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kardonis
Platinum Sparx
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#41301 Posted: 05:05:31 16/02/2018
In that short moment, I wanted to kill you. She deserves far better than you. She needs someone who actually supports her, instead of, whatever it is you do. You don't care about her at all do you?
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I used to be THE Bowser, now I'm just an awkward girl |
somePerson
Diamond Sparx
Gems: 9376
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#41302 Posted: 05:27:34 16/02/2018
honestly
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Trix Master 100
Diamond Sparx
Gems: 8324
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#41303 Posted: 05:44:07 16/02/2018
Kind of tired of not having a say on what happens in this piece of **** room tbh.
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If you cannot handle me at my pumpkin spiciest, you do not deserve me at my pumpkin sweetest icon from Empoh |
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#41304 Posted: 21:52:24 16/02/2018
Had another dream last night, seem to be getting a lot of them again recently, can't remember the last night I didn't have one. This time, I was asking someone to burn me alive. I can't quite remember there being much fire, but I definitely felt some intense warmth at some point, so I imagine that there was an attempt at least.
Something about how being burned would "lure him out". I remember our plan clearly. Not quite "burned alive", so to speak, but to burn me so hard that I would wish I really was dead. I wanted the warmth to burn me as much as possible. For some reason, intense pain was the only way to "lure him out". So I tried. But in the end, I don't remember seeing whoever "he" was, so maybe I failed. The pain wasn't very intense and I only felt in minimally. Maybe that was why. Perhaps if I was burned harder, our plan would have worked, and "he" would have appeared. Clearly we needed him to, so that we could finally defeat him. The girl, Serena, appeared. I've managed to get a closer look at who she is. Not anyone I recognize from this world, I don't know how that is possible. I barely recognize any of the places or people who appear in my dreams anymore. Something about this girl invokes a sense of curiosity, as she is one of the few, if not the only, who consistently appear within my dreams. Like she's always following me. I'm not sure if it's always the same girl, but given what little I have found out, I am starting to believe so. For one, I can see her clearer now, and there is a sense of familiarity from previous dreams long ago. ...Y'know, maybe I really am insane for believing that this is all connected. I just wish I knew for sure what was going on. And, of course, there are very often disturbing themes within the dreams. Willingly being burned alive is pretty tame compared to some dreams I've had. |
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#41305 Posted: 22:31:18 16/02/2018
i still feel... empty.
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#41306 Posted: 22:40:57 16/02/2018
WHEN WILL YOU LEARN |
Riolu-Blue-247
Diamond Sparx
Gems: 8843
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#41307 Posted: 22:42:15 16/02/2018
I love my friends
---- The thoughts wont stop. They're just getting worse and worse. I should run away now before I panic and start burning bridges
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I just realised that I might not know what the hell is going on |
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TheToyNerd
Gold Sparx
Gems: 2137
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#41308 Posted: 00:35:15 17/02/2018
Ech... I should really stop trying to pursue this. It'll only be disappointing
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#41309 Posted: 00:44:06 17/02/2018
I should probably try finding help about these dreams. Maybe talk to somebody. But then again, what would I say? I don't know much about them myself.
They tend to range from disturbing to downright terrifying, mostly. Says a lot that willingly being burned alive is considered a "normal" dream. |
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TheToyNerd
Gold Sparx
Gems: 2137
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#41310 Posted: 02:27:35 17/02/2018
Loser... I'm a ****ing loser
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| parisruelz12 Diamond Sparx Gems: 7577 |
#41311 Posted: 08:49:09 17/02/2018
can it be April already
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looks like ive got some things to do... |
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#41312 Posted: 09:04:09 17/02/2018
lol someone deleted took the easy way out night |
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#41313 Posted: 22:26:52 17/02/2018
Staring at my phone when every app and every tab decides to close randomly.
"Oh. Yeah. Ok. That's fine!" tear slides down face, rip all my incognito tabs |
| parisruelz12 Diamond Sparx Gems: 7577 |
#41314 Posted: 00:09:34 18/02/2018
I need too stop
i hate the fact that im so emotional and make so many mistakes...
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#41315 Posted: 00:20:38 18/02/2018
Let's just pretend that this isn't going to end badly, huh?
