The word of the day: alright. What else is there left to say? Nothing of substance that would make a damn difference but that is more than ok, it is actually how things should be. Time to ride the waves, find new shores, etc.
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I might give you more opinions... for a small fee of course.
its kind of silly that the people who say im rude are the guys who usually talk behind my back and victimize themselves to make me look like the bad guy. when in reality im the one who usually gets constantly **** on by these guys because they are insecure losers who attack me to make themselves feel better.
im gonna cry my cat has so many ****ing fleas and i cant get them all off
its one thing after another with him. first deathly ill, then considering putting him down, he gets better and now hes losing fur and hes covered in sores bc hes crawling in fleas
and my mom says shes gonna kick him out if they don't go away well maybe you shouldn't ****ing refuse to buy flea shampoo??????????????? im tired of washing him in dawn
im gonna cry my cat has so many ****ing fleas and i cant get them all off
its one thing after another with him. first deathly ill, then considering putting him down, he gets better and now hes losing fur and hes covered in sores bc hes crawling in fleas
and my mom says shes gonna kick him out if they don't go away well maybe you shouldn't ****ing refuse to buy flea shampoo??????????????? im tired of washing him in dawn
*Reads about consideration of putting an animal down*
im gonna cry my cat has so many ****ing fleas and i cant get them all off
its one thing after another with him. first deathly ill, then considering putting him down, he gets better and now hes losing fur and hes covered in sores bc hes crawling in fleas
and my mom says shes gonna kick him out if they don't go away well maybe you shouldn't ****ing refuse to buy flea shampoo??????????????? im tired of washing him in dawn
*Reads about consideration of putting an animal down*
Lol, I screwed up. On multiple occasions. Big time. I am an idiot, aren't I? I am surprised you are even giving me a second chance... er, fiftieth chance? I am glad you are so... kind, caring, supportive... even if I don't deserve these things from you. Please know I am really sorry, and hopefully I won't do it again.
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Heading out, my liege? A commission, I presume? Then I shall accompany you. Just...ah, allow me to indulge in one more chapter...
I haven't felt like myself for so long now. I feel like I just can't truly enjoy myself anymore, and I hate feeling like this.
Maybe I wouldn't be like this if I actually had a group of friends that I could talk to, and have fun, reasonable discussions about the things I like with. I haven't had that since, like, 2012... and now it's really getting to me. Everyone else has these groups of friends that are into all the same things they are... I don't. And I probably never will.
I really hate this frustrating personality I've developed... but I think it's gone too far to change now. There's no way I'll ever get to be my old self again... This isn't who I want to be, but it's not like I was given much choice.
The Spell Punk Overlord is a mess. What else is new.
Ah, yes the best way to learn a new language in a new country is to just be thrown into what is basically a normal class in that language. Never mind the fact that the entire point of the goddamn class is to teach people from other countries German so they can actually live here and understand the language. Sure, ****ing assign me a goddamn essay on the first day of class in a language I don't even ****ing know. I have no idea what the **** we're doing most of the time, because the instructions are in a different ****ing language so that I can learn that language. And then if you don't understand the instructions, the teacher gets all pissy, because I clearly understand every word he's saying, even though that's the point of the class. And a really good idea was to put the advanced people who can almost speak the language in the same class as the people who have just started. Good job, the levels of difficulty now vary between "a class completely in a foreign language," and "might as well be preschool," with no in between.
Haha, yeah, this is so much better than being in the US. /s
I'm so tired of everything
I just want to end it all, but I'm just a ****ing coward and a freak who no one likes
And the ****ing spoiler template won't work
i feel like ive glorified the idea of having a signifigant other so much that im starting to get depressed over not having one because i see all my friends with their and it just makes me feel ****ty that i cant feel that same way they do right now mutually with someone else. everytime i try people just move on to a girl and i want to throw myself off a bridge s2g
Thanks for mocking me endlessly within the first 3 days of school because I can't perfectly speak the language yet. What the actual **** is your problem, the only reason I'm in the same class as you is because this school puts the advanced and new people in the same classes. But I can't learn anything if everyone just starts making fun of me the second I say something wrong. The thing I had to do yesterday wouldn't have sounded nearly as stupid and scripted if literally any one of you could just play along and answer in the way you were told to. You're in this class because you didn't know the language last year, what is so funny about me not speaking the language perfectly within being in the class for 3 ***ing days?
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Well, I can't answer anything correctly if I can't actually ****ing hear it in the first place, because seven people are incapable of keeping their mouths shut for more than thirty goddamn seconds at a time. It sounds like you let loose a tribe of angry gorillas in the class room at all times. I answered a question wrong because I cold barely hear it, and there were two people who had very similar sounding names sitting next to each other. I didn't know which one you were talking about, because I couldn't hear them when they said their names due to the ****ing DK crew loudly yelling all day. So then of course everybody laughed because I misheard and answered wrong, and I'll never hear the end of it.
