darkSpyro

I feel like I've gained a hundred pounds and it's only been a week since I quit smoking.

These next four years I need to step my ass up.

I hate being a teenager.

I acted like an immature one the past two or so years, but actually being one...man. How do people deal with this for six more years-.

Everyone’s left...

I contribute nothing to all conversations I am a part of

WHY DO I EVEN OWN THIS GAME AT THIS POINT IF ALL THEYRE GONNA DO IS RUIN IT FURTER
I WANNA BREAK THE ****ING CARTRIDGE IN HALF

i dont think im okay
but ill smile and ill pretend because its easier and maybe one day it will be real enough.

I done ****ed up again.

.......don't do this to me

Treating me like a piece of meat while I was under the influence. Very classy move, indeed. There are no benefits when dealing with me, and given the context you already chose a battle and war you cannot win. Advantage is nice when you have it, right? Walking on door mats and all that. Damn it.

meh..

"Your boyfriend is free to stay at our house, of course! But he's sleeping in the guest room - no exceptions."

Oh, I'm sorry for expressing myself with something I think is funny, even if it generally unknown


I guess every single person has to like everything I do if I want to do that things I guess, jesus christ

Actually about someone on here. I’m really glad you stayed with me yesterday and today. I’ve been feeling really alone and suicidal again and it’s great to know someone actually cares. I’m sorry if it seems like I distance myself, I’m just scared I’m gonna get left like the dozen or so times I have been before. But it feels nice to have an actual friend again. It’s been a while

I don't want anyone to see this, I'm mess, no one should see a mes

it hus it all hurts


don't do it, i don;t want to do st please stop please stop plas

i need to shut up and keep to myself

I hope I don’t sound entitled but... Why am I not good enough for anyone? I try so hard to keep people happy. I just want to feel loved for once. I want to matter...

god i hate seeing you around, youre not ****ing funny stop acting like youre the most popular ***** in the room

AHHHHH I got Honorable Mention in the cosplay contest and the judges loved my costume and loved me and said i'm their upcoming and said they see potential in me and are so happy to see my progress and i'm dying

I'm out, I'm done

everything in me screams
go home
i am home though, or this should be 'home'

i have a bad feeling about this... i hope you'll be okay.

what a great feeling

and thus begins my withdrawal back into myself so i can be left alone

I must be really weak if I'm legitimately getting depressed over this... well, maybe not exactly depressed as such, but I'm definitely thinking way too much on this. Maybe I should try finding a way to bring this up sometime and sort this out? Yeah, but it's just so ridiculous, I shouldn't explain why I want to know at least. Ah well. Anyway, I have much more important things to worry about right now.

Time to get ready for workout hell

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I'M TOTALLY DOOMED

my rational brain: "things will be okay"
the anxiety cabin that is the rest of my brain: "DOOOOMED! WE'RE DOOMED!"

I don’t deserve the friends I have. I suck at returning the favor and being a good socializer to people. I suck. I deserve to be alone

we dont have class today
sorry, but youd know if you ever ****ing came to it

Almost a day has passed and I'm still worrying about it. Why? Am I really this weak? I have so much better things to do...

I like you a lot, please don't stop talking to me...We were having such a good talk and I just hope I didn't do something wrong...I just hope you message me back today...

i'm really enjoying the discord low key

Oh, so when I call you out on your BS, now it's joking

What? I'm not allowed to be in a bad mood and want to be left alone? I have to let you butt in and risk me getting pissed at you too, when I wasn't before? Why can't you just accept the fact that I work differently than you, and prefer to do things differently? All the times you've come screaming to me about everything that slightly inconveniences you, and me calmly and politely asking you to just leave me alone for a little bit one time is enough for you to block me? Fine. If you're not going to be mature about it, then **** you too.

why do i ever talk

yo i just found out all my issues are probably caused by hashimoto's hypothyroidism and im shook. like what if the hormone pillies make me normal and i dont have to get botox injections or anything anymore

Me: I might not be able to verbalise when I come home after these events because of -gives reasons-
Mother: That's fine
Me: -thinks- oh things might be getting better
Mother: as long as you come say hello and engage in small talk with me as soona s you get home from those events
Me: ah....

I haven't been able to get you out of my mind lately. Well it is what it is. A bit too late for damage control now, right? Or has any damage been made at all? Yep, that seems about right.

Hell and fire and PAIN

basically me rn

What even was today?

In about 12 hours I won't feel my legs from running

Maybe it is the chemicals in my brain going berserk because I am tired but if I could choose otherwisely the response a handful of years ago, I wouldn't do it. It was a regular response to a message and its included question which did lead to chain reaction that I enjoyed very much. Thank you for it since it was you who initiated it all. But in the end it was a one-way-one-lane street that only you did travel while I forgot about what matters. My apologiea...

Here's a video showing what the inside of my brain looks like this weekend if tiny people ran it like that one episode in spongebob

Why do I have to be such an awkward idiot sometimes?

It's just constant reminders...

i frakked up so bad, how am i going to fix this?

Oh, that's nice