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| parisruelz12 Diamond Sparx Gems: 7577 |
#41316 Posted: 00:27:33 18/02/2018
I’m just... gonna relax... it’s not that big of a deal.
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kardonis
Platinum Sparx
Gems: 6366
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#41317 Posted: 02:25:59 18/02/2018
Here's hoping for the best...
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I used to be THE Bowser, now I'm just an awkward girl |
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#41318 Posted: 05:35:29 18/02/2018
I am making a lot of mistakes already. Again. I never learn, don't I?
And then there's that. I had good memories before I had to **** it all up, now I'm losing the wonder I once had, now it's just become another "thing". Because I had to drag it along, relate it to my depression, make it lose the wonder it once held. I must never talk about it again. Keep it my own. |
Lunarz
Emerald Sparx
Gems: 3498
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#41319 Posted: 01:04:38 19/02/2018
maybe i should
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Lanky Kong saved me despite having no style nor grace. |
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#41320 Posted: 01:31:08 19/02/2018
"Cry, and the world cries with you. Laugh, and you laugh alone."
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Lunarz
Emerald Sparx
Gems: 3498
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#41321 Posted: 02:34:23 19/02/2018
im worried im still seen as my old self
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Lanky Kong saved me despite having no style nor grace. |
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#41322 Posted: 03:53:58 19/02/2018
I... I really don't know what to do right now. Well, I think I do, but...
****. |
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kardonis
Platinum Sparx
Gems: 6366
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#41323 Posted: 04:25:50 19/02/2018
That happened, and today no less. Any sane person would think it a coincidence, but...
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I used to be THE Bowser, now I'm just an awkward girl |
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#41324 Posted: 04:37:57 19/02/2018
I'm a ****ing coward. Cowardly is a perfect word to describe me. Why can't I be brave?
Cowardice is terrible. I do know what must be done, so I must do it and stop being such a ****ing coward. |
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#41325 Posted: 06:27:15 19/02/2018
You gotta take criticism if you want to get there so do it now.
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TheFlyingSeal
Diamond Sparx
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#41326 Posted: 16:47:44 19/02/2018
I don't want to do this anymore. On one hand, I should have never run for President. My social life, my future, and my current student life feel like they're falling out of my grasp. I can't hold onto them anymore, they're literally slipping from my hands because of how mentally and physically exhausted I feel. Even my advisers are saying that the responsibilities I'm putting on myself is too much, that a President shouldn't have to do those duties. That a President's duties are tough enough, and to do a whole team's worth...well that's just silly. That's why I have a team. But my team is gone. People have left for reasons beyond my own control as a leader. The two people I trusted dearly have left for different reasons that I respect, one team member that dislikes me I recently found out had sexually harassed someone so I have to fire her. That literally leaves me with a new team member that literally just started that I have to train with no time to train her because of our schedules. I have nine weeks left, even less, until my term is over. Even if my term is over, I still have **** to do related to SGA. If I don't get the help I need, I'm quitting. I don't want to quit. The amount of love, passion, and hard work I've poured into this organization is enough to make the other campuses believe that my campus actually has it together. The amount of times other Presidents have come up to tell me that I'm a great President, asking me for advice, expressing how impressed they are with my team. The past team I worked with is like a family to me, and I still hang out and love them with all of my heart. I could go on and on about this, but I'm taking too long to write this and I have things to do. See? I can't even write a PT without my duties as a President getting in the way. It started out as a kiss, how did it end up like this? It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss...
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Vespi
Gold Sparx
Gems: 2866
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#41327 Posted: 17:14:14 19/02/2018
its my fault i know you said it looked like she had a heart attack, but that doesnt make it any better she would have lived longer if i was an actually responsible and good dog owner, she would have lived longer if i had taken better care of her this is my fault, it isnt just some random thing i could have done better i should have done better ive been away for so long i forgot i needed actual text at the end
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Chompy-King257
Gold Sparx
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#41328 Posted: 18:55:32 19/02/2018
yeah if you could stop talking over the top of me every time i try to voice my opinion that'd be great
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#41329 Posted: 19:07:38 19/02/2018
I mean, let's be honest
Why should I continue living in a world were I can never succeed. Why should I live in a world that's on the brink of war Why should I live in a world were the only thing keeping me alive is a forum, a game, and a movie Why should I live in a world were nobody cares, were nobody like, were nobody loves. Why should I live in a world filled with hate? What reason is there
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Rise and Shine Ursine |
| parisruelz12 Diamond Sparx Gems: 7577 |
#41330 Posted: 21:23:26 19/02/2018
im talking too much...