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Great, so now I can take an art class in a foreign language, where I won't even understand the instructions. I have all the artistic creativity and talent of a rock, and even less when I can't understand what I'm doing. God forbid anyone tries to actually say more than 2 sentences to me in English so I can have any clue what the hell I'm doing, because it's "easier to learn" when it's all in German. Well, not if you can't understand ****ing anything to begin with.
3 days in and I already want to never go back. Oh yeah, this is such a great move to live here, I definitely wouldn't want to keep being in the USA.
Thanks for mocking me endlessly within the first 3 days of school because I can't perfectly speak the language yet. What the actual **** is your problem, the only reason I'm in the same class as you is because this school puts the advanced and new people in the same classes. But I can't learn anything if everyone just starts making fun of me the second I say something wrong. The thing I had to do yesterday wouldn't have sounded nearly as stupid and scripted if literally any one of you could just play along and answer in the way you were told to. You're in this class because you didn't know the language last year, what is so funny about me not speaking the language perfectly within being in the class for 3 ***ing days?
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Well, I can't answer anything correctly if I can't actually ****ing hear it in the first place, because seven people are incapable of keeping their mouths shut for more than thirty goddamn seconds at a time. It sounds like you let loose a tribe of angry gorillas in the class room at all times. I answered a question wrong because I cold barely hear it, and there were two people who had very similar sounding names sitting next to each other. I didn't know which one you were talking about, because I couldn't hear them when they said their names due to the ****ing DK crew loudly yelling all day. So then of course everybody laughed because I misheard and answered wrong, and I'll never hear the end of it.
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Great, so now I can take an art class in a foreign language, where I won't even understand the instructions. I have all the artistic creativity and talent of a rock, and even less when I can't understand what I'm doing. God forbid anyone tries to actually say more than 2 sentences to me in English so I can have any clue what the hell I'm doing, because it's "easier to learn" when it's all in German. Well, not if you can't understand ****ing anything to begin with.
3 days in and I already want to never go back. Oh yeah, this is such a great move to live here, I definitely wouldn't want to keep being in the USA.
It actually really bugs me when americans say "all cops are bad". There are good people and bad people in literally any profession. What they should be blaming is their ****ty system that allows bad people to become cops in the first place, the system that doesn't give enough training and puts inexperienced officers out into situations they aren't qualified for, the system that allows bad cops to kill innocent people and face no consequences. You'd think it'd be obvious.
Thanks for mocking me endlessly within the first 3 days of school because I can't perfectly speak the language yet. What the actual **** is your problem, the only reason I'm in the same class as you is because this school puts the advanced and new people in the same classes. But I can't learn anything if everyone just starts making fun of me the second I say something wrong. The thing I had to do yesterday wouldn't have sounded nearly as stupid and scripted if literally any one of you could just play along and answer in the way you were told to. You're in this class because you didn't know the language last year, what is so funny about me not speaking the language perfectly within being in the class for 3 ***ing days?
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Well, I can't answer anything correctly if I can't actually ****ing hear it in the first place, because seven people are incapable of keeping their mouths shut for more than thirty goddamn seconds at a time. It sounds like you let loose a tribe of angry gorillas in the class room at all times. I answered a question wrong because I cold barely hear it, and there were two people who had very similar sounding names sitting next to each other. I didn't know which one you were talking about, because I couldn't hear them when they said their names due to the ****ing DK crew loudly yelling all day. So then of course everybody laughed because I misheard and answered wrong, and I'll never hear the end of it.
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Great, so now I can take an art class in a foreign language, where I won't even understand the instructions. I have all the artistic creativity and talent of a rock, and even less when I can't understand what I'm doing. God forbid anyone tries to actually say more than 2 sentences to me in English so I can have any clue what the hell I'm doing, because it's "easier to learn" when it's all in German. Well, not if you can't understand ****ing anything to begin with.
3 days in and I already want to never go back. Oh yeah, this is such a great move to live here, I definitely wouldn't want to keep being in the USA.
just curious, where are you from originally?
I'm from America, my family moved to Germany 2 months ago.
Thanks for mocking me endlessly within the first 3 days of school because I can't perfectly speak the language yet. What the actual **** is your problem, the only reason I'm in the same class as you is because this school puts the advanced and new people in the same classes. But I can't learn anything if everyone just starts making fun of me the second I say something wrong. The thing I had to do yesterday wouldn't have sounded nearly as stupid and scripted if literally any one of you could just play along and answer in the way you were told to. You're in this class because you didn't know the language last year, what is so funny about me not speaking the language perfectly within being in the class for 3 ***ing days?
