darkSpyro

Quote: Bolt

you're so amazing. i wish i could tell you that

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and i need to stop thinking about the future. enjoy what you have now. things will be okay, you'll get the work done in time. and even if you don't, there's always next year. it's not the end.
things will be okay next year. they'll take you back, you're good at art, you'll be fine ... things will be okay.

This.

blech

i wish i could take ibuprofen for this headache.

****ing meds.

Why is this morning going at a snail's pace?

I keep looking up at the clock expecting it to be around 1 o'clock but it's not even 10:30.

I mean, I'm not complaining. Having a slow, relaxing morning for once is really nice.

i have this weird habit where i kind of pick at my gums and stab at them because it feels good. like it hurts but it feels good and its addictive. once i start its hard to stop. and when i do finally stop i spit straight blood into the sink. i have no idea what starts it in the first place but im currently trying to stop lol im an idiot

So it's pride month... maybe I should care... or just hide away as usual... hm

Quote: kardonis

So it's pride month... maybe I should care... or just hide away as usual... hm

I kinda struggle with this. I like to think of myself as an ally but I want to do more besides share stuff on social media. There's not much pride stuff going on in my town.

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Quote: Metallo

Quote: kardonis

So it's pride month... maybe I should care... or just hide away as usual... hm

I kinda struggle with this. I like to think of myself as an ally but I want to do more besides share stuff on social media. There's not much pride stuff going on in my town.

More like considering coming out to some friends and family, but I dunno, finding the courage is hard...

Quote: Metallo

Quote: kardonis

So it's pride month... maybe I should care... or just hide away as usual... hm

I kinda struggle with this. I like to think of myself as an ally but I want to do more besides share stuff on social media. There's not much pride stuff going on in my town.

Perhaps it just varies from place to place? I know D.C. hosts a big Gay Pride Parade every year. And it's over all a very Gay Friendly city.

It really unnerves me that you trick people for money and don't even care.

I ****ing wish I can just sleep at will.

Why couldn’t I just let go?

Now this is going to be really ****ing awkward

I hope this moving away thing isn't an empty promise.

Never in my life have I heard the question "does it go in the freezer" when someone is presented with a ****ing carton of ice cream. Thanks dad for the most "no **** idiot" question.

Thanks, I appreciate it.

Okay I think i just had the biggest mood swing I ever had but I think I'm ok now???? Come on I can't let it get to me. I have a brilliant future ahead of me if I just focused. I can do this.

It really is a talent of yours to say awful things to people that makes them feel terrible. And it seems no one is an exception to that.

whore!!!!

That took a lot of effort, but I did it. So relieved they took it well. Really helps my self esteem.

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Almost to my 5 year anniversary of being on this site and I officially lost my last friend on here last week. Great time. Not sure if I'll make it to 5 years

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Oh yeah thanks for reminding me that you ****ing borrowed my top coat and never brought it back because you lent it to someone else and they ****ing lost it. Firstly not your ****ing item to lend to people. Secondly, you're responsible for it's return or replacement so if you want my god damn top coat, go ****ing ask mom where the **** she put it, you whore.

I really hate it when people call me bad things like racist and sexist just because I don't like certain movies/tv shows.

yes ok you’ve told everyone like 3 times that you’re on diet. i garuntee you that nodoby cared the first time.

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WHY DO GOOD THINGS HAVE TO COME TO AN END?

I’m really sorry... I feel so bad for hurting you so terribly like this, but there’s nothing I can do right now. It just won’t work...

Why do all the things I'm looking forward to feel so far away?

ugh I don’t want to get up lol

Why is it that even with all these ideas and all these projects all I want to do it eat and watch youtube every day?

I'm done giving a ****. that's all I'll say. I'm ****ing done.

I’ve seen so much talk about art styles in the current animation landscape that I’m starting think if I should change how I draw, significantly or something.

I’m definitely not happy with how anything looks, especially my own two OCs

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This just keeps going downhill. Are things ever going to get better? Every day it's just more bad news, disappointments and worry.

Why can't it be september already...

Being sick is dumb.

It seems like she's just kinda accepted it, which makes me happy. I don't have to feel guilty or bad over seeing you, i shouldn't have to ever.

I’m not squeamish but... what came out of there?

doesnt get talked to: omg i dont care if you hate me
person talks them:omg i love you <3

By all accounts I had a bad day, but I don’t feel terrible or depressed or anything.

Progress! I’m dealing with my emotions in a healthy way

I looked through them...

I shouldn't have, buuut I did, and all I gotta say is that I made so many mistakes back then, wish I could've apologized for so much I had done to those people now.

But the best thing I can do? The best thing I can do so none of that gets set back is remember what was done and not repeat it, learn from those mistakes.

Still, I apologize to them, the people whom dealt with my past self and I apologize to myself that I couldn't help you see you had a good thing when you had it.

But now? Now I have great things in my life and I can see and notice them and try not to take them for granted and enjoy them as much as I can, now I'm better at writing, now I don't make those same mistakes. Now I can apologize for my mistakes to the people I have now if I make them.

Now... That's what matters, the present.