darkSpyro

Oops, I wanna die!

I'm forgotten, it's okay. Its always what happens. I'm not worth remembering anyway.

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If teachers would do their ****ing job, that'd be real swell.

Quote: kardonis

If teachers would do their ****ing job, that'd be real swell.

Blah blah don’t reply to PTs blah blah!

But, I need to say that my Calculus teacher is the worst. She keeps CONSTANTLY getting problems wrong. Like, way too many to count at this point. How am I supposed to learn if I’m constantly being told the wrong answer by the only expert in the room!?

I know it's only been three days of this, but it's getting really hard and I don't know how much longer I can keep my expression from drifting to sadness, because I am dying inside

Quote: TheToyNerd

Quote: kardonis

If teachers would do their ****ing job, that'd be real swell.

Blah blah don’t reply to PTs blah blah!

But, I need to say that my Calculus teacher is the worst. She keeps CONSTANTLY getting problems wrong. Like, way too many to count at this point. How am I supposed to learn if I’m constantly being told the wrong answer by the only expert in the room!?

oh yeah, that's brutal. I was mainly complaining because multiple of my teachers said they'd post stuff online for us to do. GUESS WHAT? It's been multiple days and still nothing. Perfect.

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Hopefully, I see you again tomorrow and I can finally get to know you more.

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There are these occasional moments that just fill you with joy.

oooh **** these are good ****ing costumes.

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I wish I could cut off all contact from all humans altogether. I'm ****ing sick of people treating me like ****, and making me feel worthless.

when u want to call someone stupid for contiuning to argue that the hooded figure at the faerie festival is a krawk and not a lupe but then u realize that ur on neopets and you'll be banned for it.

honestly this reddit posts describes a lot of people i know and even myself

Just, just respond. Please. I don't care what you say, just, something, anything.

you win.

you’re right.

all my big mouth ever does is get me in trouble and i’d have to be RETARDED not to realize it.

so i fold. i’ll shut my mouth. if it’s the only thing you want, then you deserve it.

i’m nothing. why do i think i’m special? i’m not special. i’m not even average. i’m less than nothing because i’m clearly not smart enough to do anything right.

years of yelling at me finally did something, old man. you did it. you won. you finally broke me.


you win.

you win.

you win

Wow, in the course of an hour I've managed to emotionally cripple myself.

*smirk* goddammit, how did you even?

I wish I was beautiful :"(

I keep feeling like I'm messing up. I'll distance myself for a while. It will be better.
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Mm nothing quite beats the feeling of being cold and lonely. Not that there's any way to fix this... Alone is how I'm supposed to be.

Yes, it is kind of tough to act surprised or whatever since I've ran out of [rude word in plural] to give. And that is everything I have to say about this issue. Kind of anticlimatic personal thought since it is only one sentence long. But that is the way it is so yeah, words and all that. Meaningless, if you ask me...

2017 is the year of "It's too hard for me, make it easier."


i wanted to say something snarky like a in typical paris fashion, but the mods on MS would've had my ass on a platter faster than you can say gnorcing.

why do people who are so much better than me at this say i'm improving???

like, they're so much better than me, that can't POSSIBLY think i'm any good.

they probably don't mean it. it's all pity. and the one who opens the door to pity is the one who lets his house burn.

(oh god that last part got a bit too literal)

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improvement isn't an option. it's impossible.

i could ask literally ANYONE i know to draw something and it'd be better than anything i've ever made.

everyone keeps talking about all this "you gotta keep trying!" stuff but THESE ARE THE SAME PEOPLE WHO ARE BETTER THAN ME IN EVERY WAY. there is literally nothing i can possibly do to improve. some people are just meant to be bad at things.

the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result. and i don't wanna go insane

How long has those feelings been harboured? Did I just lose a friend? Things change, people make some changes, maybe I am just not made for this world after all...

I guess that I lost you...

I am such a ****ing loser

stuck

Friend sounds so sure of himself when he tells me he won't be busy today...Then he's does that thing with his other friends. He tells me he's forced to make promises with these friends, I know he's part of another group, I'm trying to keep to understanding... But continuously my hopes are built up when told "We'll do it that day, definitely that day, I'm sure it will be that day" only to be told "I'm sorry, I'm going to be busy tonight"... It hurts really badly to have my expectations and hopes built up like that, yeah you tell me you can't promise you can do things that day, you tell me you can't make promises to me, that it will always be an unsure thing, but when you continuously sound so sure of yourself and build things up like that. You crush them when you turn it all on it's head... I can't tell if you're stepping all over me or not because other times you'll say on that day for sure and then we do it, but it's those other times where you build it up and break it down like that. Just... It's a half and half thing and it makes me unable to tell if I'm just being walked all over for my kindness because I try not to be like those "friends" that "force" you to promise things or that you're trying your hardest... But I cannot take it when hopes are built up like that just to be broken down, that my expectations like that... Don't do that to me... Please...

Went in the first time, got uncomfortable about conversation, got out... Some more uncomfortable things ensues today... Just... I wish my existence just blipped out just for today... Just... For today...

How could he **** himself if he's a rollercoaster?

I'm just a massive misunderstanding. Why do I even bother talking.

Dumb ramblings

LEARN TO SAY NO!

Seriously, learn it. It's so easy.

*wheeze*

im fine

Last night was so much fun, it really helped improve my mood. thank you for everything

How in the nine rings of hell did I manage to be sad over my own writing? The feels, they're just, too much. I'm gonna take this as my writing is actually good and I'm proud of it.

Also

AP Lit class makes me feel dumb. Like, I feel legitimately retarded in this class.

Everyone else has this grandeous view of literature and can talk about it for a long time, but I’m just not that smart enough to join in most of the time

Is it so hard to actually respond to a simple message?

im still seething over the fact that there are people out there who legit think that men cant get sexually harassed.

Well that was yet another waste of effort

"People who swear a lot don't have a high IQ and not a very good vocabulary"





"I want to build an underground shelter to hide in when an earthqauke happens"

I hate Calculus. I really hate Calculus

i was so selfish and retarded and ****ing so idiot ****ing stupid
i threw out the last few years with you, i was so stupid

i knew you were going to die that day, why didnt i go with you, i never said goodbye and now i cant and im scared you didnt think i loved you and im so sorry and i just want you to come back okay just come back

you know what your just a *****, you ruined the group. you stole our friends. your basically are the emperor. manipulative piece of ****. **** you lobster

So uh...a RWBY volume 5 is out...


guess i know what im doing on monday

when ur just bluh all day

Astros, you had better BEAT THE ****ING DODGERS!!!

Why am I still thinking about this two days later? Am I really that sensitive to other people’s opinions? Goddamn, I hate myself sometimes. Brain! STOP GETTING RANDOMLY UPSET OVER THIS!