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looks like ive got some things to do... |
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#41331 Posted: 23:12:11 19/02/2018
I'm not good at last words. But I've written it, and I think it says enough. I won't read it. I don't want to.
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#41332 Posted: 01:17:45 20/02/2018
HOLY **** THAT HURTS
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#41333 Posted: 01:21:16 20/02/2018
I should have died 13 years ago.
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Vespi
Gold Sparx
Gems: 2866
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#41334 Posted: 16:16:56 20/02/2018
stop making it sound so appealing i dont need more people going away i have abandonment issues and i cant control them
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Carmelita Fox
Prismatic Sparx
Gems: 12949
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#41335 Posted: 01:06:13 21/02/2018
Quote: ThroneOfMalefor
i know you made this post about me ... thanks bro |
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Lunarz
Emerald Sparx
Gems: 3498
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#41336 Posted: 01:25:42 21/02/2018
i wish i could just say it, without any horrible repercussions
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Lanky Kong saved me despite having no style nor grace. |
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#41337 Posted: 01:30:55 21/02/2018
Seriously though, what the **** am I doing? There's no reason for any of this. I should leave right now.
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Riolu-Blue-247
Diamond Sparx
Gems: 8843
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#41338 Posted: 01:38:28 21/02/2018
I'm waiting for disappointment. For the kick to the teeth. I know it's coming.
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I just realised that I might not know what the hell is going on |
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TheToyNerd
Gold Sparx
Gems: 2137
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#41339 Posted: 02:10:10 21/02/2018
Ech... I’m not feeling the best tonight.
I’m hitting myself for no goddamn reason. I want help so badly but I just ****ing can’t get it because I’m a ****up and won’t be taken seriously |
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#41340 Posted: 02:27:56 21/02/2018
I don't have any reasons to live. I have several reasons to die, but none to live. It won't get better.
I'm feeling tired. Can't go to sleep though. That's procrastination, and procrastination is bad. |
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Lunarz
Emerald Sparx
Gems: 3498
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#41341 Posted: 02:28:21 21/02/2018
Quote: TheToyNerd
it's a therapist/psychologists job to take you seriously. look into it. mine is really helping.
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Lanky Kong saved me despite having no style nor grace. |
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#41342 Posted: 04:59:28 21/02/2018
I know how it ends. There's no reason to wait, so why am I waiting? I need to hurry the **** up and get it over with. The sooner the better.
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TheToyNerd
Gold Sparx
Gems: 2137
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#41343 Posted: 02:46:49 22/02/2018
Man, I was I could ****ing draw well again. Everything I make is ****. This is the third time this week I’ve just given up on art. Stupid...
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Lunarz
Emerald Sparx
Gems: 3498
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#41344 Posted: 02:48:37 22/02/2018
Quote: TheToyNerd
wat your art is great, i dont lie about that stuff
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Lanky Kong saved me despite having no style nor grace. |
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#41345 Posted: 03:02:34 22/02/2018
...No, not really. There are three ways this could end. Of course, #1 is the easiest. I could do it right now! Yeah, there certainly are multiple ways, but #1 really is... well, #1!
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Vespi
Gold Sparx
Gems: 2866
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#41346 Posted: 05:27:06 22/02/2018
that was the best day ive had in a while
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cyndego
Platinum Sparx
Gems: 6382
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#41347 Posted: 08:23:20 22/02/2018
When I look at this page...... I feel like people just can not feel good about what they are doing. They want to success and can not be happy about anything. Why I think so? Because been there done that.
Might be right, might be wrong. But you should do what you like, and not be so hard on our self. It is not easy, even if I am saying this I have hard time to get that done myself.
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