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Well, I can't answer anything correctly if I can't actually ****ing hear it in the first place, because seven people are incapable of keeping their mouths shut for more than thirty goddamn seconds at a time. It sounds like you let loose a tribe of angry gorillas in the class room at all times. I answered a question wrong because I cold barely hear it, and there were two people who had very similar sounding names sitting next to each other. I didn't know which one you were talking about, because I couldn't hear them when they said their names due to the ****ing DK crew loudly yelling all day. So then of course everybody laughed because I misheard and answered wrong, and I'll never hear the end of it.
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Great, so now I can take an art class in a foreign language, where I won't even understand the instructions. I have all the artistic creativity and talent of a rock, and even less when I can't understand what I'm doing. God forbid anyone tries to actually say more than 2 sentences to me in English so I can have any clue what the hell I'm doing, because it's "easier to learn" when it's all in German. Well, not if you can't understand ****ing anything to begin with.
3 days in and I already want to never go back. Oh yeah, this is such a great move to live here, I definitely wouldn't want to keep being in the USA.
just curious, where are you from originally?
I'm from America, my family moved to Germany 2 months ago.
no one would miss me, no one. i hear people say it all the time 'i missed you' but its never directed at me. im no good no good at all. no one cares enough for me to be missed.
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sometimes i wish that i could ask people do change small things. i could never. theyd have more of a hassle to do what i want than me feeling uncomfortable. then again im not worth enough to be allowed to feel comfortable. im not worth enough for anything.
edge thoughts, needed to get them out
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My boyfriend is in a coma... That still doesn't feel real to say. He'd know how to cheer me up right now, and it seems like all my usual tactics aren't working
I feel so much like I keep being put off... Just keep rescheduling things that I keep suggesting and then they never happen even when scheduled.
I want to address it... But I'm afraid of losing a friend because it feels pushy or selfish of me... Now I'm stuck in a pit that is so hard to climb out of.
--- Like fallen snow, I lay on the ground and wait for my turn to fade away, no matter how unique I seem. It's my gift to you... A true sacrifice...
Honestly I still generally feel like people only want to dislike me. I know this sounds super narcissistic but honestly get over the fact that I offended you once because you're only making yourself look like idiotic. There's no need to pretend that you don't think i made one funny joke, exist, or make me look malicious by misunderstanding me
my one betta, popcorn, died I had my room flea fogged and all my tanks were covered but I came home today and discovered him dead. I've been bawling ever since I got home. I feel so bad. i loved him so much
Hah, thinking about my life the past few years, I realized I was such a good kid until this one person came into my life. Ever since then, I have become more rebellious. Do I regret it...?
Honestly, no. ^w^
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Heading out, my liege? A commission, I presume? Then I shall accompany you. Just...ah, allow me to indulge in one more chapter...
I've been nothing but a huge disappointment to you, right? Well maybe I just should stop interacting with people and let everyone and especially you, be alone. But I won't keep my mouth shut since I enjoy saying some things once in a while...
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For some reason I feel guilty. I didn't even do anything, yet after I talked to you, I guess the words you said affected me, I started crying and muttering "I'm sorry" as if it was an important mantra. I don't like emotions. I wish they'd just get up and leave silently. :I
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Now I feel as if I ****ed up. I know I did nothing wrong, yet... I wish emotions would be easier to handle.
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Heading out, my liege? A commission, I presume? Then I shall accompany you. Just...ah, allow me to indulge in one more chapter...
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oh god i've got like... three assignments to finish today and this wouldn't be so difficult if i wasn't still mourning one of my cats on top of all my other problems kdfjgkghn
Two times today two different people judged me on my art style. Everyone has their own, so why make fun of it? Maybe next time I see your guys' drawings, I will make fun of you, hm?
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Heading out, my liege? A commission, I presume? Then I shall accompany you. Just...ah, allow me to indulge in one more chapter...
Ugh, why do you ask what I am doing when you can LITERALLY check? You told me before you could, heck you even have, so why not do it now? Sure, I was turning my NOOK away from you, but that is because I don't like people knowing what I am doing, I like being isolated and in solitude. And now I feel guilty again. Thank you so much.
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Heading out, my liege? A commission, I presume? Then I shall accompany you. Just...ah, allow me to indulge in one more chapter...
^ Aint that the truth. I wish I could learn that lesson myself.
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I have a very irrational fear that nobody likes me or cares about me. I need to stop relying on other people to make me feel better for me. I have to go out of my way to do it sometimes.
Me eaelier today: Hmm, I should be getting my period sometime soon. I hope I don't have it twice a month this time, I don't want to deal with that on my birthday.
Me when I got home from school: I ****ING KNEW IT-
Life hates me today, so I shall hate life. Fair trade, yes?
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Heading out, my liege? A commission, I presume? Then I shall accompany you. Just...ah, allow me to indulge in one more chapter...
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I had my room flea fogged and all my tanks were covered but I came home today and discovered him dead. I've been bawling ever since I got home. I feel so bad. i loved him so much
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