.
Coming out doesn't change who I am.
Coming out doesn't change who I am.
Coming out doesn't change who I am.
Coming out doesn't change who I am.
Coming out doesn't change who I am.
Coming out doesn't change who I am.
Coming out doesn't change who I am.
Coming out doesn't change who I am.
Coming out doesn't change who I am.


How many times do I have to tell myself that before I believe it.....?

raised by narcissists lol dude

This will be good change unless said otherwise

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wow i am really not capable of handling this stress

I really can't believe all three of you can't get your **** together to make your children's life better. Hell, two of you have flaws that nearly make you guys bad people.

Why does it always have to be this way when the pressure to impress is eliminated as a factor in these equations. Well there is nothing I can do about it without being ethically and morally at least questionable. So it is just better to let it evolve as it has meant to be and drown the demons when they arrive.

If you can't teach a class properly, do another profession.

Not being able to teach only causes the suffering of hundreds of young kids, as long as yourself.

i had six hours of sleep and feel like ****

School is being a massive ball of nightmare-inducing stress. Yet somehow I don't feel bad.

That's your fault, isn't it?

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5char

I swear to god, these scam calls are going to launch my blood pressure into orbit

tfw you wanna send someone memes but realise you don't speak to them anymore