darkSpyro

omg my boyfriend is telling me how he had rescue dogs that came from a ***** that fed her puppies antifreeze and hung them how can people be so messed up. her kid takes in stray cats and shoots them. i hate people. die. die. die.

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Respect Level for People:-30%

I keep trying to type out how I'm feeling hoping that it will make me feel better but I just can't ****ing get my thoughts together. I don't even know what I want to say. I just feel really alone right now. A weird kind of alone. I have friends I could talk to, I have people I could go hang out with or whatever. But I don't know that any of them really care to understand what I'm going through right now. I don't want to feel like a burden anymore. I'm really lost.

im scared b/c i have to go off my meds for a few days.

i doubt anything'll happen. i was off of them for almost 13 years without incident. going 3 or 4 days shouldn't be anything..

still...

Ironic, coming from you.

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It's... It's starting up again...

Please, please go away, I don't want to cry or think those thoughts again, please make it go away... Don't do this again...

No, I should, I don't want to, there are good things, please my existence isn't a nuisance, why? Why do I have to fight myself every time, fight against death.

Why... Why...

Why have you gotten so angry with me lately? I wish you’d explain, I’m really confused. And you’ve been so nice to me too, I don’t want you to be mad...

Dead inside

I feel so anxious and i have no idea why, i feel like my chest is going to cave in. Why cant I just calm down

i have crippling depression

If this child, my goddamn cousin, ends up as bad, if not worse than me on a mental/emotional level, it’s 100% your fault. And if it does happen, you’d best be ready to take responsibility. Prick.

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I wish you were here, I really do.

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Hey, involving me was bull****, don’t drag me into this **** again just because y’all are angry and I just happen to be in the room, on my phone, minding my own business.

If they don't support your art because it breaks their aesthetic they're not the one

I hate living

Sometimes I force myself to see our old interactions in a worse light so that it's harder to miss you. Why did you have to turn out like this?

why are you such a ***** literally all the time

Honestly? I don’t like it when you’re home, and you’re in a bad mood.

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I can't wait to (metaphorically) hold you again

You're my shooting star

that wasnt fun at all ;~;
i guess thats just what i get for getting overconfident in my abilities and getting ****stomped back down to my rightful level of "bad so why even try"

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I can only hope you’re being honest. This is a very confusing situation, and I can’t tolerate another elaborate lie. If you care about me as much as you say you do, you’ll tell the truth.

Goddamn it.


Ugh.

I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.

tbh youre not funny

can!!! Monday!!!! Just!!!! Be!!! Here!!!! Already!!!!!!!!

a day alone is best, otherwise i'll be snappy and that's just not right.

I'm definitely going to regret it, but it's for the better.

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Ugh... I’m an idiot. Heart is in the right place, but **** I’m stupid

"I'll go to bed after the end of this."


*walking the dog back home,and sees the same person"

Me: Where are you going?

"Getting a bottle of wine"


Me:

Kind of worried because pretty much everyone I've friended hasn't been on the site for a good 2 weeks as far as I've seen(which is quite a lot I might mention)

I shouldn't have said anything. Out of all of the things to spill, that was the one thing I should have just kept to myself.

If anything, I'd rather talk to a complete stranger about it than a close friend, it wouldn't hurt like this.

youre 18. act like it.

We haven't changed much, have we? At this spot again, the same problems happening... I want to talk it out but I guess it just won't ever happen. I really do have to let go this time, it's on me.

Actually having you hold my soda would probably fix my sleep schedule so thanks for that honestly.

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Why do I get the good art hits me at 1am-ish things or good memey ideas hit me and other people at night?

i feel so bad i accidentally co2 gassed my one tank the fish in that tank were given to me by a friend and she wanted me to take good care of them. and the one time i didn't pay attention to the co2 system is when it goes ape**** while im at the gym. i feel so bad. the betta in that tank was so beautiful. swim in peace fiji i lost a lot of fish today

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omg im not even kidding. if i EVER get cut off of botox from my insurance or something i will literally kms bye lol

every time i think about maybe being friends with you, you prove that youre more and more mean spirited every day
do you even try to be nice to people?

Once I have nothing...

I can become it myself

I didn't even need to do anything, and it happens.

it's 5:14 a.m I just heard a gunshot close by

i go back for more botox injections in july and im such a weak ass i couldn't even look last time
it's not even that bad but ooofofofofof i hate needles. i got my blood taken a few weeks ago and i never got it taken so i was cringing at the needle but i didn't even feel it. theyre just so scary.

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I DID IT!!!

pointless whining