darkSpyro

met someone on reddit and we talked all night she's p cool. glad to have another friend
now i just need friends that live here ;-;

I really dont how to feel about you. on one hand you're cool and all but in the other hand your mental stability can decreases tenfold

i can't wait til next week, i'm getting a tattoo.

Quote: thumper

i can't wait til next week, i'm getting a tattoo.

Of what?

^oh **** i hope it looks sick. hope it goes well!

Why am I so awkward and shy, ech!

I never knew watching baseball while being on the computer at the same time would be a great source of white noise.

I really hope you're okay, dude... I worry about so much and I just want you to be happy.

Though I'm usually a person that doesn't ask for more than what I have, and I'm particularly thankful for it all... I still sometimes wish I could have a bit more luxuries. Nothing fancy or anything, but things that I enjoy personally. Like a better PC, a PS4, maybe just even just be able to get a bar of chocolate without worrying how it will effect getting food this month. I mean some of these things aren't totally out of reach, some are doable, but some other things are very out of reach, and by the time I get something from this generation it will turn into something that is from last generation. Not to sound ungrateful, I just sometimes wish I could keep up somehow without having to worry about other things.

I could never bring myself to ask someone for these things either, I'd just feel very selfish seriously asking for something from someone, especially since I can't do anything to give back to the person. Be it relatives, friends, strangers... Only if someone really, really wants to do something for me would I accept, because I want to show that I'm grateful for their kindness, but if in their heart of hearts they don't want to do it in fact, if in the back of their mind is a doubt, then I don't want them feeling like that. I don't want them feeling as if I'd take advantage of the relationship, or that we're close just because of selfish reasons. I don't want to be selfish or anything of the sort.

It's why I never ask for things from anyone in general, even family members, and aside from that these wishes and urges I have don't come often because I'm just happy enough having a home, pc, internet. But I can't say the wish for these things doesn't come along once in a great while.

Portable phone chargers are a godsend.

sorry, i'm really not enthusiastic about ted talks....

My anxiety can not go off in a more inopportune time. I hope to God this doesn't last all throughout this run

HAHA THAT WAS GREAT
SELF CONFIDENCE +50

Gosh I can't wait till I can move out. :) *sigh*

Edit: i might be ok now

Scavengers...

tfw you get to write a 900 word essay about a book i didnt read, and your body feels like ****.

Kiss my ass!

Quote: willspyro

Kiss my ass!

*kiss*

Lol I have no ****ing clue what I want to do and you keep pushing college on me and threaten to make me pay rent to continue living with you when I graduate. k.

i honestly can't stand it when people sugarcoat things and only want to be sugarcoated. yet act like they're always in the right when others sugarcoat their hurt feelings

i dont know what i expected going in there but now i feel like **** because i did

Quote: Bryman04

Quote: willspyro

Kiss my ass!

*kiss*

Woah bro you're not the person I'm angry at. Luckily he's not on this site!

Even though nothing happened, I still get anxious about talking when Ive been quiet for a little around you guys. Im sorry i vanish for periods at a time, I just get really anxious about talking in the group when Ive been quiet

Quote: willspyro

Quote: Bryman04

Quote: willspyro

Kiss my ass!

*kiss*

Woah bro you're not the person I'm angry at. Luckily he's not on this site!

But why not kiss some ass

Who the hell decides it's a good idea to vacuum their house at 4am in the morning? Do ya'll have some sort of massive industrial vacuum cleaner capable of vibrating every single floorboard, and that's loud enough to sound like a lawnmower? And also, why must you bang into every object possible with it? Are you vacuuming blindfolded?

Again feedback like this, saying that I’ve got tons of potential and should aim for positions of power, creativity and leadership. How out of their minds are these people? I am not a leader; I am just borderline analytic and seemingly semi-smart guy who knows that his place is being part of grey, faceless masses etc. I know that it is not glamorous and ambitious but that is how I see it and I am quite okay with it. Well, like it’s going to matter anyways.

Wow.

This new Samurai Jack is awesome.

amazing that this show that was on when I was little that I knew existed, but never cared about became this awesome.

maybe I should at least skim some of the old episodes or something.

but still

wow

Can I go one ****ing second without someone complaining?

That little accolade made me blush, aww.

i cant act

why the **** cant i do the one thing i wanna do in life, it's not ****ing fair it's just saying words so why when i do it am i so insincere and unbelievable, I don't ****ing get it, is it cuz i sound like im a 14 year old, is it cuz my voice is just bad? like i dont ****ing get it it's not ****ing fair.

.....uh....I..I have...........................I have no words

Why the **** am I doing so **** in school?! I feel like I'm such a retard sometimes! I keep getting C's on Tests and Quizzes. **** this ****! I ****ing hate myself

I've been more comfy and confident with myself.
Also Got the pep and big bad libido back. Now my step is firm and real good.
Where the tight leather pants and guitars at i wanna rock your socks off

waffles

im in such a bad mood now aha

How did the world become this distorted? I am not socially equal to my friends anymore. All the ignoring and not informing about what is going on. It is most understandable. They have lives, goals, dreams and values to build something on and I'm just trying to muster in all the strength I have left to rise up from the bed and care even a little bit. I guess what goes around, comes around. Treat people like a jerk and you'll get treated like a jerk. And I know who is to blame but sometimes simple solutions are not the easiest to be executed.

