darkSpyro

oh, i'm the lazy bum?
is that why you can't do things yourself around here and make me do everything for you? i'm literally trying to do homework right now, and you're like "here, have this large set of menial tasks that i could easily do myself"

Webs, you really need to stop this, you're being weird again

Ah yes, it's all my fault that he's a terrible person, doesn't get off the couch, and constantly harasses me. Why yes, that sounds reasonable. That's how he tries to get my attention, and since he's younger than me it's okay? How about ****ing no. No, he's not trying to get my attention, he's harassing me the second he sees me. But it's fine, because he's younger and doesn't know any better, and it's my job to teach it to him. No, **** off, your the ****ing parent, it is your job to teach him not to be a horrible little *****, not mine. I can not stand to be in the same room as him, he's destroyed any form a self confidence I've ever had, but he's family so I must love him and teach him not to be a dick. You think I like him destroying me emotionally? No, I would absolutely like him to stop being such a piece of ****, but it's not going to happen. Some people are just terrible, and there's nothing you can do to change that. I've told him for years that he should stop, it annoys me, and is ruining my life, but you know ****ing what? HE DOESN'T ****ING CARE. He was, is, and will always be terrible.

And I have enough **** to do without you giving me stupid ass things to read that are the size of a short novel. I do not have time to read this, and then you keep giving me more books I have to read because you say so? **** off, I need time to do things I want. But no, I must do what you want, forever. Work work work, and then reading ten thousand things you've given me. I tried to stand up and say no to you today, and you once again turned into a passive-aggressive ***** like always. And now you must be such a control freak that you have to tell me how to write? I will not write to be bland, boring, and unoriginal like you want. My stories don't have to be the same as everyone else's, I can write what I want. My stories don't have to be predictable, not everything has to have a love interest shoehorned in. They are my characters, the way I write them, and if it doesn't fit for that character to have a love interest, they will not. I may never be able to stand up to you, but at least I will never give in and let you destroy my writing.

Everything goes from worse to infinitely worse. There is no way in the ****ing world I will be up at that time, please kindly **** off. So now I'm supposed to learn this because you told me to, get up super early every single day, and work on learning this? Good, yes, I do not need to have time for school, I don't need reasonable hours of sleep, and I especially don't need free time. All I need is for you to ruin everything, all the time.

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I don't need you calling me edgy because I said that I will not be ruining my writing like he wants me to. Yes, I actually do know my characters better than anyone else because I ****ing created them. I actually do know how to write them better than anyone else does. And now it sounds like you told him what I said, that I wouldn't be writing the boring predictable stories he wants me to. I have to be so paranoid, because if he knows what I said my life will just get even worse. He's already angry and passive aggressive if I say no, I'm sure he won't get better when he knows I'm not going to ruin my writing because he said so. I'm sure I could argue my point that he likes shows that aren't boring and not every character has a love interest, but his attitude is always "**** you, I'm right, bend to my will."

It's called germ-phobia because it's an irrational fear you twat. I can not help it that I have it, so please kindly **** off and quit telling me how I should tell you why. I can't tell you why, because it's an irrational fear, and impossible to explain. So if you could stop being completely filthy and almost never washing you hands, that would be fantastic. But seeing how you "treat" my irrational fear of dogs by "**** you, here's a place with a bunch of dogs, **** you if you have a panic attack" I can be reasonably sure that I'll get something like "**** you, you can't wash your hands" or some bull****. It's not to much to ask that you just keep your hands off things I own, or at least wash your filthy, disgusting as **** hands before you though my things. But asking for anything around here is just "**** you, I will be a dick and will not accommodate you in any way shape or form, and though **** if you don't like it." But if I say no I will get hell for a couple days.

I don't feel like I'm welcome here anymore. I feel like all of you hate me or just think I'm someone who's boring and should be ignored. I'm always interrupted and nobody pays attention to me for more than a few seconds.

I'm still scaring myself with these random outbursts of mine. I'm thankful about the fact that I usually don't show it, but when I'm on my own I just feel like yelling but at the same time I want to laugh. I feel like I don't have the energy to do any of those though. I feel so drained. I just want to be okay but I can't get it all off my chest. It's so hard to explain it all and I can't even understand it or describe it to myself.

Forget it. I'm just going to step back for a while and calm down. I just don't want to hear anything from any of them right now. I need to take a break.

why am I so evil ;~;

The hell did I just do

Edit: part removed

I really need to shut up

Well, I guess this is it.

This will be the fight that decides everything. Where I put my mental health and well-being ahead of your agenda that you've been shoving down my throat that has done nothing but damage me further. And because I'm not being the perfect obedient puppet doing exactly as you command, you will scream and shout, throw **** around in the house, and basically throw a massive tantrum because you didn't get your way.

You might have intimidated and scared everyone else off with your abusive tactics, but you can only get away with it for so long before they inevitably bite back. I have had enough of your ****.

I have talked to everyone else and have made peace with my decision. There is not a damned thing you can do to me, 20 years living with you taught me to make the perfect catch-all plan in the event that **** goes inevitably south.

You may have been winning battles left and right and making me think that I will never get the upper hand, but in the time that it really matters most, I will be winning this war. One way or another. So play your hand, because I already have mine.

****, why did I wait till last minute again
Dis paper gonna kill me

>accidentally comes across yaoi hentai.

talking is hard lately. i keep getting this feeling that i am overbearing and an annoyance, and i can't shake it no matter what.
asking for reassurance is proving to be worse yet, as i immediately beat myself down for even speaking up and asking others if i bother them.

it is probably best if i shut my mouth and crawl back into the hole i came from. it's where i belong anyhow. leaving would keep me from inadvertently ticking everyone off, maybe i should do that too.

hickeys are really nice oh wow
i hope ill be able to cover up all three in time for the con lol

I know why I was deeply depressed yesterday, I felt pathetic. I see people able to play together on MMOs or on multiplayer games, they communicate with each other and just are able to do things together. Me? I just sort of am in my corner doing most things by myself... Makes me feel so pathetic. That's all gone now but... I don't want this happen in the future, I don't want to be ruining any moods just because I see things like this.

That's most of the reason, there are other small parts like being confused about certain things but I'm fixing that with slow realizations, but now I have to fix the big problem I had yesterday somehow.

i feel motivated to flirt with people who I have no chance with but I reject those who do want to have a relationship with me