This is not about anything you may think it is.

Can't handle your hot potato with the oven mitts I convinced myself I was wearing. Now I'll just have to put you down, wait for you to "cool", then we can be another kind of happy, the kind of happy we banked on at first contact. I can't lie to myself anymore, it hurts me plenty and it has for some time.

I don't know when I will confess though, how I've come to make this decision after some time. You've told me it's okay so why am I this hesitant?

I feel as if some people don't understand how important words are. No matter where or how it comes, letters, text, or being heard it's all pretty important. Yes, they could just be "text on a screen" it could be just "ink on a piece of paper" but no matter what... They are words still, words still hold an importance and can effect someone in big ways. They can still hurt someone, or it could uplift people. And maybe you can just walk away, go away from that place especially if you're using ways to communicate of this day and age, but that doesn't make them any less important. People aren't robots and they can't just not feel from things that are said. Words are what effect people the most. Maybe the reason why people allow themselves to act like the way they are is because they are anonymous, or that they're just "text on a screen". So they either end up thinking it's not too important watching out what they say... Or they act upon things they couldn't act out before because there's a thought that they're able to because how little of importance they think it is. But no matter how the words come, they are words, they always have an effect on a person, just as much as saying it in their face, with your own voice. That people are going to feel something from them, and there is a way to go away, it's easy to do on the internet. But that doesn't excuse or make it any more right for a person to say something that hurts someone else or to act bad toward someone else. It's still something wrong to do, just as wrong as saying it with your own voice, in my opinion anyways. And I know that some people might just be trying to get a rise out of other people (also doesn't make it right in my opinion, whether it's just for fun or that) but there are those who are serious with their words.

Then again, I can't say I fully understand how that's like, maybe there is something else I'm not seeing to it. And maybe that's because I haven't yet to experience what that's like, being like that... And I'm not sure I ever will or even want to. I can't bring myself, whether text, writing, or voice, to be like that. I'd just feel bad.... I just care so much for other people, even strangers, maybe even care too much, to try and intentionally hurt anyone. I care so much about what I say, how I say it, and if I should or should not say it no matter how it's coming. I understand all too well how it feels to have words sting... But also understand just as well how much words can help, heal a person.

I hope it's not bad to be this caring about things... I just want to bring some sunshine to anyone, everyone's life. Even help out those people that are thought not to deserve it... I just... I don't feel that everything is always bad or dark or it needs or has to be dark. That there is a good, a positive to everything somehow, that somewhere there is a light. Though I'm not trying to see things unrealistically either... I just feel that there can be good things out there. That there is a flame, lighting things up in many if not all things.
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Sometimes I don't know what would be considered a confession or a personal thought, I get confused between the two. Most of the things, are things I personally think myself but then end up being worded/sounding like a confession even though I didn't mean for it to, like my last post here. And so despite personally thinking of it to myself, it unintentionally comes out worded like a confession and then I get confused what topic, what category it should go into.

Edit: This is my last edit, but earlier in my message, I said it's not my intention to make someone angry or hurt. I'm just speaking about my personal intentions, I'm not trying to say whether that's the intentions or not of others who do those kinds of things. I don't know why but I always feel like I must clarify every little thing. Though not my personal intentions I will do my best to say the truth and say what I feel and think, I usually end up doing so anyways, wearing my heart on my sleeve and I know full well my words won't always be taken in a good manner and I won't be able to satisfy everyone. Though it is a personal happiness of mine to bring joy to others I know it's impossible for me to do, neither am I perfect. I just try to strive to do the best I can, that's all I can do within my power. To do the best I can to bring some form of positiveness to other people. And if I can't, then although it hurts, I accept I can't and that I just have to believe in that person, in that person's life, trust and hope, pray that they will find something to be happy in and have the strength to pull through. Try my best to be supportive strength, by their side, in anyway I can be some sort of support.

sometimes i feel as if people here act fake and friendly just to be accepted

She only just left, but I feel like crying. Why am I such a weak person, why do I have to be such a dependent. I'm terrified it's going to make her hate me.

hi ho hi ho i have no hearing in my left ear

if i could use my new health insurance i could have this fixed in a day but i'm missing the other ID card i need :') so i guess i'm stuck with half hearing

*sigh*

Quote: Crystal Dragon

hi ho hi ho i have no hearing in my left ear

if i could use my new health insurance i could have this fixed in a day but i'm missing the other ID card i need :') so i guess i'm stuck with half hearing

Bruh, I feel ya. I'm also half deaf, too. It's a tough hand to be dealt but you'll deal with it

We used to talk all the time
Why did that have to change

I hate everyone. Because i know what´s good for them.